i passed my organic test....tho it ain't really that good....but after converting it to percentages...i've got an A i think...
yeah...and my german vocab test today i think i might get full marks... :D
the wonders of mass cramming...
anyway...met Aileen and Alicia for lunch today...
ate at the deck...before walking to bizad for mango ice!
Yumm
:D
anyway....i was doing my usual rubbish stuff called suggesting matches for our dear beloved miss lam...
and...
well...there's a food or drink to describe every guy i suggested...
:D
*drumrolls*
Xiangyu : dark chocolate....nice at first taste, but after eating too much...you'll feel like vomiting...
Nick : tequila....i don't know why....
Jun Liang : Vodka with Coke....addictive...but makes you bloated...and you'll vomit after taking too much...
Joe : Warm milk....nice fuzzy homey feeling....but he's too young.... : /
Shang : Coconut....hard on the outside...soft on the inside...
Peter : Durian...nuff said...
David : Carrot juice....very healthy....
Irvin : Banana juice (banana got juice meh?) ...i forgot why liao...
erm...guess that's all...
so....
yeah...kinda bored...not planning to study tonight...
gonna sleep after watching AI...
gonna have a German party on Friday... :D
cool....having Deutschkuchen(german cakes) und Pizza und drinks....(not sure whether we're getting Bier tho...)
not going for operation this year....so...well...
yeah..
Above All
Above all powers, above all kings
Above all nature and all created things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man
You were here before the world began
Above all kingdoms, above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth
There’s no way to measure what You’re worth
Crucified laid behind a stone
You lived to die rejected and alone
Like a rose trampled on the ground
You took the fall and thought of me
Above all
Crucified laid behind a stone
You lived to die rejected and alone
Like a rose trampled on the ground
You took the fall and thought of me
Above all
Above all powers, above all kings
Above all nature and all created things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man
You were here before the world began
Above all kingdoms, above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth
There’s no way to measure what You’re worth
Crucified laid behind a stone
You lived to die rejected and alone
Like a rose trampled on the ground
You took the fall and thought of me
Above all
Crucified laid behind a stone
You lived to die rejected and alone
Like a rose trampled on the ground
You took the fall and thought of me
Above all
Like a rose trampled on the ground
You took the fall and thought of me
Above all
Shanty: Follow that dream
Kah Cheong's performing at Jubilee Theatre...anyone wanna go with me?
it's this joint venture with Theatreworks...
and recall...Kah Cheong = engin guy from nus = my project group guy last year?
so...any one wants to go??
lemme know kay?
"In every life there comes a time when that dream you dream becomes a reality… even if it be for a brief passing."
60's Talentime meets Pop Idol! Catch the new tWorks production that celebrates the dreams, naivety, passion and youthful energy of four dreamers from different backgrounds, in their quest for fame and stardom! Come chart the trials and tribulations that await these four young hopefuls as they embark on a bitter-sweet journey of self-realisation!
Starring Chua Enlai (Best Actor for Life! Theatre Awards 2002), Joe Pang (One of CLEO’s Most Eligible Bachelor 2001) and introducing fresh new faces Ravi Raaj Marimootoo (One of CLEO’s Most Eligible Bachelor 2004) and Chim Kah Cheong (Watch this Space!).
Also featuring Harris Zaidi (TV Most Eligible Bachelor) as your dream master.
"As a person I am nothing. I have nothing and if I continue the way that I am, I will be nothing. But if I’m in a band, I can be something. I am part of something – something bigger than me and maybe something better. I need to be in a band. I need you guys to help me be something." Boon, age 19, drifter
"Elvis has a widow mother, I have a widow mother. Elvis lived in a small town, I live in a small town. Elvis was a good Christian boy, I … ok. But two out of three isn’t bad, so why can’t I be as big as Elvis?" – Bobby, age 17, vacuum-cleaner salesman
Some days you're the pigeon, and some days you're the statue.
guido is so damm freaking cute...
guido's one of my gunbound mates...
damm cute...
i've got AIM....don't ask why...but currently..i've got icq, yahoo messanger, msn and aim all working on my labby...
no idea why...
i'm being corrupted....by nem....man....he's corrupting me....our conversation started with him telling me that he's found a new apartment...and then we had a minor disagreement about some photos...and now we're talking about sex...he being the expert on the topic...and me..well..being innocent...lol
so...interesting conversation...told him i'll prolly be corrupted by him once i set foot on colorado... :D and i found free lodging in colorado...lol...interesting.....lol....
if you guys have either one of the above...lemme know/ add me...
Aim: advangard
Msn: ein tintenfisch
icq: 21193238
yahoo: ein_tintenfisch
k?
man...
Ian Thorpe got disqualified....
man...
can't believe it....
damm damm double damm...
X-Links was good today...
the Lord came and visited us...
:D
stayed for a while too...
:D
anyway...crystal's spongebob...i'm patrick...erm...ryan's mr krab and i forgot who's squidward and we're short of a sandy too... :D
we learnt about the Sword that God gave us...*drumrolls* the BIBLE!
*grins*
and..
we learnt about commitment...
commitment is a series of choices...
it's about having faith to do something that you know will glorify Him, even tho you don't feel like doing it...
today's session made me think through loads of stuff....
maybe not loads...but well...some stuff...
you know that there are time where you feel utterly useless and hopeless...
erm...the example i'm going to use would be like in a test...
especially in NUS...
grades are of UTMOST IMPORTANCE in NUS...
every little thing counts...it ain't like the candy-coated lives we once led in PJC...
anyway...since coming into N-blardy-US...
i've been copying loads of stuff...
every week i'll copy something...
it's becoming this way of life...
maybe it wasn't that bad last semester..
but it's getting worse this sem tho...
i can copy without even feeling guilty or whatever uncomfortable feeling that i'm supposed to feel...
anyway...back to the main point....
seems like everytime i copy...it shows how little faith i've placed in the Lord..
it shows that i don't trust Him enough to give Him FULL CONTROL of EVERYTHING in my life...
that i have more faith in MYSELF than in Him...
which is wrong...
it's like placing more importance over myself than in Him..
i'm gonna break this habit of copying...
it's gonna be hard...
but well...
i'll do it...
i need someone to nag at me tho...
anyway...we were doing Luke 9:57-62
overall...there are 3 things to be learn..
1. "Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay His head."
this means that Jesus wasn't accepted in the world that we're in...and this means that WE, christians, won't gain acceptance in this world...
like what Pastor Steven said...if our boss don't get acceptance...how can we get acceptance?
yar...but we've got an offensive weapon against the Devil tho...we've got the Bible!! that's our Sword of the Spirit! and it's only powerful when we use it....
2. "Let the dead bury their own dead, but you go and preach the kingdom of God."
this means that God must ALWAYS have the HIGHEST PRIORITY in our lives...including above burying your own father...erm...using the example from the Bible....yeah....not exactly said by me...just quoting an example... :D so...yeah...He's must have the utmost priority in our lives...
3. "No one, having put his hand to the plow, and lookig back, is fit for the kingdom of God."
this means that once we decided to serve the Lord, you cannot look back..Pastor gave an example of this...he said that if a farmer who's ploughing the fields turns his head and looks back...his plough will not be straight..and he will not be able to plant his seeds in a straight line...and if his plough hits a boulder and breaks, he won't be able to complete his ploughing and he would have to throw his plough away...so..yeah...cannot look back...
basically that's the word for the day...
anyway...Pastor was telling us about his son, Joshua...about he being unwilling to surrender his Gardenia bread to his dad....until Pastor Steven showed him the slice of cake that he wanted to give him in exchange for the "strangled, decapitated piece of bread". This strikes a chord with me...seriously...many a times we're willing to lay all our burdens...our troubles...all the bad stuff on Him...for Him to bear them for us...but have we ever laid all the good stuff that we are blessed with to Him? did we ever surrender all these to Him willingly? we might be like Joshua...grasping our little piece of Gardenia bread in our hands...squinting at Him as He approaches...shaking our heads to Him when He asks us to hand the piece of bread to Him...
Would you willingly hand something that you think it's good to Him? without any doubts...any suspicions to what He's going to do with it? Without any assurance that by giving Him what i consider good..i'll get something that's double or triple or many times better than what i have now...I know i wouldn't...wouldn't want to take such a risk...but i hope i will from now on...man...yeah...today's x-links was GOOD!
anyway...time for announcements!
THE RESURRECTION OF JESUS CHRIST @ Foochow Methodist Church on 11th April 04
go and support them kay?
and to watch lar...they've put in LOADS of effort...and it's really quite nice..
Shang's performing! haha...if that's of any help... :D
OH...my whole house's running on wireless now...
*grins*
finally...
Cruise-Cruz relationship crashes
It should have crashed ages ago...
It's long overdued in my opinion...
X-links later!!
finally i'll be able to go without coming home to throw stuff outta mah bag...
i'll be going Straight..
and i had a dream about wei an...
that idiot...
wonder what happened to him...
he's my oh-so-cute brother from RJC..
heh...he won't see this entry so...what-the-hell...
yeah...
i'll send him an sms or something later...
"I've got the strangest feeling that somewhere, a pirate and a parrot are arguing about me...and the parrot's winning..."-Spongebob, Spongebob BC
Ying didn't kill me...but i almost killed jasmine...
hahaha
and..my german test is screwed...
i happily copied eufo's and ying's answers...but it's VERY contradicting...
so i stuck with eufo's answers...becuz..no idea why...
:D
oh wells...
don't think i'll do well for the paper...
i've gotta start studying for the german vocab test for nachtes Woche..
need to redeem myself...
:D
i'm gonna slack for the rest of the day...
shall go and bang on my piano with my metronome...
tick tick tick tick....
Ying's gonna chop me into little bits and feed me to the sharks...
i'm supposed to meet her at 5pm to crash the welcome tea...
but i'm still at home...and it's 4.35pm...
can't blame me...
i'd just reached home...
and....
for someone who's trying to be rather insignificant in all my classes...
it's not working...
damm....
i'm getting way too much attention...
and i don't know why....
sigh...is there a gigantic pimple or something on my nose?
*checks nose*
nah...looks fine...
i've gotta run before i get FRIED and then chopped into lil bits to be thrown into the sea...
i've got a german test later...
Be Still and Know I am God....
yeah...i know You're God....can you help me please?
:D
One Boy, One Girl
i'm still not over this song yet...
i need new songs to get over this song and the other song that xuexin drilled into my brain...which is my background music by the way....
should be playing some new songs...chords whatevars tomorrow when i meet the guys...
maybe...
i should start making a list of stuff to do to maximise learning...
:D
1. LESS GUNBOUND
2. MORE BOOKS
3. LESS SLEEP
4. MORE BOOKS
all these works out to mean...i shouldn't study at home....
i might be camping in school...will see how...
any room on campus for me to bunk in?
sigh...off to school now...it's gonna be a long day today...won't be coming home in between classes...
hence i'll be in school from 10AM to 8PM
that's freaking 10hours!!!
damm...
and out of 10 hours...i've got classes for 7hours...
German is damm difficult....
went to school to study for tomorrow's german test....or rather this evening's german test...
was there till about 1030pm...
started at SDE went to Macdonalds...and ended up using MSN in the Computer Center...
was kinda fun...and somewhat fruitful...
:D
we were like kinda stalking Yingchao thru MSN...
he's a VERY VERY VERY nice guy...
tried to teach me german online...
from 11 to 1am...
so nice huh?
and he was like so you better get your 'S' arh...
:D
cuz i happily went to declare S/U on my german....
S/U = either i pass or i fail...i won't get any grades...which makes it less stressful....
oh wells...
i guess i'm ok....i hope....
maybe i'll go sit next to Yingchao during class tomorrow...then i can compare my answers to his...
*grins*
then again...maybe not...i'll find someone else...
oh wells....
i'll try my darnest to get Yingchao to tutor me in german for next semester...
His german is Sehr Gut...
:D
i should stop in case any of my german classmates reads this....
:x
lalala...Yingchao's a nice guy that's all....lalalala
you guys who are from my german class are nice too...lalalalalala...
:x
i'm brain dead....
i need more brain cells...
*zzzzzzzzzz*
I've got an Ulcer!!!
:(
had a chemistry test this morning....
hopefully i'll scrap through...
*prays for miracle*
didn't really studied for it..so...i'm ok with whatever the results are...
i'm officially BROKE...
i've gotta start scrimping and saving my money...
cuz...i'm going on a HOLIDAY!!!
to down under!
hee...i'm paying for EVERYTHING myself!
erm...my parents are getting the air ticket for me...so that doesn't really count...
and since i'll be bunking over at someone's place....lodging is FREE!! and erm...well..i could survive on junk food...and jing has a u-card that doesn't run out of money... *grins*
it's like this magic card...money automatically tops up when it's empty...heh...
but donations are very much appreciated tho...since i'll have to go shopping...
:D
Bondi beach here i come!! *beams*
oh shiet...
it's winter by the time i get there...
sigh..no beach hunks or whatevers...
oh well...
*pouts*
hope we'll go hunter's valley tho...i wanna get wine!! tons of wine...and port...
:D
that's my motivation for the time being....
staring at the travel brochures for australia...
*daydreams*
but my exams are coming soon....VERY VERY VERY soon...
3 weeks...
i've gotta start mugging...
mug mug mug...
i'll be a happy mugger...
relying of tons of coffee to stay awake...
i've got organic reactions to memorize...
thermochemical equations to sort out..
and physics equations to write nicely...
plus...a semester's worth of statistics assignments to attempt...
damm...it looks gloomy....
have to run back to uni later...
was too pissed to go for my tutorial...so..i came home to take a nap and i saw minh on gunbound...haha
meeting jasmine to study german stuff...
my semester test is tomorrow...and after that...
it's one module down...4 more to go...
i seriously need cash...i need dough...
i need money to shop in australia...and i need money for people to shop for stuff for me in germany...
damm...
ok...
WHO NEEDS TUITION???
currently i'm desperate enough to offer tuition for the following subjects....
1. primary school EVERYTHING including chinese...but that's at your own risk...
2. lower secondary EVERYTHING....also including chinese...but then again...it's risky...
3. upper secondary...Both MATHEmatics...Biology....Chemistry...and Physics...
4. Junior College....Chemistry...
5.Polytechnic....Maths....
oh and...
I'll teach PIANO too!!!
errrr....i could also teach these....
i'll teach you to play gunbound
i'll teach you how to blog...
i'll teach you how to speak German!
best of all...i'll teach you the art of blending into the wall...so that your teacher will ignore your presence...tho it isn't really working for my case...but still....i'm working on it...
so..any takers?
either that or...
ANYBODY KNOWS OF ANY JOB VACANCIES ANYWHERE?
oh...and to sidetrack...
i'm gonna cut my hair after the exams...
it's getting too cumbersome and irritating...
no idea what to cut it to yet...lemme know if you've got any suggestions...
my hair's longer than the length of an A4 piece of paper...
that's kinda long...and the weather kinda hot...so well..
anyway!
my lan card is back! went to send it back to the company cuz it was SPOILT!
and because of that...
my internet usage has dropped dramatically..*grins*
i'm back on the world of wireless technology! erm...on monday...
when i send the card for installation at school...
then it's nus's high speed FREE internet service!!
*beams*
anyway..the next post is a very interesting conversation between winfrid and me...
he's now trying to get me to get it off my blog...
*time for a little blackmail...*
*grins*
damm...the conversation is gone...
i forgot to make a copy...
*sheeze*
The Story of One Boy and One Girl...as told by Me...
He finally gave in to his friend's girlfriend. When she said, "There's someone you should meet," he gave in. They arranged to meet at a crowded restaurant way across town. He was early, so he waited for his blind date. And he waited, and waited. Soon, he was getting impatient. Then, she walked in. Their eyes connected, and they were both staring at each other. At that moment, right in the middle of the restaurant, the whole world disappeared, leaving them alone in their world. One boy and one girl. Two heart beating wildly, crazily, thumping loudly. To anybody else, it may seem to be love at first sight. But what happened was deeper than that. Calling it love at first sight would be to crass simplification of what they felt. Smiling at each other, they knew that this was the moment that they had been waiting all of their lives. At this moment, the whole world revolved around that one boy and one girl.
this is a story that i presumed collin raye was trying to describe in his song...and i believe that this happens in real life.. All it takes is that special moment.. a split second...a connection..a tingle..to know that you've found your soulmate..
I can really picture the scene...
Imagine....A busy city...metropolis...let's take New York for instance..his friend's girlfriend's pushy...she wants both of her single friends to meet for a blind date..she loves being the matchmaker..there she is bullying him into going for the date..it was arranged to have dinner at a cozy, small Italien restaurant just at the other side of town..The restaurant looks warm, friendly..nothing like those fancy ones at the central district...the decor was plain..checked tablecloths..a candle was lit and placed in little glasses on each table...a vase containing one plastic rose was there...trying to add to sophistication to the whole place..he sat in a booth by the window...he sat there watching the view of the streets...watching clouds gather...watching rainclouds form...watching raindrops dancing by the window pane...after waiting for quite a while...he was getting impatient...WHERE WAS SHE? As he was preparing to leave...she walked in..she was caught in the rain.. when she glanced across the room...their eyes met...and they stared at each other...and at that point in time...the world revolved around them....
Always believed that the Lord made 2 people at a shot..always 2..never 1 or 3... and it would always be one boy and one girl..maybe they were separated by distance...maybe they were near each other all the while, but yet they never had the chance to meet...they would spend their whole lives searching for each other..maybe they'll meet...maybe not.. but once they meet...they'll know...they'll know that that's their soulmate...their partner..their companion...that's what i believe...
I'm still waiting for my moment to happen...
"There is no use trying," said Alice; "one can't believe impossible things."
"I dare say you haven't had much practice," said the Queen. "When I was your age, I always did it for half an hour a day. Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast." -- Lewis Carroll
One boy, One girl
He finally gave in to his friend's girlfriend
When she said, "there's someone you should meet"
At a crowded restaurant way cross town
He waited impatiently
When she walked in their eyes met
And they both stared
And right there and then everyone else disappeared but
Chorus:
One boy, one girl, two hearts beating wildly
To put it mildly it was love at first sight
He smiled, she smiled, and they knew right away
This was the day they'd waited for all their lives
And for a moment the whole world revolved
Around one boy and one girl
In no time at all they were standing there
In the front of a little church
In front of their friends and family
Repeating those sacred words
Preacher said, "son kiss your bride"
And he raised her veil
Like the night they met time just stood still
Repeat chorus
He was holding her hand when the doctor looked up and grinned
"congratulations, twins"
Repeat chorus
"One must still have chaos in oneself to be able to give birth to a dancing star." -- Friedrich Nietzsche
"Sometimes just to live is blessing enough.
Sometimes just to see is miracle enough.
Sometimes just to think is wonder enough.
Sometimes just to love is all there is."
Rabbi Steven Carr Reuben
"Believe that none of the effort you put into
coming closer to God is ever wasted - even if in
the end you don't achieve what you are striving
for."
Rabbi Nachman of Breslov
Perhaps Love
Perhaps love is like a resting place
A shelter from the storm
It exists to give you comfort
It is there to keep you warm
And in those times of trouble
When you are most alone
The memory of love will bring you home
Perhaps love is like a window
Perhaps an open door
It invites you to come closer ( you wrote close)
It wants to show you more
And even if you lose yourself
And don’t know what to do
The memory of love will see you through
Oh, love to some is like a cloud
To some as strong as steel
For some a way of living
For some a way to feel
And some say love is holding on
And some say letting go
And some say love is everything
And some say they don’t know
Perhaps love is like the ocean
Full of conflict, full of pain (you wrote - change)
Like a fire when it’s cold outside
Or thunder when it rains
If I should live forever
And all my dreams come true
My memories of love will be of you
my stupid crab tried to escape frm the blardy tank and he/she/it died...
stupid...
dumb...
crabs have NO brains...
so small...table so high...
and yet that idiot jumped...
*slaps forehead*
ended up hiding at the bottom of my bIG fishtank...
stupidity....
so stupidly amusing...
guess i should have told the uncle to get me a SMART crab..instead of a pretty one...
sigh...
that crab is an AIRHEAD....
so NOT like it's owner...
sigh...
"When you come to the edge of all the light you
have, and you must take a step into the darkness
of the unknown, believe that one of two things
will happen to you, either there will be
something solid for you to stand on, or you will
be taught how to fly."
colourquiz
Your Existing Situation
Trying to improve her position and prestige. Dissatisfied with her existing circumstances and considers some improvement essential to her self-esteem.
Your Stress Sources
Delights in the tasteful, the gracious, and the sensitive, but maintains her attitude of critical appraisal and refuses to be swept off her feet unless genuineness and integrity can be absolutely vouched for. Therefore keeps a strict and watchful control on her emotional relationships as she must know exactly where she stands. Demands complete sincerity as a protection against her own tendency to be too trusting.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Willing to become emotionally involved and able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.
Remains emotionally unattached even when involved in a close relationship.
Your Desired Objective
Wants to make up for what she feels she has missed by living with exaggerated intensity; in this way she feels she can break free from all the things that oppress him.
Your Actual Problem
Wants to act freely and uninhibitedly, but is restrained by her need to have things on a rational, consistent, and clearly-defined basis
According to Emode....i'm a
Heart-Strong Idealist
You're an impassioned individual who just can't suppress your ideals. You've got a strong sense of right and wrong, and want to let people know when they've crossed the line. Sure, there are times when you sit back to hear both sides of an argument. But people had better stay out of the way when your fiery passions take hold.
But just because you can be a bit of a rebel with a cause, it doesn't mean you're incapable of being understanding and compassionate. It's because you're so invested in your ideas and interests that you can work so tirelessly toward your goals and speak up for what you believe in. So keep pouring your heart into it. With conviction like yours, you're sure to succeed!
The Recreational Talker
Who needs a reason to call when friends are just a speed dial away? There's no need to be alone — not when your pals are on the other end of the line. Let's face it. You've got a lot of opinions and it's fun to share them with people real-time. Why wait to discuss the big play or who was just voted off the island when you can compare notes as things happen?
You probably connect with friends because when it comes down to it, you just like to talk — even when you don't have a lot to say. Your buds will probably agree that it's your sunny, funny chatty style that makes you a fun friend to hear from anytime. So keep it up and keep sharing with everyone in your phonebook.
Lobby and Crabby
There lived a rock lobster called Lobby and a baby crab called Crabby...
They lived in a fish tank in an aquarium in Kallang Bahru... :D
Never did they know that on one fateful afternoon....
A little girl would make a trip down to Kallang Bahru after school, after going to ICA to collect her new passport, just to buy a rock lobster..
and miracles of all miracles....
she ended up at the aquarium where Lobby and Crabby lived in....
She asked to uncle to choose 1 pretty rock lobster and 1 pretty crab for her...
and the uncle, using his BIG GREEN NET....
he fished crabby and lobby from their tanks and plopped them into the plastic bag...
the little girl took the bag excitedly and left the shop...
she brought her new pets to sit the mrt....
and the bus...
she even brought them on tour around shenton way...
they sat on a seat next to her while she happily munched on her 200g of gummibears...
she placed them in the goldfish bowl....but she felt that they would fight eventually...
so she placed crabby in another bowl...
lobby was FURIOUS...he scowls at the little girl whenever he sees her...
soon...the little girl will get tired of his scowling....and she'll cook him....
just wait and see...
i'm feeling kinda bo liao-ed now...
went blog surfing...
found something interesting...it's not some entry on a blog...
rather it's this piece of music...a piano piece entry actually...
it's sounds WOAH...
very nice...
it's on shangwei's blog...
very nice...
no idea how i ended up at that blog...it's a matter of links i guess...
found the song....it's WONDERFUL....and shang was correct...it's by jim brickman...it's called December morning...
by sheer willpower and bo-liaoness....i've gotten myself a new e-mail account...
will be using it often i guess....going to try to get rid of one of the yahoo accounts....
either that or i'll use it for junk mail...
anyway...
the new address is...
Ein_tintenfisch@yahoo.com.de
ein tintenfisch = a octopus...
can't find the word squid in the german dictionary...so i guess this will have to do...
:D
Speed is scarcely the noblest virtue of graphic composition,
but it has its curious rewards.
A Bug's Life
heh....watched a Bug's life yesterday...
damm cute...
Pixar animations ROCK!
thinking of working in disney next time...
but i don't think they need a chemistry grad right?
heh..
:D
oh well..
it's amazing how watching cartoons can make me feel young again...
:D
it's like...in the few hours...it was me and the bugs...
i really really hated the grasshoppers...
and i'm soooo in love with the caterpillar and the stick insect...
even tho there's a part in me saying that it's just a story, a cartoon to fool kids...
but..there's another part of me that says SO WHAT? i like being fooled...
i rather you lie to me and make my world simple and carefree than tell me the harsh truth of reality...
could i just spend another 5 mins in my bubble before reality pricks it and truth seeps in?
please?
The Story of the Oil seller and the Queen Courtesan
There once was a poor oil seller who went around from house to house selling oil for lamps. By a chance meeting, he got acquainted to this queen courtesan of a brothel. The two of them became fonder of each other with each meeting. The queen courtesan would always volunteer to buy oil from the oil seller just to be able to exchange a few words with him and spend that few seconds looking adoringly at his face. The oil seller too, would look forward to seeing his beloved for that few seconds each day. Soon, they found themselves helplessly in love with each other. Sadly, because of the difference in status, the two lovers never physically professed their love in fear of rumours from the village folk.
One fine day, the oil seller plucked up enourmous courage and professed his love for the courtesan and told her that he'll work day and night for money to redeem her from the brothel. The courtesan in turn asked for more oil lamps to be put in her room stating that she was afraid of the dark.(This was a ploy to help the oil seller earn more money as more oil is bought)
As a queen courtesan, this young lady had many suitors who were willing to redeem her from the brothel in exchange that she would become their mistress. Two such rich masters came to contest for the courtesan's hand in marriage. They competed in a wine drinking contest but the courtesan had already found her true love. The two men left that night, allowing the courtesan to make up her mind between them.
Finally, the mamasan decided that another contest should be held to decide the courtesan's husband. This came in the form of a lantern contest in which the person with the most beautiful lantern would win the courtesan's hand in marriage. This competition was held outside the brothel in which the courtesan and her mamansan watched from the brothel's balcony. The first man came with many eye-mesmerising lanterns which wowed the entire village folk. However, the second man's lantern which was made by a famous designer left the village folk gasping in amazement.
At this point of time the oil seller was walking pass and seeing his beloved being put up for 'sale' and being unable to put a stop to this 'sale', he burst out in anger. The first man despised him for his lowly job and challenged him, saying that the courtesan would be his if he could produce the most beautiful lantern and that he would also pay for his wedding if he won. The first man taunted him and sent his men to chase the poor oil seller away.
The oil seller went away feeling helpess and in despair. He broke the two pots of oil he was carrying into a thousand pieces by smashing them on a wall and lamented at his lowly paid job and the lack of wealth. 'How could I produce the most beautiful lantern? I have no money, I am just a poor oil seller.' With this he covered his face with his hands and cried.
At this moment, with divine intervention, the thousand broken pieces of the pot with some oil in them began to light up. 'Who says that a beautiful lantern requires lots of money? Even so, without your oil the most beautiful lantern cannot be the most beautiful', a voice retorted. Back at the brothel, the first man had brought out a gargantuan pink lantern which was purportedly constructed by a well known constructor and required 10 men a time of 3 days and 3 nights to complete. Undoubtedly, the first man had won the competition between the men.
At this very moment before the winner was announced, a certain spark on the left of the brothel caught the attention of the courtesan and the mamasan. They both looked in that direction and saw the oil seller lighting many lanterns using the thousand pieces of broken pot and oil. He filled the entire road with these small lanterns. The mamasan immediately declared the oil seller and the overall winner.
Unsatisfied with the result, the first man turned to the crowd and asked them whether whose lantern was the most beautiful. The result was a unanimous vote for the oil seller.
The queen courtesan then came down and hugged the oil seller. As the entire crowd stared incessantly at the beautiful sight of lit lights with awe and admiration, the queen courtesan and the oil seller just stood and stared into each others eyes with the air of love surrounding them.
-took frm jeremy's blog-
very awwwwww....
sounds similar to Moulin Rouge to me....but...Jeremy says it's not Moulin Rouge...so...guess it's not lar...
haha
but still it's AWWWWWW.....so sweet....
Blur
sheeze....
i feel damm blur...
ha..
spent the whole morning and part of the afternoon trying to cram german vocabs into my brain for the german vocab test..
managed to cram them in...
came online...
saw jasmine who happily reminded me that there was german test this week..
and i was like...yar...i know...got 2 tests wad...1st lecture and 2nd lecture...
and she was like...
Nooooo...
it's the semester test on the 1st lecture this week...and the vocab test on the 2nd lecture next week...
*sigh*
feel like banging my head against the wall...
i studied for the WRONG thing...
damm
damm
double damm
sigh..
that's it man...
i'm blurred...
sigh...
i've got a chemistry test on thurs too...
that one i'm quite sure....
but i'll better go ask around to be sure.....
sheeze.....
Growing
I think i'm growing...
maybe...
well...yeah..
went for church today...
worship was pretty good...
think i'll like to teach the church youths music...
:D
the idea is appealing to me more and more...
had fun in church today...
we were making the costumes for the musical..
heh...
interesting to see people cut crooked (ME!)
and people who cannot sew...(ME!)
hahaha
and i learnt how to play chords today...
as in for right hand also...
:D
xue xin teach one..
hee
erm...i've got a PHOTOBLOG!!!sharing it with winfrid...
:D
the heart of worship...
the very heart of worship....
the essence of worship...
it isn't about singing the song because it sounds good...
or that the lyrics are fantabulous...
who are you singing this song to?
why are you singing this song?
it's always easy to worship and give thanks in the good times...
it is significantly harder to worship when things turn for the worst..
it is extremely hard to give thanks when things get tough, and you're not getting the backup support that you want to get...
it's like screaming your lungs out and yet not hear an echo...
it's when you start praying all types of prayers...simple short ones...long fanciful ones...
it's like flipping a troubleshoot manual and yet not being able to find the cause of the problem...
it's like digging for eons and not reaching the root...
trust me...i've been there so many times...
it's hard to thank the Lord when you're presented with setbacks...
but still...
hold on to the belief that the Lord has a plan for you...
a path that He has paved for you...
a path that might be less trodden...
a winding path...
an uphill climb..
a path with no scenery...
a path that doesn't seem to end...
but nevertheless...
it's a path all the same...
detours might be taken...
u-turns might be made...
some may stray and try to forge a path of their own...
others may give up and call it quits..
who knows who you'll be at the end of the journey..
and guess what...
the journey doesn't end on earth....
in fact..it barely even started...
JING! damm amazing but i guess everything below is for you too... hahaha....well...since my name starts with either a J or an A....i'm entitled to both... :D
Does your name begin with: A
U are not particularly romantic, but you are interested in action.You mean business. With you, what you see is what you get.You have no patience for flirting and can't be bothered with someone who is trying to be coy, cute, demure, and subtly enticing. You are an up-front person. You often don't get hints & you ever pass any. Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is! intellectually stimulating, otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the relationship. You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated. Your mate's physical attractiveness is important for you. You tend to be very Practical, & not very emotional Your choices are very good & can only lead to trouble.(HUH????) You are very self satisfied & egoistic.(I AM NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Does your name begin with: J
You are blessed with a great deal of physical energy. When used for a good cause there is nothing to stop you, except maybe that they aren't always used for the good. (you could dance all night.) You respond to the thrill of the chase and the challenge of the mating game.You can carry on great romances in your head.(true.....) At heart you are a roamer and need to set out on your own every so often. (true.....) You will carry on long- distance relationships with ease. (uh huh.....) You are idealistic and need to believe in love. (Correct....) You have a need to be nurtured deep within.
erm...i declare that the first letter of my name starts with J...i don't want A.....unless the next bo-liao e-mail comes along and has something good for A... :D
DECEMBER
Loyal and generous,Patriotic,Active in games and interactions,Impatient and hasty,Ambitious,Influential in organizations,Loves to socialize,Loves praises,Loves attention,Loves to be loved,Honest and trustworthy,Not pretending,Short tempered and egoistic (errr....i'm not egoistic....i'm not.....),Takes high pride in oneself,Hates restrictions,Loves to joke,Good sense of humor,Logical
Capricorn
Turn ons
Capricorn are strong and dependable hence if you want to put your money on anyone it is of course this zodiac sign no matter how many difficulties (that incidentally are many) The goat has to undertake to achieve the goals. They are practical and conservative in their outlook and they expect you to blend in their color. They set certain standards for themselves in their life and they will always try to maintain those standards. For them social status and image is very important in life.
Turn offs
Do not expect a Capricorn mate to open their heart and pour everything to you. They are very secretive and reserved people. They are very thorough in all their affairs and hate any kind of sloppiness. Capricorn is very tightfisted and economical. Do not expect lavish gifts from them and if they do give you any gift (that is very rare) it will have some practical use (no romance please) but that does not mean you will be deprived of anything on the contrary you will be well provided. (WHAT RUBBISH IS THIS????!!!!????????)
I'm disturbed when i see a grown man with a cartoon-adorned bag.
I had a dream...
the main characters are this dentist/vet/medical person ( i forgot which...) and me..(duh...it's MY dream...)
i think we were married (???!!!????) or we were living together...(aiya...how to remember...)
Anyway, the guy is Asian(sigh....WHY??)
and from what i remembered...he's my first love (technically might be possible.....) anyway...
the WHOLE dream does not make sense....
but the guy looks cute tho... *grins*
kinda forgotten what the plot was...but still...he's CUTE
:D
anyway...this whole dream does not even seem remotely similar to my current life...
Did i just forecasted something? or someone else's dream?
heh...
maybe i'm like Joseph...can read dreams... :D
but...then again...Joseph wasn't the one who had the dreams wad....
he only explained the dreams....
hmmmm....
so...anyone wants to be my dream interpreter?
and...from what i remember...he doesn't look vietnamese....so it can't be minh....
*jing...you know who's minh right? vietnameses? USA? erm...medical school? GUNBOUND???*
haha
oh well...
bah..
came home after school...tried to remeet that guy...but....he wasn't there...or rather...
i didn't have any dreams....
maybe it only works at night...
i shall try again tonight...
heh...
:D
anyway...a question!!
Does blood boil? Seriously?
The Wishing Wand
spent the evening reading Enid Blyton's stories...
had to do a german flash in school first...came home at around 10...
just cleaned myself up and stuff...
then sat on my bed reading the stories...
the stories that i often read when i was a kid...
the stories of my childhood...
my world of pixies, elves, brownies and faeries...
a world of Big Hat the wizard..Yah-Boo...
in the 40mins that i spent reading the book..
i had no worries...
no upcoming tests...
no tutorials to finish...
no problems with my lan card...
it was just me and my book...
me and the world that i once belonged to..
the world of Enid Blyton revolving around me..
i'm sleepy...
i wanna dream of a world that doesn't exist...
a world that is carefree...innocent..a simple world....
i wonder what will be toys be like if they come alive...
wonder if they come alive when i'm not looking..
seems like ages ago when my toys consist of childhood toys...nowadays...my toys are laptops, mp3 players, digital cameras..
the drastic changes in the defination of a toy...
i wish for simplicity...
I felt endlessly powerful and endlessly optimistic; my pockets were empty, but my head was full of things I wanted to say and my heart was full of stories I wanted to tell. Sounds corny now; felt wonderful then. Felt very cool. More than anything else I wanted to get inside my readers' defenses, wanted to rip them and ravish them and change them forever with nothing but story. And I felt I could do those things. I felt I had been made to do those things.
How conceited does that sound? A lot or a little? Either way, I don't apologize. I was nineteen.
-Stephen King, On Being Nineteen
And maybe i do....
sensitive...maybe....
smart...maybe...but i don't think so...
fuck buddy...hmmmm....maybe....hmmm....
i agree with all except the part about my boobs...
they're not as big as Pam's wad....
*looks down*
yeah...they're not...
Just do what you can. Let God do the rest.
german oral was ok...enuff said....
kinda relaxed today...
feeling loads better...
ha...
well...guess that was just PMS...
cranky mood...
I always get screwed, but it's never in that good way.
the new has come and the old as gone...
and just somehow....
i prefer the new....
yeah...
the new picture looks GREAT...
:D
*beams*
added a section for archives...
currently...the page looks kinda messy to me....
i wonder why...
all done!
If love is a lie, then everyone is telling me the truth.
I wonder....do cactuses shrivel up and dry...
are there such stuff called sun-dried cactuses...
maybe i'll start making them...right from my mum's garden...i'm sure she won't miss them...
wonder if i'll be there to watch them dry and shrivel up...
maybe they'll have wrinkles...
maybe they'll start shedding pricks and thorns...
maybe they shrink and disappear when no one's looking....
maybe they won't shrink ever...
maybe they're indestructable...
indestructable cactuses...
maybe the terminator should have been a cactus....Cactus-man or something...
then he'll have thorns for protection...
i peel prawns at a rate of 1 prawn/min...
guess i won't be working as a professional prawn peeler...
but i smell prawny....
betcha didn't know i like peeling prawns and throwing them into the water...
the satisfying plop...
my mum just saw the postcard at my blog...
yeah... <--- that one...she freaked...
i'll have to get another picture soon...
and...
clay aiken is good....
he sounds great...
was just listening to his tracks...
liked most of the stuff he sang...
might change the background music again.....
we'll see....
spent an hour doing my german stuff...
having oral tomorrow...
feels ok...i guess...
all i have to do is to have a running conversation for about 5-7mins...
think i can manage that....
i hope...
had a glass of martini just now...
given by my dad...
went to gulp the whole thing down...
feeling kinda woozy now...
but then again...
woozy is good...
and i'm fine...
just a phase that i'm going through...
rubbish emotions running through me....
feelin kinda weird these days...or rather these past 2 days...
maybe my emotions are able to flip faster than that of the ring flip of bromobenzene..
i'll be ok...
i'll be praying....
amazing how tired i can feel..when today's only monday...and it's only 11.55pm
trying to practice playing the piano with my eyes shut....
wanna feel my keys rather than look for them...
but guess that's only applicable to worship songs....
can't do that for my pieces...the whole piece will be screwed if i do that....
I don't make a fool of myself. I was born that way.
My background music consists of 2 songs....
anyone wanna guess what they are?
oh...the mindless games i play....
Spongebob game...
it's entertaining...
Life is best when exaggerated.
i gave myself 72hugs today to max the total of 500 hugs...
that's how much i need a hug...
i resort to giving myself internet hugs....
picture is not taken by me.....i just found it nice and borrowed it....
God knows what He's doing. I just wish I knew what He was doing.
disclaimer.....the next few titles have been taken from someone else's site....i'm just not creative enough....
sometimes....when everything seems wrong...
all you need is a friend....
even one who's called S.T.M...(erm...for those who remember this sji guy...korean...MICROMOUSE...need i say more?)
this pig disappeared for 6 mths...i guess...(does mental sums....)
haven't seen much of him around...
and ta-dah!
out of the blue...
he pops out of no where.....
and....
he gives me a Huge oreo cookie plus a glass of milk to dunk my cookie into...
man....
I LOVE HIM!
*hugs*
*beams*
and then.....
he disappears.....
....
and i'm currently talking to the wall....not even getting an echo in return....
>.<
the main points of this WHOLE pointless conversation....
Me (10:58 PM) :
boo!
Him (10:59 PM) :
>.<
Me (10:59 PM) :
haha
why that look?
Him (10:59 PM) :
just lookE! >.<
Me (11:00 PM) :
ok
so is that a constipated look...
a sleepy look
a leave-me-alone look
or a pout?
Him (11:01 PM) :
it's a happy to see u look!
Me (11:01 PM) :
hmmmm....
that didn't look very happy....
*insulted*
Him (11:02 PM) :
eek.
Me (11:02 PM) :
what?
haha
i hate school...
in fact....
i hate my current life...
Me (11:04 PM) :
u there?
*bish*
*bish*
*kicks*
*nudges*
*shouts*
*hears echo....*
Him (11:06 PM) :
woah
Him (11:06 PM) :
why are u so violent!
Him (11:06 PM) :
be a nice girl and i might give u a cookie
Me (11:07 PM) :
imma nice girl
*flashes megawatt smile*
Him (11:07 PM) :
eek. *runs away*
Me (11:07 PM) :
i want my cookie.....
*wails*
Me (11:08 PM) :
*stomp stomp*
Me (11:08 PM) :
*stomp stomp stomp stomp*
*wails*
Him (11:09 PM) :
*gives you a huge oreo*
Me (11:09 PM) :
Yay!
*beams*
Him (11:09 PM) :
*gives u a glass of milk to dunk it in as well*
Me (11:10 PM) :
oh man.....
if you were in the same island as me...
i'll drive over an give you a hell of a hug....
*hug*
Him (11:10 PM) :
lol
(more crapping and bullshitting but i've edited them out...)
-end-
names have been changed to protect the innocent....yeah....ME! i'm the innocent....notice that it's the innocent and not the innocentS...
all i really need now are my family and friends.....
man.....
they're the only physical stuff that i have now....
besides my driving license...my monkeys...my hp...my piano...my books...well yeah...
it's amazing how 12mins of totally useless crappy ramblings can brighten your day....
i feel happier already...or maybe it's the huge oreo and the milk....
or maybe its the exhilirating feeling that you get when you dunk your cookie into the glass of milk....
or the giggling noises that you make when you examine each other's milk moustaches....
or the satisfied feeling you get when you lick your fingers clean....
or maybe it's just the joy that you get from spending time with a friend(a friend who has turned into a wall...but a friend nonetheless...)
Jesaja 40
31 aber die auf den HErrn harren, kriegen neue Kraft, daß sie auffahren mit Flügeln wie Adler, daß sie laufen und nicht matt werden, daß sie wandeln und nicht müde werden.
Isaiah 40
31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. same verse different translations....
i'm tired....
it's either because of the blasted exams that's coming up in a month's time...
or something....
i feel tired...
tired of this life that i'm living...
the bone-dead tired....
life has been sucked out of me....
all that's left is an empty shell....
a shell without a soul....
a body without any ability to feel....
a body that's tired...
i'm tired of running.....
tired of everything....
wanna escape....
to a place that no one knows me....
a place with only the Lord and me....
a secluded place...
a place without an address...
a place to rest....
a place to just be me.....
sick of this life i'm leading....
this life of doing routine stuffs....
this vicious cycle of rushing through my day...
a day which ends up with me having nothing left....
absolutely nothing....
and to end 24hours with nothing gained is very discouraging....
how much more discouragement can i take....
not much i tell you....
not much...
i'm this close to breaking.....
heal me before i shatter.....
make me stronger....
Festering wounds
I'm afraid....
somehow, there's this tiny little voice, telling me that i'm not good enough....
this niggle of doubt...self worthlessness...
telling me that no matter how hard i try i just won't succeed...
wanna prove it wrong...but.....what if it's true...
what if i am that useless...
that i'll never be good enough..
that i'll always be mediocre....
i'm afraid that this voice is correct.....
i'm scared of trying to prove it wrong and find out that it was right all the while...
i'm afraid of something that i have no control over...
the bubble that i'm living in is deflating....
slowly....
a little at a time....
but my world is shrinking...
i'm losing control...
i'm afraid....
i'm afraid that i'll crash and burn....
i need a closet to hide in and my security monkey....
i like watching myself bleed...
was playing with a scab this morning....
playing with a wound that hasn't healed completely...
spent a couple of minutes just looking at the blood oozing out....
went to take a couple of photos of it...my blood...
the blood that was clotting was more like a dot on my leg...
wished that i had a bigger scab...
a bigger scab to play with....
a festering wound....
just came back from driving....
was allowed to drive from balestier to jurong...and from jurong to a multi storey carpark...
then drove all the way home after that....
didn't bang anyone or anything....
but i went up a kerb tho...
no biggie....i always go up kerbs...
:D
ok....that's my point of view anyway.....
just finished copying all my lecture notes and mass tutorial answers....i'm left with the tutorials to copy...and i've got no idea where's my 1131 tutorials 1 and 2...damm...
they're gone....
*shizzle shizzle fizzle*
Jing! Click on the croakingfrogs below each blog to leave a note.... :D
that ultra-'erm....err....lets just stick to cute...' ok....the ultra cute girl doesn't know that the croaking frogs thingy below is a link to my message system...
*faints*
ha...and guess how i know....she called... :D
and my mum was more worried about her 'high' phone bills more than she was....ha
anyway...babe...if you're reading this...wanna say thank you about what you said about my piano skills and stuff...
*touched*
and your church stuff will be ok....it'll all work out in the end.... :D No worrys!
*grins*
go to hillsongs if stuff still don't work out at barneys.....i bet you'll see plenty of purple dinosaurs singing
I LOVE YOU.....YOU LOVE ME....haha
Church today
had an interesting day at church today....
somehow or rather.....reminds me of something i read in 'THE PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE' by rick warren...
it's something along the lines of the importance of church...and what have you contributed to church....
and......
yeah....i told them, the x-linkers, or rather one of the x-linkers, that i would help with the props next saturday....
and.....
i said 'yes' about the teaching piano thingy....
oh well...
seriously have no idea what have i gotten myself into....
hopefully that's what the Lord wants....
i've got no problems with the props....
but..the piano thingy needs commitment....
i'll prolly be able to handle it....but still....i prefer shunning away from commitments....
so....i've got no idea why i said YES....
ha....
i'll just take a step at a time....
lalalalalallaalala
feeling kinda happy tho...
hahaha
I'M GOING TO CHURCH TODAY!
even tho shang hasn't told me HOW to reach church through PUBLIC TRANSPORT...namely the BUS....cuz i've got the bus pass thingy... :D
my mum didn't give any comment when i told her that i was going to church.....
and....
i'm thinking of getting a livejournal....but if i do....it'll only be because i get to add pictures in LJ....
hmmmmm...
nah....not worth the pain...to uproot myself from blogger.....seems tedious....
since i've just got this blog at the beginning of the year anyway....
hmmm
i've got a test at 10am....and guess what....i've not done much studying yet....
hmmmmm....
and we've got a very weird german homework this week....
we gotta do a flash...some directions thingy....
my group consist of....*drumrolls*
Jasmine...Eupho...and ME
:D
we're gonna have hell of a time....i guess...ha
and my oral's on tuesday....
ICH HABE KEINE ZEIT!!!!!
oh gosh....
i guess....
since i've selected some blogs which i'll take time to read....
i should give them names instead of "An interesting blog" or "Another interesting blog"
makes me sound SOOOO interesting...
heh...oh well....i didn't know i was reading a blog of a 34year old catholic financial analyst who's living in beverly hills...and he's abstaining from coffee for Lent...
ha
i sound like a blardy stalker....oh well...
Twelve Days of Christmas....kinda early tho...
The other symbols mean the following:
2 Turtle Doves = The Old and New Testaments
3 French Hens = Faith, Hope and Charity, the Theological Virtues
4 Calling Birds = the Four Gospels and/or the Four Evangelists
5 Golden Rings = The first Five Books of the Old Testament, the "Pentateuch", which gives the history of man's fall from grace.
6 Geese A-laying = the six days of creation
7 Swans A-swimming = the seven gifts of the Holy Spirit, the seven sacraments
8 Maids A-milking = the eight beatitudes
9 Ladies Dancing = the nine Fruits of the Holy Spirit
10 Lords A-leaping = the ten commandments
11 Pipers Piping = the eleven faithful apostles
12 Drummers Drumming = the twelve points of doctrine in the Apostle's Creed
| The Potion Maker |
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| Jamienium is a milky, pasty violet gel made from the pollen of a narcissus bush. |
| Yet another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern |
Pinch this from someone else's blog....
cuz i agree to 85% of what she wrote...
:D
erm.....those that are in italics...are those that i don't agree...either that or....weelll..yar...
those in BOLD are those that i AGREE! :D
i'm kinda bored now...ha
MANLY MEN.
not men with cavemen tendencies. but men that make me swoon with their masculinity. ok, i guess i need to define my take on manly men. it's more a feeling really. and as we all know, feelings are very subjective to each individual.
men who swagger
men with big strong hands
men who take charge
men willing to take care of me (but not in a maternal or material way)
athletic men
men who are arrogant and confident (but they need to back their sh!t up)
men that can toss me around like a rag doll (and yes, in a dirty way!)
men with that dark brooding sexuality
men who are not metrosexual (just not my preference)
men with convictions
men that are faithful and true
men that can admit when they're wrong
honest men
intelligent men
simple men
men that can envelop me in their big arms and makes me feel safe
men that can say i love you and mean it
men that know themselves
men that i can lean on
in this day and age, when lines of sexuality are blurred, a masculine man is harder and harder to find. i'm all for men taking care of themselves. but honestly, i don't want a man that will dress better than me or use more skin or hair products than me. nor do i want someone i need to compete with when it comes to spa days or use more time in the bathroom than i do. i am definitely not for a metrosexual man.
i guess bottom line is, i like men that make me feel like a woman.
and since i've started pinching....
here's another
boy 1: You ever had any imaginary friends when you were younger?
girl 1: No.
boy 2: Why? They didn't like you?
pinched this from another blog....
In a department store the other day, I saw a very, very old couple walking along together. The woman had just sprayed some perfume on her wrist and was sniffing it. "It smells like watermelon!" she said in a shaky but happy voice. "I want to take a bite out of you!" said the man.
It was the sweetest thing ever.
"men and women can't be friends, because the sex thing always gets in the way"---When Harry met Sally----
Still He Walked
(Carrie McCutcheon)
He could hear the crowds screaming "crucify" "crucify"...
He could hear the hatred in their voices,
These were his chosen people. He loved them,
And they were going to crucify him.
He was beaten, bleeding and weakened... his heart was broken,
But still He walked.
He could see the crowd as he came from the palace.
He knew each of the faces so well. He had created them.
He knew every smile, laugh, and shed tear,
But now they were contorted with rage and anger...his heart broke,
But still He walked.
Was he scared? You and I would have been, so his humanness would
Have mandated that he was. He felt alone. His disciples
Had left, denied, and even betrayed him.
He searched the crowd for a loving face and he saw very few.
Then he turned his eyes to the only one that mattered
And he knew that he would never be alone.
He looked back at the crowd, at the people who were spitting
At him, throwing rocks at him and mocking him and he knew
That because of him, they would never be alone.
So for them, He walked.
The sounds of the hammer striking the spikes echoed through
The crowd. The sounds of his cries echoed even louder,
The cheers of the crowd, as his hands and feet
Were nailed to the cross, intensified with each blow.
Loudest of all was the still small voice inside his
Heart that whispered "I am with you my son",
And God's heart broke.
He had let his son walk.
Jesus could have asked God to end his suffering,
But instead he asked God to forgive, Not to forgive him,
But to forgive the ones who were persecuting him.
As he hung on that cross, dying an unimaginable death,
He looked out and saw, not only the faces in the crowd,
But also, the face of every person yet to be,
And his heart filled with love.
As his body was dying, his heart was alive. Alive with
The limitless, unconditional love he feels for each of us.
That is why He walked.
When I forget how much My God loves me,
I remember his walk.
When I wonder if I can be forgiven,
I remember his walk.
When I need to be reminded of how to live like Christ,
I think of his walk.
And to show him how much I love him,
I wake up each morning, turn my eyes to him,
And I walk.
I've got 3 new german storybooks to read....
those meant for kids 3-4 years old...
:D
haha
*YAY*
they're from my daddy's german partner...
:D
kinda cheerful and happy these days....
no idea what's happening....but whatever that's happening....
I'm grateful...
:D
i feel as if i'm slipping into a very comfortable routine of doing a particular cycle on and on and on....
and i think it's very boring....and blah...
but the thing is that i find it hard to change my timetable...
it's like...it's drilled into my brain....
i do not like change....but if i don't change...i'll be having pd-pd bonds...
:D
I've got 97.4% for my german test!
:D
very happy....even tho the mistakes that i made were really stupid....
:D
oh well...
i was jumping up and down like some hyper active kid today...
:D
all because of the driving lar...
:D
and i've kinda done ok for my other chem module....
:D
but i still got tons of homework to do....
sianz....
:D
i've added a fortune telling section in the blog...
trouble is....
i can't seem to find a nice place to put it....cuz my columm doesn't seem to want to extend itself...hmmm...
yeah...so it's temporarily placed on the picture....oh....
i've got a brillant idea....
HA
I'M A GENIUS!!!!
:D
*BEAMS*
pretty huh?
yay!
took 20mins to do that....
hmmm....
oh well....
off to do my lab report...
:D
tralalalalalalallaa
I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHA
it was only drizzling during my test!!!
PRAISE THE LORD!!!
hahaha
and i passed my test.....18 points....
:D
not really very panicky tho...
was more panicky during the warm up....
ha..i've got the feeling that the instructor thought i wouldn't pass...
:D
i don't blame him....my car was backsliding like shit during the warm up...
and my drive in the circuit was very jerky...
even i had a headache after that....
:D
oh well...the family car is officially decorated with TRIANGLE PLATE!!! both front and back...
:D
and my mum allowed me to drive home....cuz she picked me up after my german tut...
altho she only allowed me to drive from the market which is opposite my place to the carpark at my place....
erm....did a U-turn lor....
liddat only....not very shiok leh....
but stilll....
:D
I'm watching chinese news now....
singapore's weather is SCREWED...
seriously....
haha
there was a BUSH FIRE in singapore yesterday.....
and changi flooded today.....
till knee level....
and they said that the rain will continue for 2 more days....
*SIGH*
WHY???
my test tomorrow leh....
unless....the rain gives me a reason not to drive fast....so i can roadhog...
ha
:D
but i still have to check my mirrors and blindspots....
hmmmm
wonder what's the weatherman doing? he's having pms ar?
Via Dolorosa
Down the Via Dolorosa in Jerusalem that day
The soldiers tried to clear the narrow street
But the crowd pressed in to see
The Man condemned to die on Calvary
He was bleeding from a beating, there were stripes upon His back
And He wore a crown of thorns upon His head
And He bore with every step
The scorn of those who cried out for His death
Down the Via Dolorosa called the way of suffering
Like a lamb came the Messiah, Christ the King,
But He chose to walk that road out of
His love for you and me.
Down the Via Dolorosa, all the way to Calvary.
Por la Via Dolorosa, triste dia en Jerusalem
Los saldados le abrian paso a Jesus
Mas la gente se acercaba
Para ver al que llevaba aquella cruz
Por la Via Dolorosa, que es la via del dolor
Como oveja vino Cristo, Rey, Senor
Y fue El quien quiso ir por su amor por ti y por mi
Por la Via Dolorosa al Calvario y a morir
The blood that would cleanse the souls of all men
Made its way through the heart of Jerusalem.
Down the Via Dolorosa called the way of suffering
Like a lamb came the Messiah, Christ the King
But He chose to walk that road out of His love for you and me
Down the Via Dolorosa, all the way to Calvary.
all lyrics are property of their respective owners.
nice photo.....
got it from ctran
Be still and know I am God.
yesterday was good...
in fact it was very good....
spent most of the day with the Lord...
read the Bible...
played christian songs on my labby while i was studying...
felt very happy...
didn't know that smiles could be heard thru the phone lines...
apparently shang could hear me smiling...haha...
yeah...asked some questions that i found in the Bible...about Jacob, Esau, etc...
and just by giving my view on the musical...i actually gave a feasible solution to one of the main problems of the musical...
ha...inner genius man....
:)
nah..it was the Lord's work! :)
i'm just the messenger..i guess... :D
and had a long talk with Ruikun last night....
he's going to take his A's this year....
managed to give solutions to 75% of his problems....
again i'm the messenger...
:)
but i'm a happy messenger!
yeah...the Lord works in great ways....
i'm off to watch the worship now....nus's internet speed very power...
:D
Praise the Lord
the weekend was good....
very good in fact...
not in terms of studies tho..
heh...
went for church on saturday...
seriously getting to know the people in X-link...
:D
very farnie people lar...
:)
then forever saying that i'm jing's sister.... -_-
cuz both of us behave the same way...
WHERE GOT????????
hmmp...
the name of this disease is called jingivitis
haha...founder is JING
:)
oh...and i didn't get any black looks or anything from my mum when she found out that i went to church on saturday!
PRAISE THE LORD!!!
i was like so afraid can...
*grins*
oh well...all's well ends well...
hopefully...i can go for church next week too...
i think that Pastor steven is very funky...haha..very lame....
:D
anyway...just got back from driving class today...
surprising bukit batok on a sunday morning is VERY EMPTY....
hee
and lesson was good....
did everything pretty well....i would have passed if this were my test....
*sigh*
too bad it ain't so...
the instructor is very nice.... he's in the group G2015....i think...yeah
not my regular instructor...this one very nice....patient....and reminds me of my grandfather lar...
ha....even tho he's daughter is younger than me....daughter from PJC!!ha..just had A's...
not bad....talked alot while driving....
oh...and my driving test is on TUESDAY!!!
need to jiayou!
:D
surprisingly....not very scared....the last test i was practically shivering with fear lor....
this test...ok lar....not going to think too much about it...
if i pass...then i pass...
if not....try again lor...
no big deal...
:D
just more money tho.... heh...
*GRINS*
oh...i'm reading my Bible again.....uncovered it from the cobwebs and dust....
and i'm reading Genesis.....yeah...i'm at the part where Rachael just died...after giving birth to Benjamin...
heh....planning to read it as a storybook....cuz i realised that i finish storybooks in a matter of hours or days....and till now...i haven't even finish reading the whole bible...the only feat to date would be finishing the New Testaments...
Ich glaube,, Deutschlernen macht viele Späβ!"
Ich habe Abendessen mit meine Deustchunterricht Menschen. Wir haben Macdonalds gegangen.
haha...
told alot of stupid stuff...about our lecturers...and other stuff...
we, chloe, jasmine, yingchao, weiyao, lee ying and me...were like trying to practice our german...
we managed to translate
ALONG CAME POLLY into german
:D
version 1.0 (literal translation)
Entlang kommen Polly
ver 2.0 (present tense = along come polly)
Kommt Polly entlang
ver 3.0 (past tense = along CAME polly)
Ist Polly entlang gekommen
ver 4.0 (Imperativ)
Kommt Polly
heh...our rubbish... and our Jack and Jill translation
Yack(as pronounced in german) und Yill(german) hat in die Berge gegagen.
haha
that's Jack and Jill went up the mountain.
donno how to say hill lar...so use mountain lar...
:)
we happily translate everything stupid...
and the movie title Goodbye Lenin became Tshüs Lenin!
hee
oh well...
HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY
JING CALLED me from australia...
chatted for about 50mins...
:)
heehee
*grins*
so i postponed my shower...therefore i'm still not asleep yet...
:)
i miss her man...
:D
Chemistry lab report...
finally DONE
phew
friday have german vocab test...
erm...yeah...
going church on saturday...
:D
Bleh
went to see the doctor yesterday....
went to the school clinic lar...duh....
it's cheap and nearby mar...
yeah...
it costs $2..and i've got everything...cough mixture...flu tablets...panadol...and lozenges...
and the doctor wanted to gimme mc for yesterday...but...my class ended...
don't mind postponing the mc to tuesdAY tho...
oh well...
went to coffee club to study with alicia after that..we're both language freaks...
i was trying to memorise my german words...and she was trying to do her thai homework...
:D
and my labby was playing corrianne may's cd...altho switched to some christian mp3s after that...
wanted to watch the worship webcast...but...somehow...can't access it from coffee club...
went for lunch...after that...had chicken cutlet...altho i wasn't allowed to eat fried stuff...
went for group meeting...
then stayed in school to play 2 rounds of gunbound before coming home...
came home...changed...conked out...
i slept for at least 10hours yesterday...
slept my afternoon away...woke up...had dinner...went back to bed...woke up...recieved jing's letter...read 1st page...went back to sleep...until this morning...
read finished the letter...and I MISS HER!!!!
yeah...i also finished the letter that i was writing to her...
:D
started writing last tuesday...finished writing this tuesday...
:D
and it's only 1 piece of A4 paper...heehee..
oh...and i made myself some horrible tasting breakfast....
seriously no idea what i made...
took a spoonful...and threw it away...oh well...
at least i can take my medicine now...since i've eaten something...
*cough*
gotta run...
laters...
Sick
i'm sick....
got the runny nose....
and stuff...
minus the fever..i've got the FULL works...
yeah...
having the flu...
*chases after my nose*
*cough cough*
SICK!!!
