not going to the zoo...
too lazy...
spent the day stoning and reading books at home...
cooked dinner...
not too bad...
planning to head butt taemin now...
that lil' asshole...
brief overview of my life....
came up with new words...
the oh so amazing guy in my life...
*pukes*
words like lollersaurus and lollerskates...
and roffles...
*whacks forehead*
glad he has a 1500words paper to rush in 4 hours...
bwahahahaha...
actually not really...
there isn't anyone online now to entertain me....
*shrugs*
on another note...
i'm starting to get all stressed up now...
really really stressed up...
even more stressed up than my exams...
the exam results are coming out on the 18th...
which makes it 19 more days...
i so badly wanna curse and swear now...
shit...
i'm scared shitless...
or rather i'm pooping cold shit...
ewwww
*stop imagining it*
but this is bad...
my CAP is gonna plunge rock bottom...
oh no....
*headache*
oh goodie...
it's on 19th may instead... 20 more days...
sounds nicer huh? 20 instead of 19...
!@#$#$@@$
Date of Release of Your Examination Results
From 19-MAY-2004 13:00 Hour to 22-MAY-2004 13:00 Hour
Did a rough count of my CAP...
if i get a B and 2 B-s...and a C...
i'll get an average of 3.0 CAP overall...
hmmm...
from a 3.2 to a 3.0...
sounds not too bad huh?
lemme do a count if i get a D+ instead of a C...
still a 3.0...
*breathe in and out*
ok...
i can handle this...
i can handle this....
i've got a fish tank epidemic going on...
bah...
bah...
horrible...
and i'm currently addicted to Sims...
bwahahaha
spent the whole day at home playing it...reading books...napping...and trying to practice my piano...
:D
not too bad...
even though the exam results are gonna be released on the 18th...
damm...
going to the zoo on wednesday! i hope...
:D
I'm Sleepy and Tired...
not feeling very hyper anymore...
ha...it's 730am....what do you expect?
was chatting with justin x and yingchao and wei yao and alicia last night till about 2am?
very interesting...hahaha
was talking about pies with justin...
hahaha....pies of all sorts...from banana pies...to tomato pies...to onion pies...to ginger pies...to papaya pies..
all the icky weird looking pies...
and i maintain my stand that banana pies are...EEWWWW...
anyway...for the record...all of these pies exist...there are recipes online.... including one for chocolate banana pie..yuck yuck yuck....
:P
and was talking to yingchao....
trying to tell him that i was going to stone at holland tomorrow...holland = holland village...duh...
and he was like...isn't it too far to stone?
and i was like...i rather be a holland stone than a singapore stone...
and then....So...it's a case of the stone is harder over the other side lar...
which is also similar to...the grass is greener over the other side.... -___-||| lame....lame...
and there a full blown lame conversation started...hahaha
about me going to attain the ultimate level of stoning soon....and he's already in the rocking stage...
he's my shifu lar..
:D
and since he's going germany...well...he's going to do some rocking over there...while i practice stoning in holland...
and he's gonna promote to bouldering...and hilling and mountaining....
cool sia...
bwahaha...
and weiyao was trying to teach me the cure to goldfish disease...cuz i think my tank kenna disease...
>.<
::listening to: Through the Years\ Kenny Rogers::
just finished the da vinci code...
it's good...
a page turner type of book...
but the ending is stupid and screwed...
not a good ending of such a good book...
it doesn't do justice to the book
gonna read sophie's world...
recommanded by my dear cousin...
:D
and Milan Kundera and Paulo Coelho and Sylvia Plath's The Bell Jar and John Irving's The world according to garp...
tons of books eh?
haha
anyone with any of 'em...
LEND ME!!!
saves me a ton of money...
and my mum booked my air tickets already...
:D
cool...
gonna get sophie's world tomorrow...
holland village's book rental...
:D
lalala
Time for you and time for me,
And time yet for a hundred indecisions,
And for a hundred visions and revisions,
Before the taking of a toast and tea. --The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock--
the Fridge
3 main roles in the family...
1. the Provider...
2. the Nurturer...
3. the Cleaner...
guess what...
i'm neither the provider...i mean...who can i provide for? the goldfishes, the angelfishes, the lobster and the tortoise perhaps..but...provider i am not...
nurturer is definately out of the question...look...i managed to kill a cactus without anyone's help....what nurturer?
therefore...i'm the CLEANER..imma full time student and part time cleaner...
it's tiring...
today's job is to clean the fridge...
guess what...
1 hour has passed and i've only finished the freezer and the vegetables compartment...
there's still the middle section...
oh why is there a fridge in the first place?
we could all live in the olden times and eat salted fish, salted vegetables, pickled cucumbers, dried foods...
why must there be the fridge???
and why of all days must i clean the fridge when my dad went to NTUC to RESTOCK the weekly supplies???
why not on saturday...or sunday??? wHY TUESDAY??!!
so much food....
ugh...
horrible job...
getting no/little pay...maybe just an air ticket to aussie..
bah...
feel like a maid working to get enough money to buy air ticket home to see family and come back...
bah bah bah...
and achievement of the day...it's only 12noon...
and i've...cleaned 2/3 of the fridge...fried cashew nuts for snacking...cooked lotus root soup...hanged the clothings...washed another load of clothings...fed the fishes and lobster...and prepared chicken for lunch...
am i good or what....
man...i'll never be a housewife...i hope that ain't my lot in life...
if i have to be a housewife...i need either a maid...or... i'll get a househusband...i'll be the provider...
*shagged*
studying tomorrow at holland village...
:D
amazing that it's the holidays and i wanna study...
:D
can't get the stupid porn site correct...
ok..that didn't sound correct...
but...
the problem is still there...
and i've downloaded 6 anti spywares...
and none of 'em gets rid of it....
...
deleted the 2 i got yesterday..
and the one that was recommanded by serene didn't work...
so...i'm left with spyware guard and spyware blaster and ad-aware...
bah...
gonna find a way to work around the problem...
prolly set the sercurity settings whenever i want to access the singnet webpage...
bah...
so ma fan...but...no choice at the moment...
bah bah bah....
and the da vinci code is really good...
i'm at chapter 60 now...
bought it on sunday...
:D
read from 8pm to 11pm non-stop last night...
very exciting...
:D
but...at the end of every chapter...there's something there to make you want to continue reading...
so i can't find a good part to stop reading and go to bed...
>.<
oh wells...
nice book...
:D
from Harvest.org
"Then Peter came to him and asked, 'Lord, how often should I forgive someone who sins against me? Seven times?' "
Matthew 18:21
Talk about a person who had been wronged. Joseph’s brothers had done all kinds of horrible things to him. They betrayed him, their own flesh and blood, and sold him into slavery. But through an amazing course of events that were directed by the hand of God, Joseph became the second most powerful man in the world at that time in history. One day, his brothers were brought before him—the very ones who had betrayed him. With one word, they could have become headless brothers. It could have been payback time for Joseph. But I love what he said: "Don’t be afraid of me. Am I God, to judge and punish you? As far as I am concerned, God turned into good what you meant for evil. He brought me to the high position I have today so I could save the lives of many people" (Genesis 50:19–20).
Did Joseph’s brothers deserve to be forgiven? No. But if we resort to that kind of thinking, we must ask ourselves, “Do we deserve to be forgiven by God?” No. So we should forgive as God has forgiven us.
There is no point in burying the hatchet if you’re determined to mark the site. Let it go. Forgive. Forget. Put it behind you. Move forward. If you refuse to forgive people who have wronged you, then you will become a bitter person. The problem with bitterness is that it infects those around you (see Hebrews 12:14–15).
If someone has sinned against you, you must learn to forgive. I know it is not an easy thing to do. But when you forgive someone, you release a prisoner—yourself.
i've got diarrohea....
>.<
horrible horrible....
>.<
anyway....my tagboard is kinda weird...
that's why i could only see the messages left by u guys only today...
oops...
haha
gotta have to change it or something...
:D
anyway...
i hate my laptop...
it's a love-hate relationship...
it went to kenna some stupid thing that isn't a virus...or a spyware...
but i get redirected to some freaking unknown page when i wanna go singnet.com.sg
idiot...
even brought me to some porn page...
*stunned*
bah..
horrible laptop...
having a spasticated conversation with taemin now...
damm spastic...
lemme flood my blog...
the wonders of AIM...
T: yeap
J: Boo!
T: haha
J: aim sucks
J: lousy icons
J: i
T: haha
J: i'm gonna go australia for holidays!
J: :D
J: :-D lalalalalalalala
T: o_o
J: jealous?
J: *hands u an oreo*
T: sighh
T: i don't want an oreo
T: i want a plane ticket to aus
J: lol
J: *hands u the whole bag of oreo minis*
T: .........................
T: *Drools*
J: *hands u the bag of oreos*
T: eats the bag
T: returns u the oreos
J: cool...
J: *finds another bag for the oreos*
T: damn
J: :p
J: do i look dumb to u???
J: don't answer that question...
T: urrh.. no?
T: is that the right answer. =J: yeap...
J: *digs more bags for u to eat*
T: :D
J: derob ma i
T: aie aeoio agkv aeurqeoqr qw?
J: eh... derob ma i... is a sentence k...
J: read it backwards
T: no it isn't XD
J: yes it is...
T: i shall not read it backwards
J: toidi
T: akab
J: obumd
T: ha!
J: iwanttoeatchocolatesfromusawhenareyoucomingbacktosingapore?
T: ishallnotbringuchocolatesfromusa
J: thenbringmechocolatesfromkorea
T: neverwillibringyouanychocolates
T: nochocolatesforyou!
J: thenbringgumforme....orsweets..ornicestuff
T: nosweetsortreatsforyousinceyouaremeantome
J: igaveyouoreobagstoeat....whatmoredoyouwant?
J: uwantanythingfromaustralia?
T: hmmmiwantcheesesausagesandmadcigarettes
J: illgetyouakoala...howaboutthat?
T: australiancigarettesaretasty
J: buthowwouldiknowwhichcigarettesaregoodwhenidon't smoke?
T: mmmarlbororedsaregoodfromaustralia
J: ....
T: iwasthereoverinterimsemesterandilovedit
J: youcangetmarlbororedsinsingapore
T: nobuttheytastedifferent
J: theydo?whatsthediff?
T: theytastebetterforsomereason
J: urejustweird
J: sodoigetchocolatesfromusa?
T: hmmthatdependsonwhetheruareagoodgirlfromnowon
T: illbelikesanta
J: santadoesn'tsmoke....thechimmythatsantagoesdowninsmokestho....
T: uknownothingaboutsanta
T: iknowhimpersonally
T: ihavehiminmyaimfriendslist
J: right.....
T: italktohimonceinawhile
T: hisaimSNistherealsantaclaus
J: likeduringdecemberwhenyouwannagetachristmaspresent?
T: nahwheneveriwantarideonhissleigh
T: heusedtogivemeridesbackandfromkorea
J: wow....sodidyouseeruldoph?
J: andprancerandvixenandalltherest?
T: mmmthey'redead
T: sonowit'srudolphjr,etc
T: hehasabluenose
J: oh...
J: butibetitdoesn'tglowaswellastherednose...
T: nah
T: it's a new look
T: the blue glow is cute
J: sothechicksdigbluenosesnowhuh?
T: yeapbutrudolphjrisgaysoit'ssad
J: noshit....agayreindeerwithabluenose?
T: yeapbuttheothergayreindeerlovethebluenose
T: therednoseisoutofdatenow
J: whichotherreindeersaregay?
T: theyneedtoupdatethechristmascarols
T: theonlyfamousgayreindeerisrudolfjr
J: thenarethereanylesbianreindeers?
T: hmmmostofthemjustgeteatenoverthanksgiving
J: ewww
T: iwasinvitedonce..butididn'tliketheideaofeatinglesbianreindeers
J: howareyouevengoingtoeatareindeer?
J: that'slikeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
T: deermeatisgood
J: yuck....
J: *bleah*
J: *continues munching on oreos*
T: uneverhaddeermeatbefore?
J: deermeatyeah...reindeermeatnope...
T: reindeermeatislikedeermeatbutmoretender
J: andhowdoyoucookit?
T: steakorsoup
J: reindeersoup??
T: yeah
J: *raiseseyebrows*
T: withpotatos
T: it's real good
J: yuck
J: betittasteshorrible
T: nopit'sreallygood
J: weirdtastebudsuvegot
T: yeap
J: yuck
J: i wan chocolates *stamps feet*
T: aww
etc...
in a short span for 30minutes...
we've covered enough topics to link from singapore to usa...
ranging from animal abuse to sexual related stuff...
it's somewhere up there....not too obvious if u don't know the other meaning of the word...
anyway...
stupid smoker guy...
bought 2 new books today..
:D
already started on the Da Vinci Code...
lending my dad the 5 people you meet in heaven...
:D
anyway..yeah..i'm broke...
: /
anyway...
note to self..
http://www.wineanorak.com/trhunter5.htm
http://www.pacificislandtravel.com/australia/newsouthwales/huntervalley.asp
Cleaning out my Closet...Part 1
to those who have been to my room before...
you'll prolly remember the layout of my room...
for those who have been to my room during the A Levels...
you'll prolly know that the floor's a battlefield...literally...
for those who have been to my room anytime else...
you'll prolly remember how eeky it is....it's due to negligence...
anyway...
i feel like having a room warming party or some sorts...
my room is clean....
erm...basically...
the furniture have been shifted...
shelves have been cleaned....wiped...cleared of insignificant junk...
drawers have been emptied...
childhood memories have be thrown down the chute..
came to a realisation that i'm a born garang guni...
every little thing of minor significance...i'll keep it...
therefore i've been sorting the significant from the insignificant...
and there are tons of insignificant stuff that can be collected in 19 years...
went through the letters, postcards, little notes written to me over the years...
from crescent till pioneer...
*amazed*
can't bear to throw any one of them away...
i can live without my primary school memories...but not crescent and pioneer...
anyway....
figured that the person who wrote the most notes & postcards to me is...
*drumrolls*
MICHELLE!!! mah Sweetheart!
heh...basically...no surprise there lar...known her since sec 1...
:D
anyway...a close 2nd would be Jing!!
*hugs*
followed by Alicia...and the list goes on...
i'm gonna read through all of 'em again during this holidays...
speaking about holidays...
I've started on mine...
and the statistics paper was a flop....serious flop...
don't even want to think about it...
anyway...been working since 6pm-12mn yesterday...and 8am-3pm and 10pm-1am today....
and well...the only place that looks like a battle field now would be the study table....
haven't arranged the stuff yet....
i'm beat...
shagged
kaputt...
-overworked, underpaid....isn't that what the working life is all about?-
this is way dumb...
but...
in 2 hours....i'll be going through a passage of death....
and after the passage will go on for 2 hours..
after that i'll be free!
:D
hahaha
shit...sounds like Christ rising from the cave...
oops...
:D
last paper!
BRANDS essence of chicken...
:D
i hate statistics...
of all the papers...this is the one that i've got a bad feeling about...
"When you're a kid you see the life you want, and it never crosses your mind that it's not gonna turn out that way."
a ROAD on Nicoll Highway collapsed at around 3.30pm today...
some people have already been sent to the hospital..
it's caused by an underground explosion...
Navy's Fokker planes are there...
interesting how one can actually be the main latest news station even though one's trying to surf for stuff to do in sydney online...
*amazed*
i even know more than some SCDF person... :P
haha
it's not often i get to be the source for newsworthy news..heh
anyway...
note to self...
go check this site...
and start learning to ride a bloody bike...
http://www.bugaustralia.com/destinations/au-nswasyd.html
shit lar...
i can go and survive in blue mountains by myself...
but there's NO WAY i can survive in Hunter Valley....
they've got no BUSES or PUBLIC TRANSPORT!!!
bah!
unless.....*brain wheels start turning...*
i do this....
http://www.affiliate.viator.com/brochure/product_show.jsp;jsessionid=aMpOiaX8Bg6g?ID=1010&PRODUCTID=1016&CODE=2230S14&AUID=1074
but it's 122AUD....
hmmmmm...10 hours....
not too bad i guess......
there's wine tasting... :D
Discover the picturesque Hunter Valley and award-winning wines…
Explore the fertile Hunter Valley and taste award-winning regional foods and wines. Enjoy private vineyard inspections and learn of the winemaking process. Spend your time stolling amongst the vineyards, purchase some wines or just enjoy the beautiful Australian countryside.
Your tour includes the following highlights:
Cross Sydney Harbour Bridge and be treated to magnificent views of the Hawkesbury River in the morning
Walk around quiet historic Wollombi and try the local speciality - Dr Jurds Jungle Juice
A guided tour of McWilliams Mount Pleasant Estate, founded in 1921 and part of the largest family owned 100% Australian wine company
A delicious luncheon accompanied by wine tasting
Further tastings include a visit to Rothbury Estate. Guests can be amazed by the only cask hass in the Hunter Valley
Our last stop will take us to Hunter Valley Gardens, a quaint little townshop within the Hunter Valley. There's the opportunity for further tasting at Tempus Two or the chance to stroll through the shops. For those with a sweet tooth there's an inviting Australian chocolate shop.
and Lion King's 107AUD per person....alot leh....
and that's the cheapest....
!@#@!#$$#
ok...2nd note to self...if going for tour to Hunter Valley...CANNOT go for Lion King....too expensive...unless....i use the free air ticket.....then i've got more cash to spend on myself.... : /
CHEY...JULY GOT NO MORE LION KING!!!CHEY CHEY CHEY
*beams*
this makes life so much easier...
:D
http://www.sydneyoperahouse.com/boxoffice/
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
listening to:: Yellowcard: Only One::
A Story
A girl asked a boy if she was pretty.
He replied, "No."
She asked him if he wanted to be with her forever.
He replied, "No."
She then asked him if he would cry if she walked away.
He replied "No."
She had heard enough.
She needed to leave.
As she walked away...
He grabbed her arm and told her to stay.
He said...
You are not pretty, you are beautiful.
I don't want to be with you forever...
I need to be with you forever.
I wouldn't cry if you walked away...
I would die if you walked away...
can someone please help me download this song by DESTINY'S CHILD titled BROWN EYES...
PLEASE....it's very very very nice...
Remember the first day when I saw your face
remember the first day when you smiled at me
you stepped to me and you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about
remember the first day when you called my house
remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide
and we both had a beautiful night
The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one
I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul
Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we compromised
and we haven't argued since
remember the first day we stopped playing games
remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too
The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in love
and I knew right then and there you were the one
I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul
i'm so happy so happy that you're in my life
and baby now that you're a part of me
you showed me
showed me the meaning of true love
and i know he loves me
I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul
He looks at me and his brown eyes tell his soul
Organic Chemistry is horrible...
no more chemistry until 3 months later...
Whoopee!
and last 3 days of statistics!!
WHOOPEE!!!
sigh...
Somewhere over the rainbow
Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high,
There's a land that I heard of once in a lullaby.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true.
One day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere over the rainbow, bluebirds fly,
Birds fly over the rainbow,
Why, oh why can't I?
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere over the rainbow, bluebirds fly,
Birds fly over the rainbow,
Why then, oh why can't I?
was watching the sermon at harvest.org just now...
recalled a conversation that i had with jing just before she went over to sydney...
had a minor debate over loads of topics...
one of them was abortion...
she was the spokeswoman for anti-abortion...whereas i was playing the devil's advocate...
placing questions..scenarios that may seem that abortion was the only way out...
that choosing abortion is the only humane option...
even after the debate...she didn't have me siding her on her anti-abortion stand...
but yet...after watching the sermon...
somehow...i understand and have come to be a supporter of anti-abortion..
to all the scenarios painted by my words...
there is only 1 explanation...
God does not lead you AWAY from these situations....
whereas, He leads you THROUGH these situations...
instead of being a escapee....you'll be a survivor...
you'll weather these storms that the Lord has planned and evolve into the strong person that the Lord wants you to be..
interesting and logical theory...
really...it explains alot about why God sends troubles our way....instead of shielding us from it...
*amazed*
--Listening to Choose Life--
what am i doing online at 8.30am searching through the MSc programmes that universities in Australia and New Zealand have to offer?
man..i'm nuts...
and tomorrow's the big organic exam...
and i'm scared...
no idea why...but this is one paper that i so do not want to screw up..
maybe it's because it's a closed book paper...
no security blankee for me...
and with no security blankee....my mind might go blankeee....choy...
*touch wood*
oh wells...
damm it...
everywhere's offering MBA's but there are very little places offering MSc's...
MBA = Masters of Business Administration
MSc = Masters of Science
anyway..there's a requirement for at least 2 years job experience to apply for the MBA program in most universities in Oz and NZ...
ok....found a university that offers a Master's Degree in Chemistry/Biochemistry...
MSU = Montclaire State University and it's in....*drumrolls* NEW JERSEY!!!
abit too far....shit...but the course looks appealing....
or should i just up the stakes and looks further beyond the shores of Oz and NZ....looks towards the north....
Germany... :D
:D :D :D MARINE MAMMAL SCIENCE!!!!
i can still get a job in marine mammal science!! even tho the pay ain't that attractive...but still!!!
Undergraduate Studies:
Most entry-level marine mammal jobs require a B.S. degree, with a major in biology, chemistry, physics, geology, or psychology. A minor in any science, computer science, mathematics, statistics, or engineering also can be helpful. Good language and technical writing skills are essential. Many people are surprised by the amount of writing involved in marine mammal professions. Because marine mammals are found worldwide, foreign language training often is useful.
A student must first become a scientist before specializing in marine mammals. Generally, undergraduate students will concentrate on a basic science curriculum and rarely have an opportunity to take courses related to marine mammal science. Specialization in marine mammals generally comes later through practical work experience or while working toward an advanced degree. In other words, if your B.S. degree program does not include courses in marine sciences, do not become discouraged. Concentrate on finding practical experience and/or a master's degree with emphasis in marine mammal science. Maintaining a high grade point average as an undergraduate is very important to gain admission to graduate school.
Graduate Studies:
The master's degree is usually the first opportunity college students have to specialize in marine mammal science. Care should be taken to select an advisor with experience in the subject and a reputable university with a diverse curriculum that will enable s focus on marine mammal science.
Students who have dual majors or interdisciplinary training sometimes have more employment opportunities. Because the field of marine mammal science is so diverse, students who train in specialized areas have practical tools that may help them gain employment. For example, a graduate degree in statistics can be very useful for entering the field of population assessment. A degree in electrical engineering can be particularly useful for bioacoustic research. A graduate degree in environmental law can be important for developing a career in government policy-making or conservation.
double damm...
how how how?
does that mean i need to get a Hons first?
oh no....
i'm so far away from a Hons....or rather...a good Hons...
cuz i don't feel like getting a 3rd Class Hons or something....
or worse...a 2nd Lower.... : /
but since P.M actually got a 2nd Lower...i guess i shouldn't be fussy...
but it isn't as easy as it seems to be...
okok..
breathe in...and out...
aim 1... get a cap of nearing 4.0 by the end of my 2nd year in nus...
cuz i need 3.8 to qualify for Hons...
so...0.2 is in case i don't get 4.0....3.8 is fine too...
then i'll have to work my ass off to pull it up to a 4.0+ to get a 2nd upper/lower/3rd class...
: /
doesn't seem that appealing...
ugh
Cleaning out my closet
was cruising down the ECP just now...on the way to the airport...
cruising as in my mum was driving and i was in the back seat...
saw the whole of the commercial district go past me...
it's like....wow....never ever bothered to watch the buildings fade away...or trees moving pass the car
it's like being a tourist and exploring singapore...
never done that either...
seems as if i was born a jaded singaporean...
maybe in this 3 months of holidays...
i should really take sometime to explore singapore...in the eyes of a tourist...
ooooo and aahhh over the animals in the zoo...same for the bird park..
wonder if there are any 1 day trips thingy...i might wanna sign up...depending on the cost...
anyway....another thing that struck me during this journey was that...
i'm 19....going to 20...
don't really think that 20's that old....imagine celebrating your 30th birthday...
now that's another thing...
but the thing is...
i feel as if i spent my 19 years in the planet doing nothing...
i mean there's nothing i really excel in...
and i seriously feel that if a phrase could actually encompass me...it would be...
a Jack of all trades but a master at none...
sad to say...i think i'm mediocre in everything i do..
through these 19 years...
i've taken up many courses....but yet a master i'm not at any one of them...
i know many things...and yet i know nothing...
things like the utterly boring game of weiqi...i can scrap through with people of my standards...but well...i don't think i'm cut out for that...
the next would be taekwondo...many people have no idea that i've got a black belt...and that i could kick their ass..literally...but yet...comparing to others of the same standard...i'm a sad case...
driving lessons....thankfully i've gotten my license...and yet...i was lucky....really...sometimes i even wonder if i'm fit to drive on the road...
the piano...an instrument that generates love and yet makes me feel incompetent at times...grade 8 exams that i still can't clear...it's getting on my nerves...
i don't deny the fact that i'm a person that gets bored easily...
look at the state of my Bible for the past 2 years and you get the picture...Go Figure..
in the past 19 years...i've done plenty of stuff...makes me wonder if the reason i done all of them was for a certificate..a license...a thing to prove to others that i've cleared that barrier....
getting a certificate doesn't prove that i'm a master of what i've done...
it just means i've finished the whole course of it...
but seriously...if i had any passion in anything that i've done so far....getting the cert would be a torture...i would not want to get the certificate if it means its the end of what i enjoy..
getting certificates are useless to me...really...
a piece of paper with words and my name on it...
makes you wonder why you didn't continue pursuing it...
sometimes wonder if i'm fit to get all the certificates, licenses or whatevers that i've accumulated...
it's not as if i'm good at all of these things...it was just a matter of luck i suppose...like doing a ten year series over and over again...until you know that A's the correct answer just by looking at the question...and not even the answer that A represents...
and for the interests that i have not gotten a certificate from...i'm getting tired of them...
what's the use...and yet...i can't give up now...it's too late to give up...too much money, time and effort has been spent...
i've got to trudge on and bear it like a good little soldier...
blubbering over here...
but...somehow...i've gotta get my act together by the time i hit 20...which leaves me with 8 months....perfect...
by the end of 8 months...i'll have something to prove...
something to prove that i'm not just certificates and no substance...i'll find something worthful to do...
maybe i'll end up loving chemistry...
end up as a dork in chemistry...who knows...and who cares...as long as i'm not mediocre...
ok...
the Big Guy up there is trying to tell me something
i just know it...
He's telling me something...
10-15mins after i did the tarot cards reading...
and kenna 'scolding' from Shang...
i went to Billy Graham's site...
and guess what...
today's daily Scripture...
"Do not turn to idols or make gods of cast metal for yourselves. I am the LORD your God."
Leviticus 19:4, NIV
W-O-A-H...
it's like a sign meant for me alone...
to think i scorned the fact that it was only for fun...
that i won't make a habit or believe in such stuff...
and....
Wham, Bam, Thank you Mam...
i see this verse...
and it's says Do not TURN to idols...
not do not Believe...or do not Trust...but it's DO NOT TURN...
means...nil...zilch...nada...null...not supposed to even look...or cast your eyes on em...
or even give em a second of your time...
well well...
it's too coincidental for me NOT to read too much into it...
it's prolly there for me anyway...
the only boss i'll ever report to has prolly changed the daily scripture that was meant to be there today when i placed my mouse over the link to billy graham....
yes boss...i hear you....
:D
told my dad that i wanna migrate...
was complaining about the horrible weather over in this small island of ours...
this afternoon...i dreamt that i was in an oven...
baking...woke up soaking wet...
and i had the fan facing me while i was asleep...
this weather has got to stop...
then he told me to consider migrating..
and i said yeah...i'm gonna migrate...
and he was like to where?
my reply was to australia or new zealand...but i've got to get my degree first..
and he was like ok...
cool...my dad's cool...
but...he heard my brother say screw up the first time today...
wonder why....he was kinda shocked...hahaha
i thought i've been saying that since secondary school...
vibrant colourful language of mine...
and i'm gonna finish my organic stuff tonight...half a chapter more...
and start on statistics tomorrow...
and i'll be going to aussie myself...means my parents aren't tagging along...
ha...they wanna go end of the year...which is nice...
:D
i'll be in aussie twice this year i guess...
can be on a lookout of spots to open my B&B...
:D
doing some tarot readings now....
which is totally unorthodoxic...
but all in the name of fun...
:D
here are the results...
how you feel about yourself now (The High Priestess)
You are very aware of the feminine power within, intuitive and conscious at a spiritual level, looking for guidance and answers, a secret to be revealed. You desire a wise guide to help address your questions, and your intuition is just that. If you are male the appearance of The High Priestess can represent a woman who you care for very much and who truly inspires you.
what you most want at this moment (The World)
The cards suggest Jamie, that what you most want at this time is a successful conclusion after all your hard work - well that time is close. This is a time for completion and satisfaction, the final change is here and you’ve done your best to win through.
your fears (The Star)
You are fearful of the future and rather lacking in self-belief - you are afraid your hopes will be dashed. Well don’t be, this is your wish card - a time of joy and fulfilment. Good health, possibly after a time of illness, and good fortune that will give you a new zest of life. If considering a new love affair, new job or career, or travel, then go for it. You may also receive a gift or gifts!
what is going for you (Death)
A time of absolute endings and brand new beginnings, your life is going through a period of great transformation. Whilst it may be difficult or even painful you will pull through. You will be free for a brand new phase in your life.
what is going against you (The Hanged Man)
You are allowing yourself to be victimised and emotionally blackmailed by others or you’re playing the martyr or victim to try and manipulate others. Don’t be too materialistic or try and hang onto someone or something for all the wrong reasons. Someone or something has to go, you must find the ability to let go and give this up - don’t worry it will turn out for the better for you.
outcome (The Hermit)
This is a time for you to be alone or may herald a time of loneliness. Take this time for quiet introspection and rest. Don’t worry you will find the answers, but the Hermit signals a warning not to make hasty decisions. If you have been unwell this is a time for rest and recuperation.
4 more chapters of organic and i'm done...
4 more...
aiming to finish it today and clear 2 chapters of statistics...
lalalalallalallaa
All that you see or seem, is but a dream within a dream. -Edgar Allan Poe-
Shanty....follow that dream....
today's the opening night..
:D
hope everything turns out fine for him...
*beams*
in fact...it's a lil past 30 mins since the show started...
:)
haven't seen him since school started...in january...
but hope he's doing well..
kinda miss the times we shared doing the project....
the sotong, the toot and the energizer bunny...
Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"Walk beside the pony daddy,
its my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny,
daddy, but I sure tried."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every morning
And butterfly kisses at night.
dreams are what we're made of...
dreams are make up the reason of living...
a man without a dream is one without a soul...
always thought that dreams were fashioned by God from the fluffy stuff in the skies...
A little piece of heaven given to us to see us through the next day...
some days He could sculpt it to resemble a sunflower...bringing joy and delight to the reciever...
other days He could take part of the grey skies and use it to paint a picture of a little boat stranded in a stormy sea...but He never fails to add that little spot of light...the light shone by a lighthouse...
dreams are made up of good stuff...
never underestimate the power of dreams...
It takes a lot of courage to show your dreams to someone else. -Erma Bombeck-
Dream the dreams that have never been dreamt. -David Bower-
Some men see things as they are and say why... I dream of things that never were and say why not. -George Bernard Shaw-
Hold fast to dreams for if dreams die, life is a broken winged bird that cannot fly. -Langston Hughes-
To those who can dream there is no such place as faraway. -Anon-
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A Father's Letter
They who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night.
got my mum to bring the wireless card to work...
but...
i'm using the com now...
so wad's the point?
haha
my chicken game...
highest level 35....
anyone wanna challenge?
:D
Main Entry: de·gree
Pronunciation: di-'grE
a : a title conferred on students by a college, university, or professional school on completion of a program of study b : a grade of membership attained in a ritualistic order or society c : an academic title conferred to honor distinguished achievement or service d : the formal ceremonies observed in the conferral of such a distinction
still an elusive mystery....why singaporean parents view a degree as a necessity in their kid's education...
can't they know that the degree of education recieved cannot be measured by the number of certificates accumulated over the years...
sigh....why am i thrown in this rat race....why can't i have the luxury of trekking along at my own comfortable pace?
why do i have to do a whirlwind semester of 5 modules in 4 months?
don't they know that geniuses can't be rushed?
and the topics covered in the 4 months are tripled that of the curriculum studied in my past 19 years?
in summary... two words... school sucks...
maybe that ain't really true....
prefer the format of lessons in overseas universities...
classes per semester as usual...but it's carried over to the next semester...a building up process...
not like what we experience over here...
it's like a adding information to a memory bank...and then deleting it...and after a while....you've gotta re-enter the same information that has been deleted....
it's tiring....
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after my exams...i'm gonna clean my room...
gonna make changes...
it's time to make way for the new...
stuck with the old stuff for way too long...
gotten too comfortable in my shell...my nest..
it may be messy to others....cluttered to some...
but it's a haven to me... a place that seems like the only constant in the face of the changes in the everyday world...
but now...
it's time to move on...
to clear the old stuff and adding new stuff...
getting rid of bad karma...
altering the fengshui in my room...
call it whatever you want...
it's time to shed the old skin for the new...
cheers to changes...
Scene from good will hunting
my little toe nail broke...i am toenailess....shit....pain pain pain....
taking a 4 hour break...haha...kinda long...but still..
:D
can't study anyway...my table is being invaded by my bro's tuition teacher...
: /
anyway...
my Tree Type(90%accurate):
Of slight build
lots of charm
appeal and attraction
pleasant aura
flirtatious
adventurous
sensitive
always in love
wants to love and be loved
faithful and tender partner
very generous
scientific talents
lives for today
a carefree philosopher with imagination
Tree Types
El Estuche by Aterciopelados --Havana Nights--
No es un mandamiento ser la diva del momento (wow)
Para que trabajar por un cuerpo escultural,
A caso deseas sentir en ti todos los ojos,
Y desencadenar silbidos al pasar...
Mira la escencia, no las apariencias (x2)
El cuerpo es sólo un estuche y los ojos la ventana,
De nuestra alma aprisionada (oye)
Mira la esencia, no las apariencias (x1)
Que todo entra por los ojos dicen lo superficiales,
Lo que hay adentro es lo que vale
Siento en el aire, un aroma espiritual mensajeros alados
Intentando aterrizar, si abres el estuche lo que debes encontrar
Es una joya que te deslumbrará (hay pero)
Mira la esencia, no las apariencias (x2)
90-60-90, suman docientos cuarenta,
Cifras que no hay que tener en cuenta (oye)
Mira la esencia, no las apariencias (x1)
No te dejes medir, no te dejes confundir alúsate hazte valer
alúsate hazte valer (x5)
translation....
THE CASE
Nor is an order to be the diva of the moment
Why to work by a escultural body
Perhaps you wish to feel in you all the eyes
And to trigger whistles when happening
It watches the essence not them appearances (2)
The body is single a case
And the eyes the window
of our imprisoned soul
it watches the essence not them appearances
that everything enters by the eyes
they say the superficial ones
what there is inside is what is worth
I feel in the air a spiritual aroma
winged messengers trying to land
if you open to the case which you must find
it is a jewel that will dazzle to you
He watches the essence not them appearances (2)
90 60 90 add 240
numbers no that there are to consider
it watches the essence not them appearances
you do not let yourself measure you do not let yourself confuse
agúzate hazte to be worth
It watches the essence not them appearances (2)
"Don't let the fear of the time it will take to accomplish something stand in the way of your doing it. The time will pass anyway; we might just as well put that passing time to the best possible use."
---Earl Nightingale
got forced to do something that i haven't done like in ages last time...
i was forced to sleep with my mum....
not that i don't like sleeping with her...but i like my bed...
but...
i've got chased out of my bed....because of a frickin' cockroach....
i hate these things...
don't have a liking towards insects....insects with wings....*shakes head*...insects with wings and look scary....*NO WAY*
cockroaches just so happen to be under the category of insects with wings and look scary....
damm...think i used 1/4 of baygon to cleanse my room last night...
that's why i was forced to sleep in my parents room....
was kinda good tho...
felt like a lil' kid once more...
*grins*
and now i'm awake at an ungodly hour of 7.30am....planning to start my journey through the mystical worlds of organic chemistry....
*riiiiggghhhtttt...who am i kidding.....*
currently spinning: ::Swingin' on a star::
-Frank Sinatra-
Would you like to swing on a star
Carry moonbeams home in a jar
And be better off than you are
Or would you rather be a mule
A mule is an animal with long funny ears
He kicks up at anything he hears
His back is brawny - and his brain is weak
He's just plain stupid with a - stubborn streak
And by the way, if you hate to go to school
You may grow up to be a mule
Would you like to swing on a star
Carry moonbeams home in a jar
And be better off than you are
Or would you rather be a pig
A pig is an animal with dirt on his face
His shoes are a terrible disgrace
He ain't got no manners when he eats his food
He's fat and lazy - and extremely rude
But if you don't care a feather or a fig
You may grow up to be a pig
Would you like to swing on a star
Carry moonbeams home in a jar
And be better off than you are
Or would you rather be a fish
A fish won't do anything but swim in a brook
He cant write his name or read a book
And to fool the people is his only thought
Though he slippery - he still gets caught
But then if that sort of life is what you wish
You may grow up to be a fish
And all the monkeys aren't in a zoo
Every day you meet quite a few
So you see it's all up to you
You can be better than you are
You could be swinging on a star
It is not by doing things we like, but by liking the things we must do that we can discover life's blessings. - JOHANN VON GOETHE
livejournal is weird...
no idea how to use it...
heh...
prolly stick to blogspot....
>.<
wanted to try something new..
and...guess wad...
i wasted the whole afternoon...
not exactly...
i managed to...
have lunch with my dad...
squeeze in a couple of games from dexter's lab...
and...explored livejournal...
came up with a frickin' cool username....actually the name's from my cousin...
:D
how about i tried new words...but i ended up borrowing my cousin's old msn's username...
:D
sounds better?
anyway...today's paper...on the surface....IT'S HORRIBLE...
beneath the surface....IT'S STILL HORRIBLE!!
actually...out of 5 questions...i've gotta clear 4 of em...
and out of those 4....
well....2 of em were ok...so if i get full marks for that 2 questions...i basically get 50%...which is a pass....(fat hope)
so...
*prays that i got the 2 questions almost all correct and the rest having pity points from the lecturer....*
only hope is organic....
6 days to cram 15 chapters worth of stuff....and to read my statistics textbook.....
oh man....
*hunts for prozac*
stupid addictive game...cluck cluck
so this is what they mean by open book exams.... "The mark of a well educated person is not necessarily in knowing all the answers, but in knowing where to find them."---Douglas Everett
if my mum actually knows what i've been eating these couple of days for lunch...
she'll throw a fit...
prolly...
i guess...
i've been eating out of cups and tins...
not real food mind you...
more like food trying to pass off as real food...
because that's the closest i get to any sort of food...
think i could play the role of the poor struggling student overseas...
maybe..
living out of campbells/watties and maggies...
all i need is hot water...and 5 mins...a meal with carbos and soup included will be prepared...
oh wells...have been idling my day away again...and with an exam tomorrow...this is not good...
but since my morning and afternoon was meant for organic chemistry and statistics which will only be tested under close scrutiny next week....guess that ain't too bad...
cuz there's still time...
gonna revise for tmr's paper after dinner...
:D
"Why They Call It Falling" by Lee Ann Womack
(written by Roxie Dean and Don Schlitz)
It's like jumping
It's like leaping
It's like walking on the ceiling
It's like floating
It's like flying through the air
It's like soaring
It's like gliding
It's a rocketship you're riding
It's a feeling
That can take you anywhere
So why they call it falling
Why they call it falling
Why they call it falling
I don't know
There was passion
There was laughter
The first morning after
I just couldn't
Get my feet to touch the ground
Every time
We were together
We talked about forever
I was certain
It was heaven we had found
So why they call it falling
Why they call it falling
Why they call it falling
I don't know
But you can't live your life
Walking in the clouds
Sooner or later
You have to come down
It's like a knife
Through the heart
When it all comes apart
It's like someone
Takes a pin to your balloon
It's a hole
It's a cave
It's kinda like a grave
When he tells you
That he's found somebody new
And why they call it falling
Why they call it falling
Why they call it falling
Now I know
Why they call it falling
Why they call it falling
Now I know
1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and
free.
errr....maybe....but sounds like a horse galloping into the horizon to me....
2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is creative, never let you feel bored.
agreed... :)
3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is loyal,
faithful, never change.
yeap...i like to think that i can do everlasting love...
4. You don't like it when your partner is emotional and/or too
moody; and you don't know how to please him/her.
it's kinda tiring to walk around egg shells all the time...imagine the tension building...the string's bound to snap...
5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is one that you care not only about the present but
also the future with your partner, a long-lasting relationship
that you can grow with.
like DUH....
6. You can never be stabilized; actually, you are not suitable for
marriage and you don't want to make committment.
that's left to be debated....
7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married,
you'll treasure it and your partner very much.
tho it doesn't tally with no. 6, but yeah...i'm only gonna get married once...so..well....yeah...
8. At this moment, you don't want to be tied down by a steady
relationship, you just want to flirt around.
judging with what's going on between me and my aol pals...yeah...flirtation's all that's happening for now...but i'm playing with fire....
I'm Lovin' It.
In an attempt to delay the start of the doomed bombing of statistics notes, organic formulas and physics equations on myself....
i've came up with a things to do after the exams aka after 23rd april 2004 list...
1. Tidy my room....a drastic makeover of my room is what i need....need to get the fengshui coming... :D more money...more money... :) i predict shifting of furniture...tidying my room...would take prolly 3 days...min....
2. Get aquainted with myths and legends of Greek gods and egyptian gods..purely out of interests sake...
3. analyse The Wasted Land and The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock..etc...both by T.S. Eliot
4. Read the book...The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald...and no...it's not the same Gatsby that brought you hair clay...
5. Earn some cash....a lil' moolah goes a long way...
6. Spend a whole day in Borders/ Kino...absorbing books...
7. Fiddle around with my digital camera....didn't pay 700bucks for nothing...
8. practice piano...= exam pieces...
9. pray that i didn't screw up my exam papers...
10. write the poem by John Milton...Paradise Lost
i've got a couple of months to do all of these...
gotta have to really recharge myself....cuz i'm gonna do some serious studying next semester...
i'm gonna make NUS beg me to join their honours program...and i can happily reject that offer...and get my degree with a CAP of > 3.8
oh....LIFE is good....
September 23rd 2003 The Power of Love ---Phlin's Entry
People like to think about love in terms of its strength and its power, its security and its fortitude. They like to speak about it as though it can protect us from harm. As William Wordsworth once wrote:
There is a comfort in the strength of love:
'Twill make a thing endurable, which else
Would overset the brain, or break the heart:
Thus it is often thought that love is a source of stability, comfort, and longevity. And for these reasons, people hold firmly to the belief that "love conquers all," that the bonds created out of love are wrought out of adamantine chains, unbreakable and eternal.
I, on the other hand, think love is weak.
Love is a kid who gets sand kicked in his face at the beach, his romantic notions of castles and forts crushed under the weight of a brutish reality.
Love is the plastic bag in the movie American Beauty, which gets casually tossed around in the breeze, and glides in endless circles -- always moving, always changing, but going nowhere.
Love is a homeless man who begs for spare change on the corner, who claims to be hungry but is really just trying to feed his hopeless addiction.
Love is a poor pathetic baby who needs attention and care, nourishment and support.
Relationships cannot subsist on love and only love. There is no power, no security, no comfort in a diet of love alone. The truest test of a relationship is the moment when love fails to deliver. In other words, a relationship is only as good as your last fight, not the last time you had sex.
Love is a fragile thing. It can be undone in a moment's notice. It can evaporate the moment she tells that lie, or kisses another man's lips. That is why acts of love must be enacted, and re-enacted, time and time again. The fact that love must be constantly repeated proves how unstable and flimsy it truly is.
Love is not strong enough to hold two people together. A bond created out of love alone is about as permanent as a Post-It note.
*i like this entry...alot....*
ooo...and this too... one of the comments...
Maybe...
love is a spark, the exhileration of having a piece of someone imprinted in your mind.
love is the link between desire and despair.
love is the summer rainfall, refreshing but inconvenient.
love can't be discussed as an aesthetic: sublime, but ultimately useless.
maybe love just is, in that its everything and nothing because there's a myriad of explanations and descriptions but all of them falls short of the actual experience.
But that is the problem with constructing walls: in preventing what is outside from coming in, they forbid what is inside from getting out. -Phlin-
maybe last year i would have describe the things that i spent the best part of my day on as squandering my time away...
but today...
it's all spent in good time...
spent time watching the easter service of harvest ministries...
understood truths that were always present before me...
it was always a matter of choice....the decision to understand or to deliberately search for answers at other places..
took notes on the service too...
twas' interesting to re-read the notes i took...
after that 1.30hr session...i spent more time reading the articles by pastor greg laurie and exploring the billy graham evangelistic webpage...
read a few pages of the Bible...went to bang on the piano...
by banging...it means...to play songs on impulse...not examination pieces...
went to bed...sat there stoning and reading a story book...till mum came home...
had dinner...and now...
i'm getting in touch with my inner-poet...my inner muse...
:)
browsing through poems by T.S Eliot..inspired by Phlin's entry...
guess even if i'm not a literature student..that doesn't mean i can't learn to enjoy perfect prose...
maybe i can't interpret perfectly flawlessly what the writer is trying to portray....but....that doesn't mean i can't enjoy it based on the literal meaning of the phrases...
although this ain't the right timing to do all these....(but one would question...when is?)
i ought to be studying...
still...
Time for you and time for me,
And time yet for a hundred indecisions,
And for a hundred visions and revisions,
Before the taking of toast and tea.
…
Do I dare disturb the universe?
In a minute there is time
For decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse. “The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock,” T. S. Eliot
Why Did Christ Die on the Cross?
by Pastor Greg Laurie
I heard the true story of a woman who was looking at crosses in a jewelry store. As the jeweler showed her various ones, she commented, "I like these, but do you have any that don't have this little man on them?"
That is what people want today: A cross without Jesus. A cross without any offense. But how many people know what the cross really means? If we could be transported back in time and see the cross in its original context, we would realize that it was a bloody and vile symbol. It was the worst picture imaginable to see someone hanging on a cross.
Although crucifixion didn't originate with the Romans, certainly they crucified more people than any other kingdom in history. Thousands of people were put to death on Roman crosses. The Romans chose crucifixion because it was meant to be a slow, torturous, and painful way to die. To die by crucifixion was essentially to die by suffocation. As the one condemned to die hung from the spikes thrust through his feet and hands, he would not be able to get air into his lungs. A small footrest at the base of the cross would enable the crucified to push himself up, get a gulp of air, and then sink back down again. Crucifixion was not designed to bring about a quick death; it was designed to humiliate a person.
Of course, Jesus knew from the very beginning that He had come to this earth to die for the sins of humanity. He also knew that He would make this sacrifice on a Roman cross. If there had been any other way, do you think that God would have sent His Son to suffer like this? If there had been any other way we could have been forgiven, then God surely would have found it. If living a good moral life would get us to heaven, then Jesus would have never died on the cross for us. But He did die, because there was and is no other way. He had to pay the price for our sin.
It all began in the Garden of Eden. Because Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit when God had said, "In the day you eat of it you shall surely die" (Genesis 2:17 NKJV), they not only faced physical death, but spiritual death as well. When Adam and Eve sinned, in principle, we all sinned (see Romans 5:12). Sin is like an infectious disease that has spread throughout humanity. We were all born with it.
Have you ever noticed how easy it is to sin? We don't need to be taught how to sin, but we must be taught how to do right. We must teach a child manners, but we don't need to teach a child how to sin. It comes down to this: We are not sinners because we sin; rather, we sin because we are sinners. No matter how moral or religious we are, we still sin.
This is where the cross comes in, because we were separated from a holy and perfect God by our sin. But God loved us so much that He became a man and walked among us and went to a cross and died in our place and paid the price for every sin that we have ever committed.
The Bible says that when Jesus died on that cross, He canceled the record that contained the charges against us. At the cross, Jesus dealt a decisive blow against Satan and his demon powers. At the cross, Jesus purchased the salvation of the world. This message is so deep and profound that you could spend the rest of your life studying it and still not grasp its full significance. Yet it is so simple that even a child can understand it. Still, many people do not understand the significance of what took place on that Roman cross 2,000 years ago. Jesus died so that we might live.
If ever you are tempted to doubt God's love for you, then take a long look at the cross. It wasn't the spikes that held Jesus there. It was His love for you.
'Datta, dayadhvam, damyata' (Give, sympathize, control).
paper was horrible...
i'm dead...
it's easter...
i'm sick...
:)
feels kinda cool...
maybe it's like the 1st time me doing something easter-like on easter....besides trying to get easter eggs...
oh wells....
didn't managed to go down to Church for the service today...
but...
i was at home watching the Good Friday Communion of Harvest Church...
:D
was pretty good...
learnt quite a few new stuffs...and i went to flip my Bible...the one that has been forsaken...neglected because i decided to shown my much-sought-after attention to the Organic Textbook, and F&R book and the stupid book by Nora Roberts... sheese...how could i....sigh..
anyway...
my first paper's tomorrow...somehow...i'm ok with it..
though i haven't really done much studying and preparations...i guess i can actually get a B or something on this...
with like a Ton of God's Grace...
: /
and organic chemistry is horrible....seriously horrible...and it doesn't help to have a memory span of a goldfish..
i can't remember my reagents... :/ like...who cares about THF and DMPSO, or hydroboration??
heh...i've got a week to buck up on that tho...
anyway....just read Phlin's latest entry....
kinda cool...thought provoking...
and it's serious thought provoking...
i've gotta imagine myself in 10years time...
my aims in life...
not gonna be a struggling kid in university all my life...
oh wells...
suddenly feel inspired to teach...BUT...i can't teach in Singapore....(wanted to make that a I'll NEVER teach in Singapore..but...God has His ways of making things go awry for you.... : /)
the teaching system here is good....and it has produced results...
but....this isn't the way kids should be taught....
i'll blog more another day...
it's time for my medication and then Prince of Eygpt and then Sleep...
God Bless!
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I wanna major in Organic Chemistry....i think....
don't think i wanna do Applied Chemistry no more...
but i've got no idea whether it's because of my fear of being rejected entry into Applied Chemistry....or it's because i'm really interested in Organic Chemistry...
seriously...Org chem does hold a certain appeal to me...really...it does...
and the only thing about applied chemistry that i really want to get would be Drug chemistry...however...since i didn't take Gen Bio this sem...it's pretty much over i guess...leaving me with Materials Chem...if i ever get in...
besides....the job of an applied chemist is to upscale the production of drugs/materials....
the job of a chemist is to experiment and come up with new stuff...
i guess i'm more interested in the experimenting parts than the upscaling the process parts...
should be sticking with Org...
we'll see how...
should still send an application in to Applied Chemistry...just in case....
ANY GOOD REMEDIES FOR FLU???
i've caught the bloody virus...
>.<
can't catch rich, cute guys....end up catching these unwanted viruses...
and my 1st paper's on monday...
sheese...
i need flu medicine...
FAST...
damm...
so...how's Good Friday...
remember that someone gave His life for you today....
Since tomorrow's Good Friday and stuff...
took this from 5th April '04 daily devotional from Harvest
"For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life."
John 3:16
I heard a true story about a man who operated a drawbridge. At a certain time every afternoon, he raised the bridge for a ferryboat to go by, and then lowered it in time for a passenger train to cross over. He performed this task precisely, according to the clock.
One day, he brought his son to work so he could watch. As his father raised the bridge, the boy got excited and wanted to take a closer look. His father realized his son was missing and began looking for him. To his horror, his son had come dangerously close to the bridge’s gears. Frantic, he wanted to go rescue him, but if he left the controls, he would not be back in time to lower the bridge for the approaching passenger train.
He faced a dilemma. If he lowered the bridge, his son would be killed. If he left it raised, hundreds of others would die. He knew what he had to do. With tears streaming down his face, he watched the passenger train roll by. On board, two women chatted over tea. Others were reading newspapers. All were totally unaware of what had just transpired. The man cried out, “Don’t you realize that I just gave my son for you?” But they just continued on their way.
This story is a picture of what happened at the Cross. God gave up His beloved Son so that we might live. But most people don’t give it a second thought. How about you? Are you conscious of the ultimate sacrifice God made on your behalf? Will you be sure to thank Him?
think about this during the weekend...
Matthew 5:44
But I tell you: Love your enemies[1] and pray for those who persecute you,
Passion of Christ ROCKS!!!
tho it's gory and stuff...
it still rocks!
i wept for Mary...
when she saw her son suffer...
the flesh of her flesh...
the heart of her flesh...
but the only thing was...i find that when Christ's soul left the body...
it wasn't drama enough....
i expected more drama...
oh well..blabbering nonsense...
anyway...glad that i went to catch the screening today...
was the youngest in the whole cinema...
the rest of the people in there are kinda old...
those ah kong ah ma types...
white hair dialect speaking type...
:D
guess one reason why Passion is a good evangelistic movie would be because it's in Latin...
the WHOLE show is in Latin...
so it doesn't make a difference whether you speak english or dialects...
everyone still has to rely on the subtitles...
and i have such strong dislike for the Pharisee...
after watching this show...i think...Amos...you need to work harder on generating the I HATE YOU factor from the crowd...
haha
the stupid high priest is an asshole...
Whoops...
You must love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you.
tough order man...
kinda hard lar...but must try...
Loving others is the greatest commandment..
hmmm...
anyway...really quite happy that i managed to catch this movie...
if i didn't watched it today, i'll prolly will only catch it on dvd...
>.<
10 reasons Why i might not have watched it on Big Screen...
1. supposed to watch it on monday....but due to laziness...i couldn't be bothered to get out of my house.
2. EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS
3. Parents + Exams = Prisoner to the books...Slave-is-me...
4. It looked as if it was gonna rain just now...and once it rains = laziness comes in...
5. Show wasn't screening at 10+am at great world...and i would have settled for other shows like My Girl and Hildago if they were screening at Great World at 10++....
6. Don't like Tiong Bahru's seats...
7. GV wasn't open at Tiong Bahru by 10am...
8. can't watch it with Jeremy and Joshua tomorrow because of reason 2 and 3...
9. i know quite a few people with the vcds and dvds...so...normally i don't pay to watch shows which i already can watch for free....
10. The woman checked my ic( ok..so this ain't really a reason...but i'm trying to make it into a 10 reasons thing..)
so...there you go...10 reasons..but i'm :D that i watched it on big screen lar...
the effects different....like the part where Jesus crushed the stupid snake...
:D
i happily jerked...maybe even jumped like 10m high and came back...
i didn't remember reading about the snake in the Bible... : /
haha
beginning to think that i might need a bible study group...hmmm....issit something like cell?
anyway...new link at the side...above toodle..below minh...
has daily devotions and really good stuff...yeah...go click and read.. :D
Matthaeus 5:44
Ich aber sage euch: Liebt eure Feinde, und betet für die, die euch verfolgen,
Passion of Christ!!!
going to watch it later..
alone..
:D
actually..wanted to watch with the church guys...but i've got exams...
and u know my parents lar...
actually....most parents are well....anti when it comes to going to catch a movie when your exam is 3 days later...
so..i'm sneaking out for 126mins to catch the show at Tiong Bahru.... >.< wanted Great World...but it's only screening at 12...
so...i'll be in the cinema at 1030 catching the show...
:D
Yay!
figured that it's a good time to watch it...since...Easter's coming and stuff...
SHIT LAR...
stupid lecturer who's also in charge of the freaking Applied Chemistry Department in NUS...
i've gotta write a 1 page essay to him...
>.<
cannot just send in a sentence expressing my interest in Applied Chemistry....
have to send one whole page...
>.<
write me what you want to do in life, and how taking Applied Chemistry could help you in fulfilling your aspirations.
Best regards,
S. Jaenicke
idiot...idiot him lar...
sigh...prolly write to him after the exams...
anyway...if u guys have any good ideas about that topic...lemme know...
help is appreciated...
and sometimes bluffing helps a long way...
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i want this song....mp3server...aka winfrid wong.....help me download k? thanks..
Jaci Velasquez......You
my goldfish spawned eggs.... all the tiny little dots on the bottom of the tank...
but like not fertilized leh....
>.<
it's opaque....supposed to be amber colour to be fertilized...
anyway...all the fishes are hanging around at the bottom of the tank....
like idiots liddat...
>.<
on another note....EWWWWWWW........eeekk...(gb)
this is made for personal reference....not gonna explain....
Yuk....
i hate eye 2...
spent like 8.50 and i only watching like 60% of the show...
spent the rest of the time hiding behind my bag...
stupid show...
I'm tired of all this bullshitting...
hate it when hopes are risen and then broken...
shattering into a million pieces...
plans that have to change drastically...
screw 'em
seriously wanted to add colourful words and phrases in my entry...
but...no...not gonna do it...
just gonna say this...
Leck mich am Arsch!
that's it...
i'm tired of the whole thing...
might not be going australia.
happy?
Finally
i've finally got full marks for a german test...
never mind that it's a small minor vocab test...
:D
still..
full marks!
anyway...the party was great...
got to know most of my classmates...
very interesting becuz...it's the last lesson for the semester...
:D
anyway..yeah...learnt alot of new names today
:D
had this german cake thingy...
there's blueberry and it tastes like ginger breadish...
:D
not too bad..
and there were 4 boxes of pizza
:D
nice
oh...i've got a TON of christian CDS...
courtesty of Xue Xin...haha
some are in German...some aren't...
:D
cycled all the way to pass em over...
:D
he's leaving for Brunei!!
God BLESS HIM!!!
:D
o wells....1st paper in 10 days time...
Shit...
It's craptacular. -Bart Simpson
I'm doubling over in laughter....
go look at this site...
Milk and Cereal (asian)
to think they're from UC Berkeley...
first William Hung...now this...man...what's wrong with the people over there?
hahaa....
the original version
Milk and Cereal
L'hippo a pique' ses pantalons. (Translation: The hippo stole his pants.) -Willow
Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Your Type is
ISFP
Introverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving
Strength of the preferences % 22 11 56 67
Qualitative analysis of your type formula
You are:
slightly expressed introvert
slightly expressed sensing personality
moderately expressed feeling personality
distinctively expressed perceiving personality
wanna do the test?
Test
I LOVE SERENE!!!
she donated 2 bucks...
:D
and she's got a picture of spongebob...done by some underprivileged kids in singapore...
if you wanna show some/all/alot of love to the underprivileged kids...and let them experience the warmth of society...
kindly click at the paypal button below to donate thru mastercard/visa
OR
to lemme know that you wanna donate and i'll get the cash from ya!
:D
and you'll get a pretty picture done by the kids to show their appreciation...
:D
Conversation between princesschimp and me... u all know who's the princess chimp lar...See the Small button below saying PayPal...click on it...
princesschimpanzee: i feel sad
princesschimpanzee: i wanna eat lunch
princesschimpanzee: but no one to eat with me
ein_tintenfisch: haha
princesschimpanzee: how now brown cow
ein_tintenfisch: ta pao lor
ein_tintenfisch: :D
princesschimpanzee: chooiii!!
princesschimpanzee: dun say tt word k
ein_tintenfisch: i'm eating lunch at home....cheap cheap...save money
princesschimpanzee: hai
princesschimpanzee: i whr got home
princesschimpanzee: hall is my home lor
ein_tintenfisch: haha
ein_tintenfisch: ta pao lar...
princesschimpanzee: dun say ta pao!!
ein_tintenfisch: go canteen order your food...
princesschimpanzee: cannot!!
ein_tintenfisch: carry back...
ein_tintenfisch: y cannot?
princesschimpanzee: exam coming!!
ein_tintenfisch: so?
princesschimpanzee: cos ta pao means... means... fail exam!!
princesschimpanzee: choooiii!
ein_tintenfisch: ....
ein_tintenfisch: -____-|||
ein_tintenfisch: lame...
princesschimpanzee: reali..
princesschimpanzee: haha
ein_tintenfisch: ok...then you go order takeaway
princesschimpanzee: over here in ntu we dun say ta pao one
ein_tintenfisch: go order takeaway
ein_tintenfisch: 62353535
princesschimpanzee: anyway ah... its da bao ah... ur chinese veri good siah
princesschimpanzee: siao... i alone eat meh
ein_tintenfisch: erm...wad chinese? haha...i didn't touch chinese for a LONG time...
ein_tintenfisch: now taking german...haha
princesschimpanzee: lol
princesschimpanzee: yay my fish is eating its poo
princesschimpanzee: yay!
ein_tintenfisch: haha
ein_tintenfisch: i've got 4 new goldfishes!
ein_tintenfisch: :D
princesschimpanzee: i have one fish. one stupid fighting fish
princesschimpanzee: im so siannn
princesschimpanzee: i miss jing n jess
princesschimpanzee: blehz
ein_tintenfisch: haha
ein_tintenfisch: go over lar
ein_tintenfisch: :D
princesschimpanzee: no moolah
ein_tintenfisch: go earn moolah
ein_tintenfisch: sell your blingblings and use the moolah to buy air tix
ein_tintenfisch: :D
princesschimpanzee: wats blingblings?
ein_tintenfisch: i wanna major in greek mythology...no idea what i can do in future and singapore confirm don't have this major...
princesschimpanzee: anyway i cannto work lah
ein_tintenfisch: bling bling = jewellery...like diamonds... they go bling bling
ein_tintenfisch: :D
princesschimpanzee: .. i whr got bling blings... only one. which i jus got for my bday frm my parents... my 21 key!!
ein_tintenfisch: hahaha
princesschimpanzee: if i sell this blingbling (this word is damn hard to type) then i wld b so sadd....
ein_tintenfisch: one bling bling i dun think can exchange for enough moolah for a to and fro ticket...
ein_tintenfisch: try selling justin lar...
ein_tintenfisch: :D
ein_tintenfisch: but you might have to pay people to buy him tho..
princesschimpanzee: worse ar... tt wil fetch abt... $5
princesschimpanzee: whr got enuff
princesschimpanzee: AHAHAHHA u even meaner than me k
ein_tintenfisch: haha
ein_tintenfisch: oops
ein_tintenfisch: :D
ein_tintenfisch: aiya...u sell nick and justin together lar...
princesschimpanzee: tt wil b like $12 in total lor
ein_tintenfisch: or you find a way to bluff jing into paying for your air tix
ein_tintenfisch: :D
princesschimpanzee: hahaha
princesschimpanzee: good idea
ein_tintenfisch: $12..u said justin's $5 so nick's $7 ar?
princesschimpanzee: yup hahaha
ein_tintenfisch: wah...nick's worth more than justin lar
princesschimpanzee: of cos lah
princesschimpanzee: nick taller
ein_tintenfisch: lol
ein_tintenfisch: then....
ein_tintenfisch: does that mean that mark's got the most worth among all of them?
princesschimpanzee: something like tt
princesschimpanzee: hahah
princesschimpanzee: but for gals its the opp... the shorter u are, the more worth u are... cos hor... small means cute... cute means guys wanna protect u!! so u're worth alot!! wooooohooo!
ein_tintenfisch: erm...
ein_tintenfisch: u're saying that cuz of your height right?
ein_tintenfisch: lol
ein_tintenfisch: oops
princesschimpanzee: no wat... *innocent look*
ein_tintenfisch: yar yar
ein_tintenfisch: i believe
ein_tintenfisch: eh...i know liao...
ein_tintenfisch: u can sell nick to justin
princesschimpanzee: wat
ein_tintenfisch: then u sell justin to shang
princesschimpanzee: hahahahah
ein_tintenfisch: and u sell shang to jing
princesschimpanzee: so shang gets both nick n justin?
ein_tintenfisch: then u've got enough moolah
princesschimpanzee: n jing gets shang nick n justin?
ein_tintenfisch: yeah
princesschimpanzee: i think jing wld rather pay for my tix
ein_tintenfisch: not bad wad...
ein_tintenfisch: 1 guy wash the toilet
ein_tintenfisch: 1 guy cook
ein_tintenfisch: 1 guy cleans the house
ein_tintenfisch: not bad wad...
ein_tintenfisch: then the toilet one can also iron the clothes
princesschimpanzee: heheheh no one to help her paint her toenails n fix her hair?
ein_tintenfisch: erm...
ein_tintenfisch: justin and nick can i think...
ein_tintenfisch: no point asking shang tho..
princesschimpanzee: i think justin lah
princesschimpanzee: hahaha
princesschimpanzee: shang cnnt
ein_tintenfisch: the colours will clash
princesschimpanzee: confirm
ein_tintenfisch: so...
ein_tintenfisch: u wanna start an auction?
ein_tintenfisch: lol
princesschimpanzee: hahaha
princesschimpanzee: not a bad idea
princesschimpanzee: i'll post it on my blog now
princesschimpanzee: lol
ein_tintenfisch: can i get like 10% cut?
ein_tintenfisch: commission lar
ein_tintenfisch: haha
ein_tintenfisch: times are bad...
princesschimpanzee: ok lah ten percent
ein_tintenfisch: cool
ein_tintenfisch: :D
princesschimpanzee: =)
ein_tintenfisch: then u could try selling yanto to jas...erm...anyone who wants him...
ein_tintenfisch: just sell everything/everyone lar...
ein_tintenfisch: then u'll be rich man...
princesschimpanzee: hahahah
princesschimpanzee: u're great siah
ein_tintenfisch: y?
ein_tintenfisch: i mean...i know i'm great...but to boost my ego...y?
princesschimpanzee: u r... innovative n entrepreneurial! (is there such a word?)
ein_tintenfisch: lol....
i need more of this type of conversations in my life...
:D
*ps...auction's happening at daphne's blog....*
ATE: Goddess of Infatuation, Obsession and Mad Impulses.
She prompts people to do stupid things on the spur of the moment. If you've ever had an unfortunate fling with a complete stranger or run down the street naked to find your mother-in-law coming the other way, that's ATE at work.
i like this goddess....
finally went for organic tut again...saw the attendance sheet...realised that i didn't go for 3 lessons...there are 5 in all... went for the 1st and last tut... :D
but it was recorded as i've only missed 2 lessons... :D
cool...
went home after that 1 hour...found it ok lar...i went for the earlier class....
anyway..i've got new pets...4 new goldfishes... :D
they look so good that they can be eaten...
oh well...
Oh..currently...i'm quite interested in Greek mythology....kinda cool....
:)
if nus had such a module...i'll take it...
The Fates have the subtle but, awesome power of deciding a mans destiny. The assign a man to good or evil. There most obvious choice is choosing how long a man lives. There are three Fates. Clotho, the spinner, who spins the thread of life. Lachesis, the measurer, who chooses the lot in life one will have and measures off how long it is to be. Atropos, she who can not be turn, who at death with her shears cuts the tread of life. The Fates are old and predate the gods. It is not entirely clear how far their power extends. It is possible that they determine the fate of the gods as well. In any case, not even the most powerful is willing to trifle with them.
