i'm kinda happy today!
cuz..
i think there's a chance of me actually finishing my textbook readings before bedtime today.
so.
i can start tutorial flipping and textbook worked examples looking tmr.
ha.
and.
i watched shrek again today.
but i fought against the urge to make today ALL SHREK DAY. and i didn't watch shrek 2.
bah.
then i went for piano..and all of my theory homework was CORRECT! woohoO! and i only did them yesterday. ha.
oh. and highlight of the day!
i got a letter from pam!!!! yar...princess pam...-rolls eyes-
haha..
yay!!
it's like so overdued..
hahaha
at least it came...so yay!!
:D
ok..back to muggerdom.
-sigh-
Not too far from here.
Somebody's down to their last dime,
somebody's running out of time
Not too far from here
Somebody's got nowhere else to go,
somebody needs a little hope
Not too far from here
And I may not know their name,
But I'm praying just the same
That you'll use me,
Lord to wipe away the tears
Cause somebody's crying,
Not too far from here.
Somebody's troubled and confused,
somebody's got nothing left to lose
Not too far from here
Somebody's forgotten how to trust,
and somebody's dying for love
Not too far from here
It may be a stranger's face,
But I'm praying for Your grace
To move in me and take away the fear
'Cause somebody's hurting,
Not too far from here
Help me Lord, not to turn away from pain
Help me not to rest while those around me weep
Give me Your strength and compassion
When somebody finds the road of life too steep
Somebody's troubled and confused,
somebody's got nothing left to lose
Not too far from here
Somebody's forgotten how to trust,
and somebody's dying for love
Not too far from here
Now I'm letting down my guard
and I'm opening my heart
Help me speak Your love to ev'ry needful ear
Someone is waiting, not too far from here
Someone is waiting, not too far from here
A buried treasure
i will believe in the Redeemer when the Christian looks a little more redeemed. --Friedrich Nietzshe.
hmm..so now how brown cow?
our King is portrayed thru the actions of His people.
and guess what...
we aren't exactly the setting the bestest example we can.
and how will the people around us see Him when they look at us?
and if they don't see Him in us.
how would they know Him?
to search for your own identity and to take pride in your own identity, and not let society shape you into someone else...that's prolly what everyone is trying to do nowadays.
guess what...
you'll only find YOU when you lose yourself for Him.
whoever loses his life for me will find it
so.
Lose yourself.
we have decided to form a new bunch of superheros to fight the Incredibles.
we are called *drumrolls* the Miracles.
ha.
the head of the Miracles = Jesus Miracle Christ.
and then 2 other kids called.
Gloree miracle and Jamie miracle..
ha.
Gloree's superpower is Time travel.
Jamie's superpower is Animal Communication.
ha.
see.
we're cool.
ha.
-beams-
*edit* new superkid.. Jem miracle...superpower.. to be to know what every girl is thinking
*edit edit* new superkid..Joel miracle..superpower..to be a supermaid..ha.
I miss cinderella. kinda.
i'm really supposed to be studying now...or at least that's what xinyi thinks i'm doing...cuz if i go study..i'll get an earthquake...ha.
everyone's bribing me with ice cream.
haha.
yay!!
Christmas!! Ice Cream!! yay!!
ok..so..since i'm not studying at the moment..i might be the one paying for the ice cream instead.
ha.
no worries. :D
Jamie, your celebrity soul mate is someone who's Classy
It's all about subtle style and sophistication with you. That's why when it comes to matters of the heart, the celeb who'll snare yours will be a classy character both onscreen and off. Whether you're strutting the red carpet or sharing a romantic rendezvous on Rodeo Drive, only a class act will be right for the part of your soul mate.
Someone like Ewan McGregor has just the right combination of good looks, charm, and smarts to keep up with a star like you. Dinner dates filled with intellectual conversations and soft candlelight would keep this silver-screen dream burning bright. So reserve a table for two. You never know when you might meet someone special who's as classy as you!
Yay!! CLASSY!!! EWAN!!
Jamie, in your Cinderella story, you'd get to Live Happily Ever After
When it comes to setting goals, you're not afraid to reach high. How else would you explain wanting to be the belle of the ball, winning the heart of the prince, showing those evil stepsisters who's boss, and ruling the kingdom? You're a girl with goals, and you go after them.
Let's face it: You're not one to sit around and wait for life to happen. If the driver has the night off, you'd probably proudly take the reigns of your pumpkin coach and drive yourself to the party. You're not the type to have a team of servants at your beck and call although that wouldn't be so horrible, now would it? But if good ol' Prince Charming has anything to say about it, you won't have to lift a finger when you move into the castle together — unless you want to. And with your varied interests and natural drive to get what you want, you're sure to be true royalty in no time. And that's a happily ever after worth sharing.
Happily ever after. that's the way ALL fairytales should end. i want to live a fairytale.
Jamie, your beauty aura is Natural!
When it comes to how you present yourself to the world, you strongly believe that keeping things simple — whether it's your relationships, career, or face soap — is the best way to be beautiful. You're satisfied with what nature gave you and aren't afraid to show your confident, unadorned self to the world.
Your beauty routine is all about maintenance. You keep your skin clean, your body moisturized, and add a splash of color to lips and eyes when the situation demands it. Other than that? You feel best looking as fresh as nature intended. In the course of being au naturelle you may sometimes forget to cut loose and have fun. You should feel free to dress up now and then or splurge on a scent. Spoil yourself, now and then, as nature intended.
it's really actually more because i cant be bothered...heh..
Jamie, your fantasy island is New Zealand
Rugged. Adventurous. Both! When you head on vacation, your fantasy island is the wild and diverse country of New Zealand. A curious and courageous spirit, you don't need — or necessarily want — a lot of pampering when traveling. Not one to lounge on a beach chair most days, you seek out challenges (on holiday and off), especially when there's a chance to hone a new skill or test your mettle.
You tend to relax by doing — be it bungee jumping, hiking the backcountry, or hitting every museum a city has to offer. Like New Zealand's varied terrain — glaciers, beaches, cities, and mountains — you can entertain even the most rambunctious friends. For you, there's nothing better than letting go of convention and heading off toward a new, undiscovered sunset. Ramble on!
hahahaha....yeah baby yeah!!
ha.
it's dark.
it's stormy.
i see lightning blots flashing across me.
it's cool.
nice weather.
to see the mightiness of the lightning.
and yet.
not having to feel it's power firsthand.
to be a spectator.
and just marvel at it's glory.
it's amazing.
today's paper was horrible.
i had a flu jab.
my bag was heavy.
i sprained my ankle.
i met an acquaintance who said his gf was miserly.
i went to town.
i bought food and stuff.
i came home.
the end.
and if everything i wrote was correct..i'll get like 56marks or so..
so..
i'm in shit.
but God will provide a shovel.
ha.
it's exactly 2 hours before the starting of my paper.
bah.
tried last year's paper.
didn't get pass question 2.
or rather.
couldn't really be bothered to crack my brains for qn 3.
i mean.
my paper is in like a couple of hours.
i rather use the time to look through other stuff than to get meself all stressed up and brain dead.
oo..
i better get the redbull out of the fridge.
blah.
i'm not going to study or do anything remotely chemistry for the next 1.5hr
cuz it's not going to get in anyway.
and i'll prolly have to talk about chemistry stuff when i meet my friends.
so. that explains why it's 1.5hr and not 2hr.
so well.
im out of here.
need to nap for a while.
What if this is as good as it gets?
paper at 2.30pm...
oh noooo...
i've got a swollen right eye now..
bah.
must have rubbed it too much last night.
tmr's my NEXT paper..
erm..
yar..
it's the 2nd last paper..
and one of the hardest modules..
damm..
i've got like 2 ultra hard modules this sem..
tmr's one.and next thursday's one.
sigh.
oh well.
i need to start tabulating my formulas for easy reference tmr.
on another note..
TIFF IS BACK!!! erm. yar. according to josh. i mean. he should know that better than me right? yar.
much to my amusement or astonishment or wadever..
the steamed egg which i..err..steamed...
turned out...
crater-ish..
hmm..
but it looks like an interesting crater tho..
and..it tastes not too bad...
ha..
perfect visciousity..
-beams-
blarh.
shall eat this nicely disfigured egg and get back to Homework set 6!!
i've got a total of 9 homework sets to go thru by dinnertime..
and then it's onward formula summarizing and last year's paper scanning..
tralala!!
God provided me with a egg crater!!
ha!
insecurities.
all relationships start looking shaky when they meet this word.
like what Jb was saying last night.
He just mentioned to her that Leonora, his best friend for 13years and whom he used to have a crush on, was coming back to sg for 2 weeks.
and..all hell broke loose.
right.
and..Jb is like..to my opinion..the least likely to commit adultary guy...haha..maybe that's because i knew him since my secondary school days..
oh well.
next.
What do you think the church is?
Is is just a building to you?
a place where you go every saturday and sunday for 3-4hrs and then leave?
is the church not a family of people who loves God?
Do you not have relationship bonds with people from your church?
Are you willing to break all these bonds just for 1 person?
if you are.
i'm disappointed in you.
really.
in other matters..
to my dear stalker...have fun at prom today.. :)
im in a bad mood now.
real bad.
added stress of not even finishing the 1st round of revision for friday's paper.
and.
some other matters.
just pissed.
why is it that others have the right to be pissed and i don't?
I TOOK THIS FROM...ahem...Jon...
erm...Jon who is like currently the err....quite perfect bf..i rate him 9/10!
so..well..i'm bored.. :)
1. Like to walk in the rain?
my answer:Yeah!! it's not stupid or romantic..it's MAGICAL! erm..ok...for a drizzle..and not the storms that have been going on in sg these days
his answer:nope, not even if im w my gf, its stupid not romantic
2. Sleep with or without clothes on?
my answer: With.
his answer:shirtless
3. Prefer black or blue pens?
my answer:black, pink, red, blue, green. any colour's fine. but black's good.
his answer:blue..
4. dress up on halloween?
my answer:i would want too...but i'm a tad bit too old for this.
his answer:would like to but never had e chance.... would def spend one
halloween in e states one day
5. Like to travel ?
both: definitely
6. Like someone?
both: hmm... kinda... :p
7. Do they know?
my:ermm....i'm hoping NO.
his:if she does, she's good...
8. Sleep on your side?
both:yup
9. Think you're attractive?
both:haha.. r u mocking me??...hmmm haha...
10. Want to marry?
me: yar..do'h
his:ask my mates..they wil tell u my 21 year old plan.. yes
11.Who?
both:hmmm...geez... wont be doin this survey if i know who...
12. Alaska or Hawaii ?
both:hawaii..definitely
13. Are you a smart student?
both:nope
14. Are you currently in a relationship?
both:nope
15. Are you involved in sports?
me:err...does walking/running for the bus count? window shopping?
him:yea... of cuz...
16. Christmas or Halloween?
both:christmas..
17. Colored or black-and-white photo?
me: B&W is good. it's not the colour of the photo..it's the skill involved.
him:colored... yea...
18. Do long distance relationships work?
me: yeah i think they do. -looks at josh and tiff-..-looks at mich and deyna-..loads of effort involved..but they do i guess.
him:according to wat i see ard me...nope... wait..pete n love r still
tog..so yea maybe...
19. Do you believe in astrology?
both:nope
20. Do you believe in God?
both:of cuz!!!
21. Do you believe in love at first sight?
both:tempting but no...
me on a sidenote..i believe in crush at first sight tho.. :)
22. Do you consider yourself the life of the
party?
both:nope.... but i make sure i am if its my own party...duh!
23. Do you make fun of people?
me: sometimes..but i'll try my best not to be mean anymore.
him:tempting...but try my best not to
24. Do you think dreams come true?
me: yeah..
him:yea....after 10 years i think..
25. Fave thing to do?
me:loads..except for mugging and filling out surveys...see..the survey filling is to delay mugging..
him:heaps...cant think of all now...too many...but def not filling in
surveys like this...
26. Favorite musician?
me:no real fave..but vienna teng is pretty good..and john pizzarelli is good too..and many others.
him:i reckon ed harcourt is pretty good...been listenin to a lot of his
songs lately.. n a lot more....
27. Fave. breakfast food?
me:PANCAKES!!!!!!!
him:honey crunch...but tts if i wake up in time for breakfast
28. Fave. Candy?
both:anything is good for me....cept liquorice candy...i feel like
puking already..
29. Fave. Vacation spot?
me:hmmm....a non-chinese speaking country would be good..judging from my wonderful chinese speaking capabilities..i reckon..australia or NZ will be good..yeah..there's something to do for every mood i'll have.
him:hawaii i guess... or cheap subst would be phuket or bali..
30. Favorite feature?
me:my one lone dimple..heh..but a feature would be my messy hair..but that's not my fave...that's more like the bane of my existance..ha.
him:fav...hmm..tricky...i guess my hair... is tt a feature? then it would
be my ears..
31. Favourite cartoon?
me:Spongebob! Tom and Jerry! Carebears! erm..most of the cartoons are good...but not the new generation ones...
him:visionaries, capt planet, tom n jerry, mask, transformer
my childhood is quite sad...haha
32. Go to the movies or rent?
me: rent.
him:movies back home...but rent here in aust..its too ex over here.
33. Have you ever moved?
both:yeap..
34. How's the weather right now?
both:terrible!!.
me on a sidenote..terrible for waking up to mug or to get to the exam venue..but perfect for lying and snoozing in bed.
35. Hug or kiss?
both:hugs..
36. Last person you talked to on the phone?
me:my mum
him:nic
37. Last time you showered?
me:yesterday
him:11ish.
38. Loud or soft music?
me: depends on my mood..but recently..it has been more soft and slow rather than fast and loud.
him:both...depends where i am....
39. McDonalds or Hungry Jacks?
both:macs anytime..(on a sidenote...unless it's BK you're talking about....)
40. More sugar or milk for coffee?
me:more ice and sugar and milk..i'm assuming it's black coffee..or else..i wouldn't need anything else for a mocha.
him:milk.
41. Night or day?
me:night
him:day...
42. Number of pillows on ur bed?
me:1 pillow..3 smaller pillows
him:2
43. Piano or guitar?
both:piano....its much easier...
44. Read or write?
me:reading is easier...but once the momentum is there to write..writing's pretty fun too.
him:both i reckon
45. Single or taken?
both:single n very available...NOT..hahah.
46. Snow or water?
both:snow i reckon
47. What are you doing tomorrow?
me: mug. NOT looking forward to that..
him:vic mkt night market...looking forward to tt..!!
48. what clothes are you wearing?
me:my crescent teeshirt and short...comfy..
him:my army teeshirt n shorts...comfortable...
49. What do you drink?
me:most stuff..except dubious looking drinks which smell weird..
him:anything...cept weed drink...n beetroot!!!..arghh...
50. What makes you puke?
both:weed, beetroot, liquorice....e fact tt im bored enough to do this
survey...
51. What's on your computer screen?
both:i refuse to answer this question...
52. What's right next to you?
me: a bottle of water..a mug of water..and a plate which i have not got round to washing yet.
him:cell, speakers, pencilcase, cap, a $50 book voucher..
53. What's your bedtime?
me:around 12 to 1?
him:trying to sleep early but doenst seem to happen...prob ard 2?
54. What's your name backwards?
me: eimaj...looks nice..ha.. :)
him:nahtaonj....hmm..looks aboriginal to me..
55. What do you do when u get up in the
morning?
me:-mumbles- 5 mins more..to no one in particular.
him:snooze my alarm....its been prety standard everday...haha....
im done!!!ahah
hahaha...i'm done too! i love Jon! hahaha :)
tralalala..
jamie is a happy happy girl..
Dr Chin aka Mother Chin is a nice prof...
she's nice..
heh..
the paper was do-able..
very do-able if i say so myself..
tralalala..
my ultra smart friend didn't manage to finish the paper tho..
i guess he wrote too much..
i mean...
i handed up 1 answer booklet...and he handed up 2..
and he's like SMART..and didn't complete the 2nd part of the last question!
wow..
oh well..
he's smart..
he should prolly get an A or something..
and i'll be very happy with my B..
tralalala..
aim for the moon..and you'll hit the stars..
now...
2 more papers to go..
and these are the hard papers...
today's paper...compared to the next 2...is..child's play..
i am doomed..
blah.
i shall enjoy the moment.
:)
ok...
time check..
1pm..
exam starts at..5pm..
i've got 3hrs..
and well..
i think i'm ok..
erm..well..
yeah..
as in..
should be able to fish out a B-/B from the lecturer i guess..
-prays-
and then..it's gonna be more mugging for friday's paper..
which i have not even finished round 1 of revision...
after 7 blardy pm today!
it's 2 down 2 to go!!
Woo Hoo!!
i can't believe that my sweetheart's gonna go KL and back to Sg and yet my papers aren't even over yet!!
i mean..
!?!?!?!?!
it's so not fair.
damm.
thou shalt go foster bonds with raman and electronic and spin spectro again..
am already firm friends(i hope) with microwave and infra red.
im tired..
i want to just give up.
i mean.
how far can my grades plunge?
ugh.
i just want to be a tree.
standing tall and strong and mature in the forest.
the canopy of the jungle.
to have squirrels play hide and seek or tag among my branches..
to provide shelter for birds that choose to nest in my foliage..
to listen to the stories that migratory birds have to tell..
to watch my leaves change during the months of summer to autumn..
yeah..
i really would like to be a tree..
not an angsana tree or banana tree...even tho that comes with a free ghost to accompany me..
i want to be an OAK tree...or some tall tall PROTECTED tree...
so that i won't be chopped off to be used as paper..
yeah..
i want to be a tree.
to listen to learn and to absorb.
anyway...i'm finally done with the whole frickin set of spectroscopy tutorials..
i've concluded that tutorial 3 is the only one that's giving me problem..
will redo it again tmr.
tomorrow's the paper...5pm..
::Listening to Vienna Teng's The Tower::
Dr. Jekyll is fighting his internal demon, Edward Hyde
Jekyll: All that you are is a face in the mirror. I close my eyes and you disappear.
Hyde: I'm what you face when you face in the mirror. Long as you live I will still be here.
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after a while, you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't mean security.
and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises.
and you being to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes open
with the grace of a woman,
not the grief of a child.
and you learn to build all your roads
on today,
because tomorrow's ground
is too uncertain for plans, and futures have
a way of falling down in mid-flight.
after a while you learn that even sunshine
burns if you get too much.
so you plant your own garden and decorate
your own soul instead of waiting
for someone to bring you flowers.
and you learn that you really can endure...
that you really are strong
and you really do have worth.
and you learn and learn...
with every goodbye you learn.
my beats
my notes
his song.
my rhymes
my words
his book.
my love
my heart
his life.
-someone's blog-
I am jaded and a cynic because I am an optimist and a hopeless romantic.
I fear intimacy because I hunger so intensely for it.
I create walls because I am vulnerable.
I run away from relationships because I cannot escape them.
I tell myself lies because I do not wish to be deceived.
---words from phlin...---
this entry
I mourn for childish fantasies.
for childike idealism and fleeting fancies.
for that careless prick of the needle that burst the bubble we were once enclosed in.
then came the plunge.
from the floating dreams to the abyss of reality.
for who we once were to who we now are.
we came a long way since then.
something i found lurking around in friendster..
Crescentians.How unique is the term & the girls. From Sec1’s very yellow blouses & longlong skirts, to Sec2’s excitement of being called seniors, to Sec3’s frequent trips down to town besides TYS know-hows & OBS camp, & Sec4’s trendy faded blouse as well as folded short skirts not forgetting muggings with endless mock tests. CGS
promised & gave us all-rounded leadership life with fulfilling CCAs
other than interesting academic classes by best teachers. Our
beautiful fully-equipped school blocks are cool! Many say our canteen serves
superb food~ Our IT-Demo reputation is not just for show, how many other
schools around actually allowed students to fiddle with Macintoshes apart from sophisticated softwares? Boy, were P.E lessons fun and mass runs horrible. But that’s how we were able to keep fit! BRONTE, KELLER, FRY,CURIE & PANKHUST rule! To add, personalized school events like
Crescentians Day & CrezAwards helped bonded us together.
111 & 132 were filled with rowdy and noisy us after sch! Mobil is always packed during lunch! We either have instant mee outside or snacks back in CGS! We have loads of fun in classes- we study,we chitchat,we pig out,we change clothes,we exchanged classes with others residing above when they have someone who broke a leg,we took photos,what have you. Toilets, sports bras & deodorants were our best friends. Crescentians ROCK! Hope fond memories are refreshed as you are reading, here’s wishing all Crescentians well. To current ones, what you are going through now, your seniors have all been through and are still surviving so way to go & enjoy! To those graduates, be sure to enroll your girls in CGS next time! Shall sign off with the sch cheer of ours sang at the end of our major school events- Give me a C,C. Give me an R,R. Give me an E,E. Give me an S,S. Give me an E,E. Give me an N,N. Give me a T,T. What do you get? CRESCENT!
i'm still online..
shh..
it's 10.50pm now..
am supposed to be offline studying like...at 1030..
shhh...
no one's supposed to know about this...
erm..
darn..
why am i blogging about it??
oh..
anyway..
i'm really about to go now..right after this entry..
so...
yeah..
to the study table!!
-zoom-
blah.
just had my first paper of this semester.
it's..
erm...
well...
smoking..
cuz i smoked alot..
like...hahaha...i wrote 7 pages...and well...it's alot of smoke...yeah..
i know i won't fail..yeah...i'll be happy with a B+/B...
my expectations aren't very high...
heh..
-beams-
and i really should mug...
but..no mood la...
everyone's at crosslink now!!!
-wails-
bah.
oh wells..gonna grab a nap and mug.
note to self, wasserfrau, yingchao, mel, carys, whoever else is having exams: Mug Hard,Let Go and Let God.
THE EXAMS START TMR!!
*bang*
and they're off!
oooo...
wait...
I CAN'T BELIEVE OLINDA GOT VOTED OFF!!
erm..ok..actually..i can believe it..
but i can't believe that Sly's fanbase is SOOO HUGE!
oh well..
at least i kinda know who's gonna be the SgI...
it's TAUFIK!!
well...that's if talent counts more than sms votes...
right..
i better go start round 1 of applied chem studies..
or maybe do a round 3 of interpersonal..
i'll see how..
**Prayers are welcomed...long or short equally appreciated...thanks...the lines are open..you can start praying thru to the hotline now..**
ok..
it's amazing how i started on round 2 of interpersonal effectiveness studies at 12noon..and end it at 4pm.. and i'm not even freaking out yet. even tho the paper starts at 9am tomorrow. yup..on a SATURDAY.
oh wells..
i finished 3 christmas cards..
and..
a note to you...YES YOU...you who's reading this right now?
drop me an email or an msn note with your name and address and postal code and whatever nots that i have to write on the envelope.
mail me at..
doppelganger[at]gmail[dot]com
so now..here i am feeling sleepy..drinking sparkling voss water..and wanting to sleep..even tho there's is a nagging reminder at the back of my head telling me that i have to start on my 1st round of 2161 studies..with 9 chapters to cover..
oh well...
From Notting hill..the movie..
Keziah: No thanks, I'm a fruitarian.
Max: I didn't realize that.
William: And, ahm: what exactly is a fruitarian?
Keziah: We believe that fruits and vegetables have feeling so we think cooking is cruel. We only eat things that have actually fallen off a tree or bush - that are, in fact, dead already.
William: Right. Right. Interesting stuff. So, these carrots...
Keziah: Have been murdered, yes.
William: Murdered? Poor carrots. How beastly!
From Love Actually..the movie..
Harry: Tell me, exactly, how long it is that you've been working here?
Sarah: Two years, seven months, three days and, I suppose, what, two hours?
Harry: And how long have you been in love with Karl, our enigmatic chief designer?
Sarah: Ahm, two years, seven months, three days and, I suppose, an hour and thirty minutes.
Harry: I thought as much.
Sarah: Do you think everybody knows?
Harry: Yes.
Sarah: Do you think Karl knows?
Harry: Yes.
Sarah: Oh that is bad news.
Harry: Well I just thought maybe the time had come to do something about it.
Sarah: Like what?
Harry: Invite him out for a drink and then after about twenty minutes casually drop into the conversation the fact that you'd like to marry him and have lots of sex and babies.
Sarah: You know that?
Harry: Yes. And so does Karl. Think about it. For all our sakes. It's Christmas.
Sarah: Certainly. Excellent. Will do. Thanks, boss.
Another Level - From the Heart Lyrics
I know you've heard these words a hundred other times before
And you've been hurt and so your heart has chose to close the door
Love broke your heart and brought you lies
Look in my eyes
You'll see a love that's deep and true
Tender and strong and all for you
You can trust this love
Honest, that's the honest truth
From the heart
I'm giving you everything, everything
From the heart
I promise you that I'll be there
I'll be there to love you
From the soul
I'm showing you all I feel, all I feel is
From the heart, from the heart
I will protect you and respect you and be all you need
And when you reach for love you'll only need to reach for me
These arms will never let you down
They're staying around
I'll walk with you through every storm
I'll keep you safe, I'll keep you warm
And you'll have no doubt
You're the one I'm living for
From the heart (from the heart baby)
I'm giving you everything (oh) everything (giving you everything)
From the heart (my heart)
I promise you that I'll be there (I'll be there for you)
I'll be there to love you
From the soul
I'm showing you all I feel, all I feel (I'm showing you)
All I feel (all I feel) is
From the heart, from the heart (from the heart)
I'll provide the love you need
Just trust my touch
Believe in me
I'll never make you cry
Givin' all I got with all I got inside
From the heart
I'm giving you everything, everything (giving you everything)
From the heart (from my heart)
I promise you that I'll be there (I'll be there to love you, love you, ooh)
I'll be there to love you (ohh)
From the soul (my soul)
I'm showing you all I feel (all I feel) all I feel (all I feel) is
From the heart (the heart) from the heart
Ooh, from the heart, from the heart.
I'm doing this because i'm bored..and i shouldn't be bored because i haven't finished my spectro studies yet...oh no...but well....this is the last entry of the day..i promise!! i'll be a good girl and mug till 12 tonight... :D
so...this is from glori's blog again...
What would you do if...
Your crush suddenly asks you out?
get him to hold on for a minute, go to a deserted place, or toilet cubicle and scream and jump around and then get out and say yes. -beams-
You walk into an elevator and see a couple making out?
exclaim out loud that...aiyo..i actually wanted to up/down depending on where the lift is actually going..and go climb the stairs..
Your parents had another baby?
erm...good for them...as long as the baby doesn't cry all day and all night...cuz i have no babysitting experience..i mean..look at my brother...i spluttered milk all over him when he was like a baby in his crib..and the reason why that happened? something funny happened on tv..and i snorted and milk flew..and i was only 4 or 5..so gimme a break.. >.<
You're trapped in a building about to explode?
#1 Pray. #2 call everyone up to tell them i love them. #3 blog about my final moments on planet Earth.
You were granted one wish?
errr...i wish that i can have more wishes? or like unlimited number of wishes? i promise to use them for good!
Aliens invaded earth?
Aliens? u mean E.T? he's cute wad...and the ones from Men in Black are cute too...erm...well..on the other hand..i would befriend the Alien king and learn to speak alien-ish and be part of the family. if u can't win 'em, join 'em.
A guy (or girl if you're a guy) suddenly kissed you?
it depends on who the guy is and what the scenario is. my first reaction will prolly be HUH? with that o_O look on my face. and either i grin like an idiot or i punch him in the face. :P
You won a date with your celeb crush?
well...frank sinatra's dead already right? i mean...i don't wanna go on a date with a dead guy..like how spooky is that? oh wells...if it's yan xing shu...erm..then..i'll scream and jump around and try to sell the date to the highest bidder..i mean..i like him..but not THAT much to have a thousand flashlights going off in my face...i mean...right...i'll sell the date to the highest bidder.
You were given a blue car?
i'll be quite happy...but it has to come with COE paid too..anyway...i welcome anything with 4 wheels...including the Kangoo from Renault.. :D and if i don't like the colour..i'll spray paint it.
Your boyfriend (girlfriend if you're a guy) breaks up with you?
bum around for awhile. eat plenty of ice cream and chocolates. call my girlfriends up to bitch about it. and move on.
You win a million dollars.
i would build Jamie's bed and breakfast, and the rest of the cash..i'll prolly build a small farm...and then buy an apartment overlooking any aussie beach..YAY!! then all my funding projects will be completed! and i'm sure there's gonna be moolah leftover..so i'll buy everyone a present! -grins-
Someone gives you flowers?
grin around spastically. and hand 'em over to my mum. she'll prolly know how to dry 'em better than i do..i'll prolly kill them or something..
You recieve a love letter in your locker?
i'll check who it's from..and either look disgusted or grin spastically and float in the air while i walk..
You fail your exam?
ta pao lor...retake the module again next semester..i mean...that's what we do in nus..but i really really don't want to do so..cuz it's hard to fail in nus..and this reminds me that i really ought to finish my spectro..damm.
You get first in class?
err....we don't exactly have classes in nus..but if you mean 1st in my faculty..well..the pigs would fly..but they already have air pork..hmm..erm..well then..aliens will come and invade planet Earth.
Your computer crashes?
I'll cry and use my computer while i send to someone to fix..most prob would be jun..cuz he's like the only one who knows computer stuff and doesn't charge money... T_T
You get fired.
i don't and won't get fired..i mean..hey...i'm the one that fires them.. -beams-
Your best friend betrays you
good for me that i don't have a best friend. but then again. if one of my really really good friends betray me...i'll be really pissed and rant on and on and on..and it really depends on what THE BETRAYER betrayed me about.to rant is the mildest case..the worse case..well..i don't even want to think about it.
You had to choose between your boyfriend (girlfriend if you're a guy) and your best friend?
depends on what's the issue at hand and whether it's reasonable. and then again..i don't have a best friend..hmm..
You were paid fifty dollars to fill this out?
can i have more copies please?
SLY BASHING!!
i can't believe he sang Phantom...
Andrew Lloyd Webber will kill himself when he hears this..
sigh..
man..
how could he sing PHANTOM?
it's like flinging mud on the good name of BROADWAY!
ugh.
he should stick to the heavy metal rocker type of songs and chinese songs..
man..
on the other hand..TAUFIK WAS GOOD!
like WOOHOO!!
i love both his 1st 2 songs..
:)
go taufik!!
i can't seem to concentrate....
2 more chapters of spectroscopy..before i finish round 1 revision for it...
damm...
it's been dragging like forever...
i need to start on round 2 of interpersonal relationships by tomorrow..
and start on round 1 of cm2161 revision too...
ugh..
i can't CONCENTRATE..
i need to drink orange juice concentrate or something..
bah.
on a sidenote..
i think my turtle needs a shrink. i'm afraid that it'll commit suicide or something...i'll prollu get the other turtle to talk to it...
o_O
A moment of silence for the dearly departed...
Moose was killed...murdered...torn apart...by the psycho turtle named Floozie...
even tho i suspect that this ain't Floozie...cuz he doesn't seem to be eating as much as he used to before i left for bintan...and he's weird nowadays...
-shrugs-
Love actually is all around
no prizes for guessing which dvd i spent 2 hours of my precious time watching...
bah..
hate the exams...
but i love LOVE ACTUALLY!
like really really love it..
it's soooooo nice and sweet and Christmassy!!
this guy is cute..
i mean...and he has a great bod..
erm...but his role was kinda small...anyway...he's Karl the chief designer..
acted by Rodrigo Santoro..
ohh...and Keira Knightley is sooo pretty...
yup..
and i still love hugh grant...
i love his eyes..and his floppy hair...
and i've decided on the layout of my future apartment...
and now..
let's get some quotes from the show before i get back to studies...
i might have to extend the deadline for spectro studies to tmr lunch...
cuz i don't think i can finish all today...
bugger that.
Billy Mack: Hiya kids. Here is an important message from your Uncle Bill. Don't buy drugs. Become a pop star, and they give you them for free.
[on sheets of poster board]
Mark: With any luck by next year
Mark: I'll be going out with one of these girls.
[pictures of beautiful supermodels]
Mark: But for now, let me say
Mark: Without hope or agenda
Mark: Just because it's Christmas
Mark: (And at Christmas you tell the truth)
Mark: To me, you are perfect
Mark: And my wasted heart will love you
Mark: Until you look like this
[picture of mummy]
Mark: Merry Christmas
All the way from Glori's Blog...
*if applicable
01. i have a cell phone*
02. i have friends who use me*(well..i don't consider em friends..how abt acquaintances?)
03. i am an only child.
04. i am a shopoholic.*
05. i love dangly earrings.*
06. i have smoked a cigarette before.
07. i love cold weather.*
08. i'm obsessed with the computer.*
09. i have shot a gun before.
10. i can't live without music. *
11. i have no tolerance of ignorant people.(sometimes...depending on who the person is)
12. i have ridden on a motorcycle before.*(pillon riding)
13. i'll be in this town forever.
14. i've been to 5 other countries. *
15. i get annoyed easily. *
16. i eventually want kids. *
17. i have neat handwriting.* (i can if i want to..and if i make an effort)
18. i have more than a few horrible memories. *
19. i am addicted to chocolate. *
20. i am an atheist.
21. my parents are strict.*(kind of...)
22. i love airplane rides. *
23. i love taking pictures. *
24. i hate girls who are fake. *
25. i can be mean when i want to. *
26. my parents care about my grades.*
27. one of my very good friends is a guy. *
28. i have way too many purses.
29. i'm obsessed with lip gloss.
30. i am easy to talk to. *(err....easy to small talk to...big talk is another matter..depends on who you are again..)
31. i would never eat raw fish.
32. i cry easily.*(well....in extreme pissed off states or extreme depressed states)
33. i hate it when people are late. * (Calyn and Pamela have immunity...cuz i KNOW that they WILL be late...)
34. i procrastinate.*
35. i love winter.*
36. i have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. i love to sleep. *
38. i wish i were smarter. *
39. i'm afraid of flying.
40. i hate drama.
41. i bite my nails.
42. i have been on an 8 hour drive.*
43. i never fight with my parents.
44. i love the beach. *
45. i have never had the chicken pox.
46. i have gone out in public in my pajamas.
47. i can't control my emotions.*(sometimes...)
48. i have a best friend.
49. i have moved more than once.*
50. i truly love my friends.* (if ure a friend...yeah i love u..if ure an acquaintance...it depends..)
51. i have braces. *
52. i love to write.*(do postcards count?)
53. i have never broken a bone.*(no broken bones...but plenty of sprained ankles)
54. i agree with racist people.
55. i hate my computer.
56. i love guys that play guitar. (not all of them)
57. i state the obvious. *
58. i'm a happy person. * (most of the time)
59. i love to dance. (does jumping around count?)
60. i love to sing. * (random crap)
61. i love cleaning my room. (what? i can't even see my study table now...)
62. i tend to get jealous very easily. *
63. i love cute underwear.
64. i have gotten high before. *(something i don't really want to remember...)
65. i love night better than day. *
66. i have been on the phone for over 5 hours at a time.* (i think i managed that once in sec school...we only hung up at 6am or something..)
67. i don't like to study for tests. *
68. i love God. *
69. i am too forgiving.
70. i have horrible sense in direction.*(well...some people say i do...but it isn't really THAT bad..)
71. i miss elementary school.
72. i have had a boyfriend before.
73. i'm a daddy's girl.*(when we aren't having an arguement)
74. i love kisses on my forehead.
75. i love the color pink. (ugh. gag me)
76. i love to sew.
77. my eye color changes.
78. i should see a therapist.
79. i played on a guys sports team.
80. i become stressed easily. (not true...it's takes alot of shit to make me get my shovel)
81. i hate liars. *
82. i like comfy sweatpants. *
83. i can play the piano. *(yeah...any piano lessons needed anyone?? im looking for students!)
84. i love the smell of rain.*
85. i love my family. *
86. i hate needles.
87. i am a perfectionist. (depends on what it's about..i can be anal about some stuffs)
88. i always wanted to learn to play the drums. (not really...but i do have a pair of drumsticks and i know i can go find pete if i want free lessons..)
89. i hate the feeling of failure. *
90. i have friends in other countries. *
91. i know how to cook. * (i really do! even tho jing would prolly beg to differ...)
92. i can be quite selfish. *
93. at times, i still act like a little kid. *(at times? how about most of the time?)
94. i have food allergies.
95. i love little kids. *
96. i love to read. * (textbooks not included.)
97. i wish i were more motivated for school. *
98. i love getting stuff in the mail. *
99. i have problems with letting go of old feelings.*
100. i hate being alone. (alone is good)
101. i love summer.
102. i love the weekends. (weekends...weekdays...seems the same to me..)
103. i love black eyeliner.
104. i think i'm pretty.
105. i type with one hand.(i could be it's pretty slow..)
106. i live in a one story house.*(i prefer the word Home instead of House)
107. i wear make-up.
108. i have never ridden on an underground subway.
109. i can't swim.
110. i have a bad memory. *
111. i go to church. *
112. i sing in the shower. *
113. i have never been camping.
114. i hate cheerleaders.
115. i usually get what i want. (depends on how badly i want it..)
116. i have been on stage before. *
117. i love roller coasters.
118. no one knows the full story of my life.*
119. i am close with my parents.
120. i don't have a curfew.(not really a curfew...yeah..)
dear Jamie.
please do study hard for the coming exams and show NU of S what you're really made of. Perhaps you aren't really sure what you're made of..well..you're made of Jesus..made by Jesus and made for Jesus..in Him all things are possible even how hopeless it may seem now..don't give up and don't forget the formula X + Y = Z..
even when the results aren't what you or the rest of the world wants..guess what? He still loves you all the same..because you aren't graded by these grades...what for would He want to grade you for something that you puke out at the exam hall? that's not what He wants..so..your grades for this exam is S/U...
but Jamie, that doesn't mean that you don't have to study and start painting the town red, or green, or both colours since it's christmas..you'll still have to put in your 100%...even tho it's not much now...since it's last minute mugging...but a 100% of your current effort would be good.
Stop thinking of stupid things now..when you have plenty of time after the 2nd of december to think all you want..Concentrate and Focus on the task at hand..
Do not be distracted by the dvds that you bought...or the unread storybooks you have...instead..if there's anything you want to be distracted by...it should be the Bible..go read the Bible whenever and wherever you want to..
So..i'm signing off now..and remember that you're made BY Him, FROM Him, and FOR Him..
lots of love,
God Bless
Jamie.
Sadness is like eating peanutbutter without a glass of milk.
Song of the day:
I Will Bow to You - Bob Fitts
Lord I will bow to You
To no other god, but You alone
Lord I will worship You
Nothing hands have made, but You alone
I will lay down my idols
Thrones I have made
All that has taken my heart
Lord I will bow to You
To no other god, but You alone
when i was thinking about why in the stupid dodo's world am i studying for???
like...what's the point?? besides getting a degree, earning big bucks, living a comfortable life etc..
and...dewen had to end our msn conversation with..
Take Care, Study Hard and Glorify God.
man.
i mean..
ok...the answer to my question just "appeared"..
hmm..
back to the notes...
Shards of Seashells.
i'm back...
and no...
the bintan i went wasn't all about the spas and beaches...
i didn't do ANY studying..
spent a day at the beach getting burnt, kayaking, watching little kids run about, chatted with a mum and son group from new jersey..
that was pretty much it..
i'm sooo tired..
ate plenty of seafood..
and..
i'm still at vibrational spectroscopy...
damm..
3 days of slacking..
bah.
i'm so screwed..
and...i picked seashells at the seashore...
i'm truly amazed and astounded.
just minutes ago..
it was pouring.
there was a storm..
or at least it seemed as if it were a huge storm which didn't seem as if it's gonna cease for awhile..
anyway..
i was just telling jun that i'll be going to bintan in a ferry in the middle of the storm...
it's so hollywood..
anyway...what i proposed was that..i go to the stern of the ferry later...
and say.."BE STILL."
and prolly the storm would die down or something...i wish...it'll prolly be even worse and swallow me up..
anyway...
the storm is over...like really over..like..
it's blue skies and a sun...
like in...5minutes...
wow.
and i didn't even like pray for the storm to cease or anything...
heh..
the wonders of my Daddy King.
i love Him.
ok..this shall be the last entry till i get back from Bintan..
unless i find internet access over there..
hmm...
Tschus.
Now that I know the truth that You proclaim
I will keep trusting You to fill me up 'til only You remain
And I will not rest until my every word brings glory to Your name
All that I am, all that I do, I live for You ---I live for you
i know i prolly should turn to the Word of God at this point in time..
but...i don't know...
just feeling weird-ed..
i'm dousing myself with steriods..
if i'm supposed to train to run this race..
i'm currently losing energy and steam...
i want to stay on the track to continue this run..
but...there's no more fuel..
hence this is where the steriods come into play...
i've been listening to Christian songs since 10pm..
2hours worth of dousing and re-energizing..
even tho my spiritual batteries aren't really recharged..
but it gives me a feeling that they are charged.
i know my batteries aren't recharged because...
they can only be charged by the Lord, through the Lord..
and not thru music..
what's the point of singing...if there's no feeling?
to listen and not hear...
to do and not believe..
what's the point?
don't get me wrong...
i'm doing fine...
still on the spiritual railway track...final destination is still fixed..
nothing's changed..just that i need fuel...my train is running out of choo-choo..
i need fuel..
currently...i'm burning paper instead of coal...when coal is much more effective and efficient..
and yet i don't know why i'm still heaving paper into the furnace.
A Mirage of Colours.
Time stands still as the world waltzes past.
And the world continues spinning and swirling.
And they danced the night away.
from daily devotionals..
Jeremiah 29:11
Now at this moment, I may not know what God has in mind for me. But He knows. The way God understands the future and how we understand the future is much like an artist's understanding of a blank canvas and our understanding of a blank canvas. The artist looks at the white canvas and paces back and forth. He takes out a pencil and draws a couple of broad strokes and then looks at it again.
Then we walk up and say, "What is that?" He tells us and we respond, "Well, it doesn't look like that to us."
But the artist confidently remarks, "It's coming. It's a work in progress. I have a vision, a plan." The artist is thinking about the end result even though he has only drawn a couple of seemingly meaningless strokes.
We often times look at our unfinished lives in the same way we might look at a blank canvas. Things may not be going as expected. Life is not progressing according to our schedules. So we say, "The Lord must have forgotten about me. The Lord has abandoned me. It's over with." No. The Lord has a vision for your life. He has a plan. You are a work in progress. You are under construction. God is not finished with you yet.
We merely see the beginning. God sees the end from the beginning. Take heart. We see a blank canvas. God sees a masterpiece in progress.
Something's wrong with me..
i don't think i know who i am anymore.
i'm the same..if you look at the facade.
but on the inside.
i'm not too sure anymore.
i'm like a robot.
not that i'm a lean mean mugging machine.
but.
everything seems so predictable.
it's like a daily routine..
a cycle that i can't break out of.
maybe this break to bintan is what i need.
i need to recharge my spiritual batteries.
i'm getting too disillusioned.
i need to get out of this cycle..
but now?
to break from this cycle now?
during the exam period?
i'll be nuts to even think of doing that..
and i'll have to be a genius to even do it..
i'll get my ass to bintan on saturday..
to watch the sunrise and the sunset by the beach
to watch children frolicking by the shore.
i need to get away.
i'm going to do this.
after i get back from china.
i'm going to town to sit and watch the world go past.
i know that's what i say everytime.
but i'm going to do it this time round.
to watch the world spin past.
to watch the world dance past.
to be a spectator and not a partner.
to be detached and not involved.
i guess it's when we take a step back that we see things better.
it's time to step back and watch the world waltze by.
to be an invisible shadow.
i need time to think.
i need a time-out.
My reseach for today...
Renault Kangoo which is a SMALL CAR...not a van... oops.. (:
Citroen Berlingo which is a VAN.... (:
anyway...ultimately...
i want this..
Volkswagen Beetle Convertible...Sweet! even tho glori thinks it's cute but uncool..bleah...
i'll slowly upgrade to better cars...starting small is good... :)
Before I Fall in Love --- Coco Lee
My heart says we've got something real
Can I trust the way I feel
Cuz my heart's been through it before
Am I'm just seeing what I want to see
Or is it true
Could you really be
Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know
Before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
(Who warns) my ups and downs
So tell me now
Before I fall in love
And I'm at the point of no return
So afraid of getting burned
But I wanna take a chance
Oh please
Give me a reason to believe
Say you're the one that you'll always be
Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know
Before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
(Who warns) my ups and downs
So tell me now
Before I fall in love
It's been so hard for me
To give my heart away
But I would give my everything
Just to hear you say...
Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know
Before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
(Who warns) my ups and downs
So tell me now
Before I fall in love
i was just blog surfing...
and i saw like a couple of pics that i HAD to post...
cuz it makes me gooey inside...
heh..
ok..that's enough madness for today..
나는 도려낸다 (i am bored)
i've got plans...
not BIG plans...but reasonably cool plans.
once i get my degree..
i'll prolly not do honours and do an MBA or something..
anyway..
i'll prolly graduate on..
december 2006..
i think..
yeah..
anyway..
i want to go on a road trip..
fly over to another country...
rent a car for a couple of weeks...
and drive interstate..
i'll have all the time in the world..
well..
hmm..
yeah
dec 2006..
i'll send resumes out for 2 mths..to appease my parents..
then i'm off for a HOLIDAY..
ha!
and i'll prolly be away from march to july..
yeah..
destinations are gonna be either the States, NZ or Australia...europe is a possibility too..but...the driving there is kinda scary...
hmm..
well..
we'll see about that...it's 2years away...
sheese...
this is what you get when you throw 2 bored people together in a chatroom..or rather msn session..
We decided to tell stories!
once there was a boy called TM and he was walking around town when he saw a really hot chick!so he was wondering what he could do and he decided that the best thing was to go up and talk to her! so along goes TM, to talk to this really hot chick and he realises that he can't think of any pick up lines? oh no! he cried and he pulled out his cell phone and called his other friend and his other friend said.. just go up to her and say hey baby how u doing so TM goes up to the girl and goes hey baby how u doing and got slapped in the face and he was very sad
end of story.
That's his story...names have been changed to protect the innocent..not that he's really innocent...ha.
One day...Jamie came home...and saw 2 fishes......and she bullied her brother into giving her one of them..and she saw 2 turtles...and she bullied her daddy into giving one of them to her...she named the fish Moose...and the turtle Floozie and they were cohabitating nicely and peacefully until Jamie decided that the tank was dirty and when she tried to clean it...Moose jumped out of the tank and tried commiting suicide and Floozie bit her..and she was sad...
the end
That's my story...heh...this shows that u can be continents apart and yet be able to spread lameness!
<33333 TM
hahaha..my ultimate boredness kimchi eating guy...
hahaha
interesting to know how we can crap online even tho we only saw each other once..
haha..
anyway...his 16yr old bro is kinda cute..looks better than him..
*shh*
*beams*
THIS IS MOOSE..
SHE'S A FEMALE FISH
I BULLIED my younger bro into handing her over to me...
THIS IS FLOOZIE...
HE'S or rather IT IS A TURTLE...
I BULLIED my dad into handing it over to me...
Floozie and Moose are staying together in Moose's tank..
and...Moose attempted suicide just now..
and...Floozie bit me...
i've adopted a pair of rebels into my family...
sheese...
:|
can't i get NORMAL pets??
btw...they were named by my stalker..
This is what i did and ate and wadever last night after logging off at 12..
later..the next day...let me introduce you to...
*drumrolls*
Jamie's coconut tree..
the sunset today...
hyper active kids at the lobby...who ran around so fast until...i managed to get a butt shot...of all 3 butts... :/
What i bought for myself today after 3hours of school...
OHhhh...i went to the pet shop today....but......i think the GUY isn't working there anymore.... :|
sigh..
oh wells...
was reading some episode guide for this sitcom "Yes Dear"
it's about this kid who likes this fish that his uncle won for him at a funfair...
The next morning, though, the fish dies. Kim(the mum) makes Greg(the dad) have to explain to Sam(the kid) what happened to it, so he butters him up with the promise of a new fish and some candy.
the best part was this quote...
"Kim: How are you going to deal with it when a grandparent dies? Buy him another grandma and a nice, big bag of Skittles?"
Thank you Glori and Yingchao..
thank you for trying so hard to make me unpissed.
i'll be ok..
i won't sleep angry..
and stalker...there's nothing for you to be scared about...
i'm scary when i'm pissed..
but when you aren't the one/thing that i'm pissed about...
you're pretty much safe..
quote of the day from YC..."...if there's anything u must learn.. is to learn not to be too easily angered..."
and the one from Glorwee... "S L O W T O A N G E R"
i'm done with it.
*edit: Meine Stalker..Ich liebe dich..* it means...My Stalker....I Love You..
i'm pissed.
wadever.
it's now me alone and i.
forget it.
screw the world.
this is from Krink's blog...
My new friend, the bug
09 November 2004
This morning I saw a bug lying on its back with its legs quavering about like it was doing the Macarena. I flipped him over and watched in pathetic awe as he waddled away to the burrows of Middle Earth. I realised that sometimes in life, we are like my bug friend, lying on our back, remaining stagnant and doing the Macarena. In situations such as this, all we really need to do is to get back up on our feet and waddle away to the burrows of life.
Maybe it really is a bug's life
ohhhh man...it is soo true...i'm prolly a bug lying on my back doing breakdancing now...man...
Today's a bright sunny day...
was supposed to reach Holland at 10am...
it was 1050am when i took this photo at my place...
While at the bus stop...waiting for 61....
Outside Holland Village Shopping Center...i saw the van i wanted to get...i need to start with vans before proceeding to larger vehicles..
This kid was running along the newspaper stall..with his 2 grandmas in tow...he's a eurasian...
this is where i would be studying till 3.30pm..so much for them kicking me out..heh..
Gave in to temptation after a while..and bought ICE CREAM!
more of the ice cream...
was tempted to buy Baygon too...the pesky office mosquitos that were making so much noise during lunch hour..
in the taxi...
While walking back from SAJC....i saw pretty fallen leaves in a puddle of water..
more leaves..
I REALLY WALKED OK...it's like 5 bus stops away...
That's my house..
The End.
Randomness
a random thought: what i miss about having a class/school where everyone knows everyone is that...you get to do all sorts of weird things and not get weird looks.
-like shooting bubble tea pearls in the middle of gp class. (Ivan and me)
-running around the 2nd level squirting water using the Nike bottles. (Sister and i)
-running into the girls toilet just to shoot someone who shot you and runs faster than you. (Sister and i) note:Sister is really actually a guy..i'm the brother. go figure.
-to step on other people's new, white, clean shoes and hear their "Noooooo..." and then laugh evilly before running away. (Most of the guys in my class and i)
-to walk up to a person and ask him to burp 20-30 times in a row. (Xiangyu and i) and he MANAGED to do just that! with an extra burp too.
-to consider the possibility of asking the same guy to perform the same trick using farts instead. and realised that burps don't stink, but farts do.
-to run around school with the school's SLR and take random photos of friends. (SLR and I) like Pete and Me and Xiangyu with big big count our teeth smiles.
-to use the 1 metre rule in the physics lab to shut the off button of our out-of-tune chinese radio. (Changyong and I)
-to stand at the road junction aiming and shooting bubble tea pearls at vehicles driving past. and realising that Buses are better than Cars..because they have a larger surface area, hence the chances of a pearl hitting it, is so much higher. (Pete and I)
-to hide and scare and chase an rgs girl all the way to the female toilets. (Jing and I)
-to stand at the lockers with my shared locker open and chomping cheeseballs and oreos and stuff. (Jing and I and Xinyi)
-to eat oreos everyday until you're scared of it. (Me)
-to write postcards and slot them thru the slits of the lockers.(The various lockers and I)
-to recieve postcards after opening my locker. (Cards and Me)
-to order wanton noodles without char siew and veggies and add more mushrooms. (Wanton Lady and I)
-to talk to the drinks aunty as if she's a friend of my age..i swear it's xiangyu and pete's influence man..if i'm a guy...i prolly would have flirted with her..haha..oh wells..i've got such a steady bompipi relationship with the aunty until i can owe money for the drinks i get...run upstairs grab the cash and run down again. (Drinks aunty and I)
-to switch a classmate's hp to unsilent mode and giving it back to him without telling him and calling him during class, making the phone ring and him looking truly stunned. that was priceless. oh and i diverted my number to pizza hut, in case he tried calling back, which he did..and all he got was.."Pizza Hut, May i get your order?" hahahahahahahahahahha... (Zhihao and some other classmates and I)
that's mostly about it in JC..i think..actually..not true..i do weird random stuff in jc everyday..and it's mostly weird random and different stuff everyday...
I shall write about weird stuff in crescent another time..maybe tonight..after i meet melissa to discuss..heh.. :)
ok...
i'm like a recent photoblogger...
which isn't really by choice..
this pblog is requested by my dear dear stalker...
who wants to see random stuff..
i think she just wants to stalk me...
so...
This is my name..the background's my Chemistry book...and the Name's written by my stalker herself..
this is my Bible...i took it in Black and White because it looks cooler this way...who say? I SAY!
this is the christmas cards i bought...they're nice and very nice..
these are my favouritest monkeys and sheep..the sheep's a girl...the small monkey's a guy..and the large chimp is female...don't ask me how i know...i just do...
this is MY WALL...enuff said..
that's it for today..
I'm ALMOST OVER AND DONE WITH EINSTEIN.
i can't exactly shout and scream "SCREW YOU EINSTEIN!" tho...
cuz my editor hasn't return me my edited story!
*edit: i realised today that alot of people have grandparents characters in their stories...hmm...*
Ugh.
bah.
anyway...
yours truly is seriously stuck in the christmas mood and spirit..
just because of a couple of minutes worth of christmas songs..
*beams*
anyway..
had lunch with Ai today...wasn't too bad...but the ban mian was too much...too much mian..
:)
ohh...in other news today...
yours truly is going to mug and be a mugger and start mugging tmr...
she'll be muggering at holland village's BK from 10am till...they kick her out?
heh..
yeah...tomorrow will be the end of interpersonal effectiveness....that is...until 17th...when re-revision starts...cuz the paper's on the 20th... :)
i've got it planned nicely in my head...whether it works..that's another question..
anyway...to irritate the shit out of people...
ivedecidedtotypelikethiswithoutspacebarssoyeahhavefunreadingwadimwriting.
:)
#2 question of the Day: how much are u willing to give up for God?
something i wrote a while back..
I know I love You..
but what is the extent of my love for You?
will i be willing to change my entire life for You?
to risk family, friends, and even my life for You?
to give You control over all of me?
will i want to?
yeah...i know i want to..
but...
will i?
i don't know.
this thought struck me...
and it scares me.
cause...i don't know where to place You in my heart..
Question of the Day: Is Pj really that good?
the answer to this chim question can't fit into the tagboard...
heh..
too long..
*beams*
i guess there isn't a correct answer to this question..
at the end of the day..
it's prolly the question of...
what do you want in a school?
i started off in Pj with only one aim...
to get into Uni.
in a way...it's sorta like to prove that well...capable of entering Uni despite being in a lousy school..
yar..that was what i intended to do...
i mean...perhaps that's because i knew i wasn't all that bad...
13pts for O's...kinda sucked when you're in a triple science class in crescent lar...but well...
*shrugs*
He gave me grades that weren't totally horrible...or good..for that matter...
it was just ok..
and since i was already in PJC for the 1st 3mths..
i already made friends in there..
so...it made sense for me to head back...
then i won't have to make friends AGAIN...and well...pjc was a school that was flooded by crescentians then...
so yeah...went in there...
felt horrible...hated the school...most of the people...
was kinda stuck up to some people...
hung around only with my arty farty cliques and some of my class girls..
hmm...ok lar...maybe i wasn't really all that mean..but well..
yeah..
but i guess..there was a plan for me in PJC..
cuz it was during my 1st few months in PJC that i came to know Him..
and that was when i started growing lar..
so...somehow...my main aim changed...
so...well...i guess i'm blessed to be in PJC..
cuz...in the end...
i managed to handle both studies and Him..
i got fairly decent grades for the A's..
and He saw me through my jc years..
so...yeah..to me...pj is THAT good..
and the teachers in pjc are nice...as in...u'll just have to know how to work ur resources lar...
in the end...it's all about the attitude..
would you adopt a heck care attitude?
or would you step forward and be pro-active?
the teachers are there...they are of a certain calibre..
well..maybe some of them are...but...to be pro-active in ur studies..
you've got to be thick skin and ask ANY teacher questions...if you're going to PJC and you're planning to take chemistry...
i suggest...go find CHARLIE CHAN! he's easy to find...big round guy.. he's a very good teacher..
yeah...
erm..i think i'm going out of point..oh no...
erm...okok..
in short...
i think that pjc is super good...erm..and most prob jun and jing will give you the same answer too..heh...well...ask me more specific questions lar...easier to answer..like...is the physics dept good and stuff..etc...ahaha
:)
anyway...the music has been changed...wait for it to load...it's a nice song...christmassy too.. :)
is it just me or is everyone feeling kinda emotional nowadays?
i'm blaming the weather and the approaching Christmas season.
i'm ultra nostalgic...
getting all teary-eyed at little stuff..
ok lar..
not that exaggerating...
i'm not a bawling baby yet..
heh..
just alot of small stuff just manage to reach into the deep recesses of my heart and touch me..
seriously thank God for small mercies..
thank Him for small little gifts..
thank Him for small little things and people that He placed along my way to brighten up my day...to encourage me...to pull me back up when i'm looking focus..
seriously..
i love you guys..alot..
and if i had a choice to relive my life again..
i wouldn't want to change anything..
not my psle grades, which didn't get me into the school i wanted at first..i'll still want to go back to crescent.
i'll still want to make girlfriends who have always been there for me, even tho it was thru a kindergarden guy that we started talking..
i'll still want my upper sec class..for all the nerds and bossy and loud people that we have...i still love you guys...
i wouldn't want to change my O level grades..
even if i had the choice to make it to 6pts or something..
*ok..maybe change it to 6pts...but i'll still choose pjc*
yeah...i want to be in pioneer...
i'll never regret my choice to stay there...even tho i didn't see things His way then...i'm glad i didn't fight Him...i'm glad that i managed to see things from His point of view...i'm glad things worked out the way they did...
even tho i hung around the arts students more than the science...i really do love my class...in a weird sort of way...i'll never exchange 01s18 for any other class...cuz i won't be able to survive without you guys calling me "kantang" and translating everything that's said in chinese to english for my benefit..even tho we have horribly weird people in our class...i still love our class...cuz it's because of the weird people that we came together as a clique..even tho i'm not as close to you guys now as i was then...i won't exchange you guys for anything in the world...
don't even get me started on my cell in pioneer...i love you guys sooo much...until i seriously went on strike after the guys entered NS and couldn't make it for cell anymore...plus the G12 thing that the church was having...i totally went on strike..i didn't want to go cell no more...cuz everyone's changing...as in...people are leaving and new people are coming...it's too tough to let go of the past memories we had..and to build new bonds...perhaps i was being childish...immature maybe...but i didn't want to move on...i wanted to stay in the past...the past was safe...it was nice...our cell was cozy...everyone knew each other...i loved us..the weekly sessions over at pete's were the bright spark that i look forward to every week...never will i trade you guys for anything that the devil may offer..wealth, fame, power...none of those..u guys had, have and always will occupy a significant part in my heart..you guys know who you are...
NUS is a place where i'm still finding it hard to adapt..to have no close friends in chemistry...to treat going to school as a daily chore and routine...to not find joy in what i'm doing...i would be real tempted to change this part of my life..but if i do change it...i wouldn't be dragged to back to face Him...wouldn't be part of Crosslink...wouldn't have gone to Sydney..
somehow..it was because i was in NUS that all these happen..since so many good came out of one bad...that one bad can't really be all that bad can it?
to go to Sydney with one of the bestest tour groups ever...to make friends there...it was one of my bestest holidays ever..to grow..to do everything with people other than my parents...to experience freedom from parental reins with people who know how to have fun and yet are able to keep me in check...i love u....nothing can make me forget these wonderful memories..
and to think i actually managed to commit myself into another cell group again...actually 2 cell groups to be precise...always thought that after the pjc cell...i wouldn't want to bond with another group of people...but...i was wrong...i learn stuff from the thursday cell..i fellowship with the sat cell...everyone learns and teaches...everyone's a student and a teacher...everyone's an encourager and an encouragee..i know i'm being to care for u guys...to care for another cell...that was hard...because i didn't think that any cell would be able to take over the place of the pjc cell...well..i realised that it isn't about taking over...it's about letting go of the past and safeguarding it as good memories..and focusing about the future...and...i'm starting to really care about both my cells..i've got a good feeling about this..
aiyo....this whole entry sounds so mushy...and it seems as if i don't wanna change anything in my life...which is pretty much true...bad/good memories play a role in shaping who you are and who you are to become...so..why exchange them for something that's filled with uncertainty? i don't take risks...i only take steps of faith...
risks are steps of faith without the backing of God.. steps of faith on the other hand are backed by God...with Him backing me...what can go wrong? Nothing is ever wrong in His blueprint of my life. Not then, not now, not ever. God doesn't use correction fluid.
i took this today..
i'm very happy with it.
:)
well...
unknowingly...
some of the kids at xlink really really mean alot to me..
i guess..
i feel for them..
maybe..
*shrugs*
there are others like Ethel and Elroi..but i don't have their photos..
:/
so...i can't add them in..
so...
*drumrolls*
My Babies!
i've got 11 babies...in total...
after adding Ethel and Elroi...
:)
youngest is aged 13...eldest is aged 17..
i Love Them!!
*beams*
Warum? (Why? in german)
Keine Achtung (No idea)
find it hard to really explain why i <3 them so much...
oh wells...
if u can't really read my handwriting..
there's
Esther...Jane...Crystal...Gerald...Guan...Reagan...Tng...Lijun...Glorwee...
*beams*
decided to give the goethe open house a miss..
went for church early instead..
u know what...
i really love my small group...
even tho..
today i felt that the group was abit too big for my liking..
and there were alot of distractions..
like the "snake charmer" music that was playing out in the field..
*note: my church is at little india..it's deepavali period now*
yeah..
too many distractions..
skimmed the topics of some stuff only..
stuff which i kinda wanted to go deeper into..
*shrugs*
overall..
it was interesting to actually hear another point of view...
maybe now i can better see the whole picture..
maybe..
i'll try..
we'll see..
was really encouraged today too..
like WOW..
esp when esther said that i'm good at encouraging others..
never thought of myself as that..
i mean..writing postcards to me is like...drinking water...or something..
it comes without much thought...and..well...
i don't really think that it's significant...
cuz...it's a small thing only mar...
yeah..
apparently..i thought wrong..
and i'm glad that people think otherwise..
and i'm glad to be of service to you.
:)
was really good..
cuz for the first time in ages..
i actually teared..
man...it was quite bad..
cuz the last time teared was quite long ago..
yeah..
like wad i just told gerald..
i love my Father..
:)
i'm finally done with Einstein...
as in...
i went thru the lecture notes..
the textbooks...
hmm..they look pretty simple...
since schrondinger is my best friend, added to bohr and planck..
that's the benefits of being a chemistry student..
there a whole chapter on the hydrogen atom...which i know at the back of my hand since last year..
*shrugs*
thou shalt not be complacent.
:)
by wednesday...i'll be able to shout "SCREW EINSTEIN!" at the top of my voice..since i'm planning to submit my term paper then..
:)
anyway...
i've got 70/100 for my Interpersonal effectiveness 50MCQ test..
not too bad i suppose...
considering i thought i was gonna get 50++
well..
even i amaze myself sometimes...
Why should someone be denied of the chance to serve?
i don't get it.
People complain that others aren't serving..
but why can't they look around and find those who WANT to serve...who CAN serve..but are denied of the chance to serve?
The best way to ever learn something would be thru experience.
and if you're not even gonna let them experience..how will they learn and how will they improve?
let them serve to the best of their abilities..even if their best ain't our best..
there's always time to learn and to perfect their skills..
didn't the stupid kid learn and became a well known scientist? ----> Einstein
well..
let's just give all a chance to serve.
all you have to do is look around you...look past the faces that you see...look into their hearts...their willingness to serve..and just take them in..
as long as they're willing...anything's possible.
let's all give each other a chance...we'll fall together and rise again together...that's how we're going to grow as a church..
it's not about only experiencing successes after successes...we have to learn to fall together as well..
we might stumble..but at least we're together..
hurdles placed along the way are meant for us to learn something..
let's stand and run together in this race..
let's not bring each other down..
let's just cross the finishing line together holding hands..
and that's when we'll be able to see the smile on His face.
In other news...
i seem to be making headlines at someone's *cough cough..stalker's* blog everyday..
haha..
there goes my wish of being low-profiled..
haha..
*beams*
oh...i recieved a mass mail by my lecturer...
it's about my resume and other matters..
might as well cut the stupid mail for u guys to read...
The CV part or personal letter should reflect clearly that you are capable to fend for yourself. Please mention any overseas trips that you have done before, e.g., posting overseas in army training, student exchange during school, visits to relatives, etc. Also, if you live away from home now, that will indicate that you have the degree of independence that will be required. Of courses, those who are currently still living with their parents may also apply if you want to prove to yourself that you can stand on your own legs.
idiot lor...i'm staying like 15mins away from school!! Obviously stay with my parents lar! if it's ntu...that's another story altogether...and then...obviously i can stand on my own legs lar...then stand on someone else's legs meh?? he's talking rubbish...stupid germans... *shh..*
oops..ok..it's that 1 stupid german...
*grins*
ugh...
i'm so gonna write about my sydney trip...bwahahahaha...can so imagine myself writing...during the 3 mth holidays...i took the plane ALONE to sydney...and FENDED for myself for 14days...in spite of the cold weather...the high intake of wine...and i still managed to SURVIVE...and i'm not going to add the fact that my dad came to pick me back to singapore from sydney...hahaha..but that's only because my luggages were kinda bursting...hahaha..fine..
wadever..
ugh.
i hate CV writing..
It's Not Worth It----Yingchao.
studied till 2am last night...
got woke up at 745am today..
i'm a frickin zombie...
*yawns*
anyway..
this quote was like ages ago..
but i was thinking about it last night...
before going into a concuss state..
yeah...
he's right..
it's not worth it..
nothing's worth it..
so...
i've decided abandon the plan...
so...
yeah...
i'm just going to adopting the "heck care" mentality towards this problem..
i can't believe that the answer was staring at me right back at the face all this while...
took me so long to really figure it out..
and what led me to this conclusion?
the fact that i'm always referring to it as a BIG PROBLEM..it's like Jamie's BIG PROBLEM...
haha
yeah...
since it's a problem...it shouldn't be worth it..
cuz if i already prayed...and i'm still deeming it as a problem..
well...maybe it's meant to be a problem..
hmm..
we'll see how it goes..
if i'm wrong and it's actually worth it...someone please knock me on the back of my head.
:)
after reading yc's blog...i'm super encouraged...
like really really encouraged...
DON't WORRY! Don't spending your time worry, spend it praying. and keep faith in ur prayers. Things sometimes don't go quite right and sometimes failure occur, even when people pray. What i feel is that, the people who pray start to worry and this actually means that they're doubting God which results in unfavourable outcome. ----from yc's blog..
*beams*
anyway...it's the start of Christmas! heh...it's kinda early...but my speakers are blasting Jingle Bell Rock.. which sounds totally christmassy...and nice...and i'm feeling happy! -grins-
Instructions.
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Anything you don't bold is false.
01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions.
02. I don't watch much TV these days.
03. I love psychodelic mushrooms.
04. I love sleeping.
05. I have loads of books.
06. I once slept in a toilet.
07. I love playing video games.
08. I adore marijuana.
09. I watch porn movies. (hahaha)
10. I watch them with my father.
11. I like sharks.
12. I love spiders.
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair.
14. I like George Bush.
15. People are cool.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have jacuzzi and a Porsche.
18. I have a lot to learn.
19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself.
20. I'm really really smart.
21. I've never broken someone's bones.
22. I have a secret.
23. I hate snow.
24. I drink only milk.
25. Punk rock rules.
26. I hate Bill Gates!
27. I love Chinese food.
28. I would hate to be famous.
29. I am not a morning person.
30. I wear glasses.
31. I don't need glasses.
32. I have potential.
33. I like cheese.
34. My legs are two different sizes.
35. I have a twin.
36. I wear a padded bra. Otherwise I don't have boobs.
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing.
38. I'm left-handed.
39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them.
40. I don't like horror movies.
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway.
42. People hate me usually.
43. I like pop music.
44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight.
45. I hate parking fines. (i don't drive. but who likes it?)
46. I know the National Anthem of my country by heart...
47. I know more than two languages.
48. I spend too much time on my computer.
49. I often want to throw my computer out the window.
50. I live on the first floor.
51. I don't like chocolate.
52. I'd like to be more original.
53. I've lied before.
54. Cocks are my favorite birds. (lol!)
55. I want to conquer the world.
56. I wonder what happens when you die.
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter.
58. Eat your dog!
59. I love to exercise.
60. I hate science with a passion.
61. I like to write.
62. I like changes.
63. I hate going to class.
64. I am afraid to die.
65. I hate dish washing.
66. My hair is long, brown, and curly.
67. My nails are nine inches long.
68. One of my favorite colors is black.
69. I like to sleep on the floor. if there's no choice lar...
70. I am hopeless at cooking.
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little.
72. I should be doing something else rather than writing this.
73. I am online a lot, but not on AOL.
74. I hate government.
75. I have a boyfriend.
76. I'm too nice for my own good.
77. I love to read, I read as much as I can. Though I never have time.
78. I don't trust newspapers.
79. I sometimes like arguing.
80. I live in a lagoon.
81. I clean my room once a month. (haha)
82. I'm scared of american fast food.
83. I am prying open my third eye.
84. I love Mozambique.
85. I don't trust any religion.
86. I used to play with barbies.
87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little.
88. I like listening to wind chimes.
89. I'm very disorganized.
90. My hair is long and straight.
91. I learn a lot.
92. I don't like spicy food.
93. I keep a diary.
94. I can't do cartwheels.
95. I am very lazy.
96. I'm sarcastic.
97. I think my hair is annoying.
98. I'm very emotional.
99. I love being "ab-normal".
100. My left eye is violet and my right eye is a light blue
Time check now...12:54am..
i'm at lecture 14...technically, i have 6 more chapters to go...
but since i actually attended 4 of the 6 more lectures...
it's basically only 2 more lectures to really pay attention at...
well..
since the whole msn world is dead now...
i decided to entertain myself...
this is how i'm gonna be until i finish einstein notes...
and i haven't even read PDL for today!
oh no...
should i go to goethe's open house tmr then?
it's at 3....xlink's at 4...
oh no...
should i decide to go...
i'll definitely be late for xlink..
and i'm already prepared to look zombiefied...
but mug i have to..and mugger i am...and to mug i shall..
Muggers united!
current fund...
Save Jamie the Mugger from the Books Fund..
or..
Buy Jamie the Mugger coffee and sour stuff to keep her awake at night to mug Fund..
donate to either..i'll be happy.. :)
I love Peggy Lee..
i want this CD...
seriously...
Updates everybody...
1. I've finished my story..it's currently 3000+ words without editing yet...any freelance editors wannabes...pls contact me to help edit it...
2. I've finished 1 pint of Ben and Jerry's Original Strawberry Homemade Ice Cream, and my stalker is gonna pray for me...hoping that i won't fall sick...but seriously...it's worth it...it's really really good...i need to lay my hands on more flavours of B&Js...
3. I'm starting on the Walls Selection Green Tea ice cream...seriously hope that i won't fall sick...
4. I'm gonna finished what i planned to do today...which would be the story and the Big Bang Chapter in Einstein's Mirror...i'm gonna start Einstein-ing now..then i'll do the practice paper again...so that i'll be an Einstein-y wannabe..
5. Church tmr!! so exciting!! I'm pretty hyped up today...and i really want to sleep early today..been sleeping at 1am the past few days... this is bad...i've got eye bags...and remember...only pandas look good with eye bags..
Where I'm supposed to be studying at.
Where I'm studying and doing my stuff at instead.
Breakfast.
To eat This?
Or This?
after an 1 1/2hr of slacking...i can finally start working..
see how good i am at procrastinating?
ended up eating B&J's Strawberry Homemade Ice-cream...
Delicious..
*smacks lips*
they're the best boyfriends a girl could ever have...
Woot!
