Friday, December 31, 2004
this weather now isn't in the same league as cats and dogs..
it's more like leopards and donkeys.
man.
my area is flooded.
as in FLOODED.
-panics-
anyway..here's what i wrote in my hp last night.
"After 17mins of non-stop talking to Him,
i concluded with this.
I don't know why this (tsunami) happened,
I don't understand Your reasons for this.
But, you don't owe me any explanations.
And i choose to believe in You.
That there will be an eventual good in all that has happened.
I might not be able to comprehend this right now,
but
I trust You.
I trust Your bigger picture more than i trust my minute picture now.
even though i can't fully grasp the magnitude of it, or the goodness of it all.
but..
Let Your will be done.
I believe in You.
+ 10:59 AM +
Thursday, December 30, 2004
oh.
i heard a news today.
which is the coolest news i heard all day.
apparently.
there's this woman..
at one of the areas that were struck by the tsunami..
she has like 2 sons.
but she could only save one.
and the coolest thing was that.
2 hrs later..they found the son she "sacrificed" hanging onto a door.
so..she now has both her sons back.
fine. i am not a good storyteller..but the thing is...
can you imagine what the mum was feeling at that point in time when she had to make the decision?
the pain of sacrificing one of her own?
i would bet a 1000bucks or more that she would rather have both her sons alive and she herself dead.
but you see, she didn't have that option.
cuz she had to stay alive to save ONE son.
and i reckon at that moment when she made her decision..
she seriously thought that she will never ever see the "sacrificed" son again.
i mean...logically speaking...looking at the current death toll and such..
and to see her son again..in just 2 hrs after abandoning him.
that is a miracle.
seriously.
look at the odds.
i would think the odds of striking 4D is greater than finding a kid in a tsunami.
i salute the mum for choosing the most painful route.
and i salute my Lord for showing His faithfulness in the most impossible of all situations.
Miracles DO happen. Just look around you.
+ 9:31 PM +
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
i am astounded.
i just read CAREFULLY..read..not glance..
thru jem's song...
and there's a part about me!!
-faints-
so malu.
wah lau.
anyway.
just submitted the resumes.
and went to ikea.
and came back frm glori's.
it was fun.
ha.
like all the games and stuff.
haha..
elaborate soon.
anyway..here's the elaboration...since basically...i was like with glori..so...i just copy and paste :)
lvl4 outing!
2004-12-29 , 8:26 p.m.
dear diary, THANKS FOR DELETING THE ENTRY I TOOK SO LONG TO TYPE OUT.
blargh.
so okay! today i had the lvl4s over. and of course jamie who GOT LOST. and it was not my fault! so they came over at bout 1130. and watched cheaper by the dozen while tee paul esther and i tried to order pizza. (note to self: never ever get paul to help order pizza again. haha) so after spending like 5 years we decided on what flavours to get. zzzz. hung around for a while. played boggle. and i'm SO BAD AT IT. dang. pizza came! and my mum rushed to cook spaghetti. eryea.
so lunch was spent talking about er, paul's experience with homosexuals. o_O and tee's strange thumb-cutting friends. lol. and oh paul pissed sherman's friend off. it was like O____O uh-oh. :P and there was too much food. what's new.
after lunch was guesstures. which is the hardest game in the world! ... ok so the words were BIT STRANGE. and it led to som UNWANTED DISCUSSION. walau. it was like HELLO! MY PARENTS ARE AT HOMEEE! hahaha. walau. cannot make it. guesstures got too hard so we played 4 on a couch. yay! tt game is so fun cause the girls kept on winning. (: haha. and i'm henceforth known as "really stupid". like THANKS AR ad. -.- then there was long weird discussion that bored everyone to death. so we watched 13 going on 30. which is so SWEETTTT. and cliched. but oh well. sweetsweetsweet! jennifer garner is so chio. (:0
+ 5:18 PM +
*edit-new ammendments*
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
travel on a plane with ANY adult supervision.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
erm...i don't think so...i mean...i can't remember them anyway...and i'll prolly make more..
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
erm...no?
4. Did anyone close to you die?
erm....moose and floozie died..and my 6yr old terrapin died too.
5. What countries did you visit?
Australia, China, Bintan, Malaysia
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
Good grades?
7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
erm...the time period in July when i was in Sydney.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
to get my ass back to church and serve.
9. What was your biggest failure?
erm...mood swings and lousy grades because of lack of concentration?
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
yeah.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
hmm..my air ticket to australia?
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
HIS! He died remember?
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Mine. ohh..and the 3 guys i saw skinny dipping in Wollongong..aiyo...so flabby and ugly..heh..and we saw EVERYTHING... -rubs eyes-
14. Where did most of your money go?
Food, transport and the bank.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Sydney trip and 1st encounter.
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
I Will Bow to You. -Bob Fitts- and You are my world - Hillsongs-
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? happier
ii. thinner or fatter? fatter i think..
iii. richer or poorer? richer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
studying and serving
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
procrastinating and complaining
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
i spent it in bed..was down with fever and flu and throat infection remember?
22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
not really.
23. How many one-night stands?
hmmm...none?
24. What was your favorite TV program?
ehhh...FRIENDS! :) and..erm...the comedies basically..plus spongebob and most of NICK toons. :)
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
repeat after me..thou shalt not hate.
26. What was the best book you read?
Rhubarb.followed by Case of Faith.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
MAKSIM!
28. What did you want and get?
i wanted to go australia and i got a free trip to aust.. :D
and i wanted Him and i got Him.
and life isn't about getting what i want anyway.so it doesn't really matter.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Passion.
32.What is one thing that would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
erm...having more RA-RA to finish reading my Bible.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
slack and lok kok. or in other words..stick hand into closet, grab whatever is at hand, wear, get out of the house.
34. What kept you sane?
Him, His Word, friends.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
none. unless Patrick in Spongebob counts. OHHH..the guy in Love Actually is pretty cute..and the other one in Bend it like Beckham.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
political..the stupid US elections. and the Russian school killings..if it is considered as a political issue.
37. Who did you miss?
Jingjingjingjingjingjing..and pampampampampampam..and agnesagnesagnesagnes..and tifftifftifftiff..and jonjonjonjonjonjon...
38. Who was the best new person(s) you met?
Xlinkers. Cell grppers. FMC-ers. :)
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
I am a Rock Hugger.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
**edit** And all my days are gifts from You, I pray I'd use them as You want me to
it was "But you are not alone, For I am here with you"
+ 8:37 AM +
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Spongebob And Patrick Confront The Psychic Wall Of Energy
-the Flaming Lips-
Patrick,
You see I'm growing a mustache
And though I know, I must ask you,
Does it really make me look like a man?
Spongebob,
Being a manager's a tough job
I hope you're picked, you'll be the best sponge boss they've had
Working like a dog at the Krusty Krab
Now wait a minute
I think we hit a wall
I think we hit a psychic wall
Maybe,
We're just young
And we won't know 'til we're old
We're too young
To free ourselves from this lonely fishbowl
Some kind of wall
Some kind of psychic wall
Some kind of wall
We can't get across
Come on
Let's find a way to be happy
Not like Plankton, he'll never be satisfied
Always complaining about his life
To his computer wife
You think he would've found by now
To be thought of as a king, you don't need a crown
+ 11:30 AM +
Maksim's Kolibre.
wonderful piece of music.
was watching that particular mtv.
and...
maksim has very pretty eyes.
=)
and his fingers are...WOAH.
move over Chopin and Bach and the dead guys.
MAKSIM is WOAH.
i love his music.
i love his fingers.
i love his piano.
i love his eyes.
i love the way his fingers glide over the keys of the piano.
i love the way he looks like a punk rocker and yet isn't one.
i love the fact that he has kids and he's married. i think.
+ 9:58 AM +
Monday, December 27, 2004
for Glori. (since she asked so nicely)
Would you rather?
1) pierce your nose or tongue? Nose. cuz how are you gonna drink hot soup or porridge or whatever hot with a metal piece in the middle of your tongue? i always thought metals were good heat conductors.
2) be serious or be funny? or be funny.
3) drink whole or skim milk? skim?
4) simple or complicated? looks complicated and yet simple? so...it's simply complicated?
Do you prefer?
5) flowers or angel figurines? errr....what type of angels? flowers would be safer i guess.
6) grey or pink? GREY! ANYTHING BUT PINK.
7) colored or black-and-white photos? b&w anyday.
8) lust or love? love lar...duh...
9) sunrise or sunset? both? but ill choose sunset..cuz i can't stay awake for sunrise.
10) M&Ms or Skittles? eh..sour skittles or normal skittles? Sour skittles > M&MS> normal skittles
11) rap or rock? rock.
12) staying up late or waking up early? my body clock wakes me up by 8.30am on a normal day. so..i rather wake up early.
13) TV or radio? TV
15) eating apples or oranges? pears. really. i prefer pears.
Do you prefer?
18) feeling hot or cold? warm? i don't like extremities.
19) tall members of the opposite sex? i think so.
20) sun or moon? moon.
21) emeralds or rubies? how about diamonds? i like diamonds.
22) left or right? right. but i prefer right too if it's right or wrong..so..wadever.
23) having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend? erm...how about having 10 good friends instead? or 10 acquaintances = 5 good friends? or something? but i've already got a best friend..his name's Jesus. :)
24) sun or rain? rain
25) vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? chocolate
26) green beans or carrots? yuck. green beans.
27) boys or girls? boys.
28) stupid funny or whoa intellectual? intellectually stupid and funny.
29) What is your biggest fear in the world? errrr.....no biggest fear at the moment. unless it would be not finishing the race..
30) Kids or no kids? kids.
31) Cat or dog? dog.
32) Half empty or half full? half finished.
33)Mustard or ketchup? ketchup.
34) Hard cover books or soft cover books? hard cover.
35) Newspaper or magazine? depends on what magazine. but i choose magazine. it's more user friendly.
36) Sandals or sneakers? flip flops...but sandals lar.
37) Wonder or amazement? being wonderfully amazed?
38) Red car or white car? white.
39) Happy and poor or sad and rich? happy and poor. but i can be like rich and sad..then i donate my cash to everyone else and ill be happy and poor..but they'll be rich and sad and so they'll donate their cash back to me.. then i'll be happy AND rich.
40) Singing or dancing? jumping around.
41) Hugging or kissing? hugging.
42) Corduroy or plain? depends. plain is good tho..in times of uncertainty.
43) Happy or sad? HAPPY.
45) Blondes, brunettes? blondes...best jokers around.
About you.
46) What time is it? tiger time. heh. it's 3.44pm seriously.
47. Name? jamie.
48. Nickname? stalkee? heh.
50. Where are you now? home?
51. eating bread? no. drinking water.
52. Number of candles that appeared on your last birthday cake? two candles. but each candle represents 10 years. so go figure.
53. Date that you regularly blow them out? erm...anyone's birthday? but my most recent one would be on the 24th of dec.
54. Pets? none. they died.
55. Eye color? dark brown?
56. Hair color? dark brown?
57. Piercings? ears. 2.
58. Clean guy/gal/ pierced guy/gal? clean guy.
59. Who's the person on your mind right now? my "smart" stalker who asked me to do this.
60. What are u goin to do after doing this? maple since she's on her violin.
+ 3:28 PM +
Sunday, December 26, 2004
slogan of the day.
Don't stick your head into the Bowl just because you can't walk on air.
Drink ______ today to be an airhead.
copyrighted--Jamie 2004.
heh.
+ 11:00 PM +
Where Are You Christmas?
Where are you Christmas
Why can't I find you
Why have you gone away
Where is the laughter
You used to bring me
Why can't I hear music play
My world is changing
I'm rearranging
Does that mean Christmas changes too
Where are you Christmas
Do you remember
The one you used to know
I'm not the same one
See what the time's done
Is that why you have let me go
Christmas is here
Everywhere, oh
Christmas is here
If you care, oh
If there is love in your heart and your mind
You will feel like Christmas all the time
I feel you Christmas
I know I've found you
You never fade away
The joy of Christmas
Stays here in silence
Fills each and every heart with love
Where are you Christmas
Fills your heart with love
+ 5:19 PM +
got this frm wasserfrau's blog.
as you well know, we are getting closer to my birthday. every year there is a celebration in my honour and i think that this year this celebration will be repeated. during this time, there are many people sjopping for gifts, there are many radio announcements, tv commercials, and in every part of the world everyone is talking that my birthday is getting closer and closer.
it is really very nice to know, that at least once a year, some people think of me. as you know, the celebration of my birthday began many years ago. at first people seemed to understand and be thankful of all that i did for them, but in these times, no one seems to know the reason for the celebration.family and friends get together and have a lot of fun, but they don't know the meaning of the celebration.
i remember that last year there was a great feast in my honour. the dinner table was full of delicious foods, pastries, fruits, assorted nuts and chocolates. the decorations were exquisite and there were many, many beautifully wrapped gifts. but, do you want to know something? i wasn't invited. i was the guest of honour and they didn't remember to send me an invitation. the party was for me, but when the great day came, i was left outside, they closed the door in my face... and i wanted to be with them and share their table.
in truth, that didn't surprised me because in the last few years, all closed their doors to me. since i wasn't invited, i decided to enter the party without making much noise. i went in and stood in a corner. they were all drinking; there were some who were drunk and telling jokes and laughing at everything. they were have a grand time. to top it all, this big fat man all dressed in red wearing a long white beard entered the room yelling ho-ho-ho! he seemed drunk. he sat on the sofa and all the children ran to him, saying: "santa claus, santa claus".. as if the party was in his honour.
at 12 midnight all the people began to hug each other.. i extended my arms waiting for someone to hug me and... do you know... no one hugged me. suddenly they all began to share gifts. they opened them one by one with great expectation. when all had been opened, i looked to see if, maybe, there was one for me. how would you feel if on your birthday, everyone shared gifts and you did not get one? i then understood that i was unwanted at that party and left quietly.
every year it gets worse. people only remember to eat and drink, the gifts, the parties and nobody remembers me. i would like this chirstmas to be such that you allow me to enter into your life. i would like that you recognise the fact that almost 2000 years ago, i came to this world to give my life for you, on the cross, to save you. today, i only want that you believe this with all your heart...
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+ 5:17 PM +
this has been one of my worse-st Christmas so far.
with my parents nagging and stuff.
gah.
i thought they would show some sympathy to a sick person.
anyway.
the diagnose is in..
i'm suffering from throat infection.
gah.
wonderful.
just wonderful.
anyway.
watched a rerun of The Grinch show.
and like how to people of Whoville were deprived of their presents, trees and food, glorious food..that Christmas.
well.
i guess...i'm deprived too.
i always forget that it isn't about me, Me, ME!!!
maybe the only way you can see things clearly would be to remove all the ornaments.
maybe it was never about the presents, or the trees, or the puddings, ham or the log cakes..
maybe it was just about Joy...nah..not glorijoy..heh..
Joy like Joy to the World...or something.
we don't need what Orchard road has to offer us.
or the smell of a newly cut christmas tree.
or the brightly lit lights in town.
or what the stores have in store for us.
or the wonderful aromas the bakeries use to tempt us.
maybe when you strip christmas down to it's core.
it's always about a baby boy.
+ 5:03 PM +
Friday, December 24, 2004
today is super interesting.
my 6-year old terrapin died.
because my dad thought that it would be good to leave it out in the balcony for fresh air and well..for more freedom.
never did anyone thought that..
that creature would jump.
14 floors down.
woah.
so..
technically...
it has achieved freedom.
the freedom to stalk and haunt my dad in his nightmares tonight.
i am still quite amused.
anyway.
i'm running a fever now.
38.2 deg C
and my birthday cake this year's an ice cream cake..which is supposed to be COLD.
and i'm having a FEVER.
the idiosyncrasies of life.
Happy Birthday to me.
i'm too sick to be thinking of reflections.
shall reflect about it soon.
+ 10:09 PM +
Thursday, December 23, 2004
30 more minutes to the start of another decade of my life.
oh no.
30 more mins to 20.
oh no.
+ 11:27 PM +
for 30mins just now.
i felt useless.
i felt used.
i felt horrible.
really really horrible.
i had the thought of just running away.
running until my legs give way.
but to run away, you don't exactly have to use your legs..
all you need is to do a shutdown of all systems.
be a cold person.
talk without laughing or smiling.
build a border, a boundary, a wall between yourself and the world.
and for 30mins.
that's what i wanted to do.
to think that i managed to bulldoze my boundaries down by quite a bit.
i wanted to build them up..
to fortify them.
so that i can't see the world.
and the world can't see me.
and if they can't see me.
they can't hurt me.
i wanted to just run.
and the scary part was.
i was willing to leave everything behind.
the church, the family, the friends.
everything and everyone.
for a moment of madness, i wanted to run.
+ 8:19 PM +
this is gonna be abit funny and mean...but glori can't break this..
if she can.
everything is easy.
:)
i'll even add in the appropriate spacebars.
7-19-18-8 18-8 23-26-14-14 21-6-13 25-6-7 20-15-12-9-18-17-12-2 24-26-13-7 25-9-22-26-16 18-7.
-yawns-
naptime.
+ 5:08 PM +
i like esther's blog.
very cute and cool
nice.
ok.
im bored.
i was watching my girl today.
and the guy is super shuai.
oh well.
i need to get started on my reflections of 2004.
+ 4:05 PM +
ohh
ok..
quick update.
on tuesday..
i met up with sybil and blew 50 bucks
on lunch and her present.
then i went home.
then on wednesday..
i met glori and jun for a movie!
National treasure
and i did managed to catch a glimpse of allen's butt.
allen's a guy whose blog i read.
it's freshlatoast
his link is right there below.
anyway..he was an extra on the film..and glori thinks he's cute.
so..there's a guy there who looked like paul..
really.
so..
then we headed to pastamania for lunch.
and it sucked.
seriously.
then.
pete called to take a vote for his haircut.
and i voted randomly.
heh.
luckily most of the rest think the same way as me.
went over to paragon.
walked around the supermarket searching for wine.
walked around metro trying heels.
went back down to starbucks for coffee and flipping thru traumatizing photos.
it's really not that traumatizing or scandalous..
anticlimax..
but it brought back good memories.
-beams-
then i rushed off to dental.
paragon's cab queue was HORRIBLE.
crossed over to the hotel on the opposite which had like only 2 people in the queue..but there isn't any taxi.
and then..
i walked off..
and jumped into a random taxi which was like stoning in the middle of the road because of the traffic light.
so.
got there late.
rush from one dentist to another dentist.
then..
i realised that my other dentist is quite nice..
as in..
cute
:)
yay!
then i rushed off to cityhall to meet jun to go over to agnes's place.
but i had to buy the wine first.
so i went into raffles city..got into the supermarket and came out in superspeed.
then we blah blah blah blah...that's the boring stuff about the mrt and bus..
and then we REACHED AGNES'S PLACE!
finally.
then...we found all of them upstairs playing boogle!!!
boogle is my current favourite game.
i like.
:)
had a yummy meal that was cooked by agnes..and pam was assisting..
:)
then...
after dinner...
we split into 2 parts...serious discussion part...and boogle part...
jamie went to boogle.
but..
jamie left the wine in the FREEZER to chill it faster
and jamie FORGOT ABOUT IT.
until..she boogled for like 30mins..
and then yar..she panicked.
luckily jun already tranferred it back to the fridge.
so yayness.
yup.
then jamie drank 2 cups of wine.
and got abit high.
but i didn't break anything.
or laugh hysterically.
i was NORMAL.
but the world was moving a little tho.
but.
i was good.
anyway.
i realised that when jamie drinks. she talks sense.
and she takes good photos too.
so yar.
then i got home at like 11++pm.
and the whole house was asleep.
so scary.
and yup.
that's the short version of the 2 days.
and..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JING!!!!
-beams-
+ 10:34 AM +
Things i want to do this lifetime.
1. save one (or more) for Jesus
2. go on mission trip
3. go skydiving/bungee jumping
4. to drive around NZ/australia/europe/usa for 6 mths doing oddjobs that will just get me enough cash for survival
5. to own a bed and breakfast in NZ/australia
6. Watch the sun set and rise
7. Pass on a nugget of knowledge
8. go horseback riding
9. get into a real snowball fight
10. go skiing
11. experience all four seasons
12. go snorkeling/scuba diving
13. own a car/house
14. spend a day in town watching people walk by
15. learn how to play guitar/drums
16. Visit Paris
17. spend a day at the beach by myself
18. Test drive a Ferrari
19. Finish reading the Bible
20. Go to a theatre outside sg
21. watch a musical at the esplanade at least once a year
22. Go outside and lie on the grass
23. Have a food fight
24. play in a worship team
25. Take a hot-air balloon ride
26. take a random bus all the way to the end of it's route
27. learn a dialect/another language
28. win a lucky draw
29. live by myself (for a while)
30. Climb a mountain
31. Christmas in New York
32. do stupid things with friends like sitting outside class eating sugar packets
33. Take a walk in the rain
34. Sleep under the stars
35. Visit the pyramids
36. Learn something new
37. Go whale watching
38. Get tipsy with good company
39. See the northern lights
40. Be happy
+ 9:47 AM +
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
the Jamie Claus.
after a week of procrastinating,
it's finally done.
the cards bound for overseas are finally in the mailbox.
together with some of the first batch cards.
but i can't stop now!
there are other stuff waiting to be done.
i've decided to cut the cards and gifts down.
it's gonna be for sydney group + small group + cell group + some others.
so.
the numbers are more controlled now.
yay.
+ 9:43 AM +
Monday, December 20, 2004
hmm..
to think i wanted a very simple birthday this year.
i mean..
it's only the 20th birthday..
nothing really big..
but.
i was WRONG.
like SERIOUSLY WRONG.
come to think of it...
it was super duper cool..
let's see..
jamie wore a skirt today..and heels..
nothing surprising what..
i like heels..
so...
i rushed all the way down from mrs rod's place to heereen..
where everyone was in marche..
a lot of people from church.
ALOT.
cuz it was agnes's surprise 21st b'day dinner..
but..
it turned out to be jing, agnes and my b'day dinner.
i got a loud rendition of HAPPY BIRTHDAY when i reached our table.
plus flowers!!
haha.
so sweet..
-beams-
then it was dinner as usual..followed by PHOTOS!!
yar..
then it was time to leave...or so i thought..
after getting out of heeren,
we were forced to wear eye masks...the ones they give on board the airplane.
yeah..
so..
we were spinning circles outside heeren..
and were guided by the rest of them towards paragon..
i think i was making alot of noise..
-____-
-embarrased-
oh..and i think i managed to cut off the blood supply to jane's hand for 5 mins..
and wenkai and joel's hands too..
i'm so sorry..
but i was wearing HEELS!
so..yar..
anyway...i know i went into a lift..
and then came out of a lift...
and then went back into the lift..
and took the escalator...
and climbed the stairs..
i'm pretty good on the escalator...
-beams-
oh wells..
then we finally finished...after hearing balloons being popped..
and my eardrums were ringing..
and then...we were presented with the CAKE!
it was chocolate!!
yum yum yum.
very good.
then we got chased by the security guards.
-__________-
cuz it was 10.30pm.
and that's it i guess..
really want to thank EVERYONE!!
esp!!
TIFF!!! and PAM!!! and SHARON!!!
they're the organisers!!
yay!!
-applause-
i love you guys to bits.
really really happy.
now..if only i know what to do with the flowers.
i hope i don't end up killing them.
-beams-
+ 11:54 PM +
first batch of x'mas cards are ready to be sent!!
finally..
and they're like a pathetic 19 cards only..
sheese.
to the rest...
the other cards will be done soon.
i need to priortise my cards lar..
like those whom i have addresses of..
or those whom i'll only meet today and the next time we meet will be after xmas..
and those whom i'll meet on tues and wed..
so...
be patient..
i'm churning cards out as i type..
gah.
i'm bleeding hallmark.
+ 4:16 PM +
Sunday, December 19, 2004
i finished the bandung photos of glori's!
yay!
i like them!
:)
heh.
and apparently jamie can multitask.
she was doing..
maplestory, punching snowflakes, writing xmas cards, making gifts and msn-ing all at the same time.
if that's not what you call multitasking..
i don't know what is.
anyway..my pen sprung a leak.
and my hand currently looks blackish.
with spots like a panda.
if i had spots of other colours, strangers might think i'm totally arty farty..
which i'm so not.
so.
yar.
anyway..
even tho this afternoon i kinda sorta dismissed my stalker's comment about the bombs found in bandung.
THANK GOD she's back.
seriously.
man.
i was quite freaked when i heard about the bombs..but just didn't want to show it.
yeah.
bombs are horrible things.
why is it when people can't do cool stuff like throwing fireballs from the sky down to the earth, they have to resort to other methods like inventing lousy and stupid bombs?
that's where the world's tension comes from.
too much war and not enough peace.
nicht gut.
i bomb you...you bomb me.
there's no point.
there's bound to be a loser.
someone dead.
gah.
damm..i'm supposed to be writing christmas cards and i'm thinking of blood and gore..
what's wrong with me..
blah.
i've got 40 more cards to go.
only done 10.
i'm doomed.
i can't even get myself out of this mess.
>.<
+ 1:40 AM +
Saturday, December 18, 2004
i am super duper tired!
but i had fun at church today!
fun Fun FUN!
we had a FUNFAIR!
and we were in charge of the coupon exchange stall!
we = glori, jing and i!
it was super busy.
i think i'm going to collapse soon.
but i need to do the jumping thingy in maple story first.
heh.
oh.
yar.
it was fun.
i skipped crosslink.
heh.
oops.
:)
+ 7:12 PM +
Friday, December 17, 2004
Conversation.
after spending 30mins staring at the sky..
gazing at the marvel of the shimmering stars above..
from a vast ocean of stars,
i narrowed my focus to that one star.
that one small flickering star that looked like it was only shining for me.
and then the conversation began.
we started with the topic about my testimony.
about how, why and when i started this race.
about how and why i raised and waved the white flag time and again.
about how and why i always came back to the track again.
about the things that hindered me from running the race full heartedly.
after that.
we spoke about my character in the past, like the 1st two years of being a baby Christian.
about the selfishness of human nature.
like if the push came to a shove.
will i be willing to suffer for the sake of my friends and family.
in the past, my heart tells me yes. but my brain tells me NO.
the heart is willing, but the flesh is weak. very weak.
but after this year.
we concluded that i've grown.
i may still not understand the extent of totally selflessness,
but, i would be willing to suffer to some extent, instead of a total NO.
Life is not about recieving.
It's about giving.
It's about giving until you can't give no more.
Like how a glass filled with water can contain no more water unless it's being emptied or drained.
that's how life should be.
as we recieve, we give.
even when we think that we've got nothing good to give, nothing worthy to offer, nothing significant that others would want from us..
think of the little boy who lived to die.
and you'll know that you'll ALWAYS have something to give.
+ 11:45 PM +
Let's dance our way to the stars.
to the stars and back.
well.
I'll be back on earth in the morning.
but now.
it's dancing to the stars.
peace out.
+ 11:18 PM +
i can't shop for nuts.
i mean..
i can shop for stuff..
but not for clothes.
if it's clothes.
ill prolly jump in, grab the stuff..and get out..
so.
i can't shop.
bleargh.
+ 5:04 PM +
Thursday, December 16, 2004
brief recap of today's happenings..
met jing for lunch..
and picked up agnes, tiff and nick along the way..
in that order..
then fast forward..
cuz i'm being chased off the computer..
anyway..so...tiff doesn't understand some of my blog entries..
erm...ok...i'll try to talk specifics next time la..heh..
:)
so..anyway...we were sharing about christmas at cell today..
and it was really good..
and..erm...i was asked to share..so...erm..yar..
i know quite alot of people actually heard this before...
so...yar..not gonna repeat now lar..
but on the way back...
i was thinking for quite abit..
i realised that in the past..
esp when i was still a baby Christian..
i looked at everything with awe..
like seeing everything from a totally new perspective..
like..a newborn kid..
looking at the stars in the sky...the clouds...everything lar..
it's like...nowadays...
i think i kinda take all of these for granted..
so...
tmr night..
i'm gonna watch the stars.
without distractions.
no maplestory.
just me, Him and the stars.
+ 11:41 PM +
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
This one's for You.
i'm amazed by Jon ong ee min!
heh.
great minds truly do think alike.
we have the same nick.
His is from the song This one's for you by ed harcourt..
and mine's because of the thinking i did this afternoon..
and coming to the realization that whatever i do..
it's gonna be for Him.
so..
the only diff in our nicks is the capital Y in my 'you'.
=)
i love jon ong.
heh.
+ 9:44 PM +
everything that happened in the trip stayed in the trip.
perhaps it was nothing more, but an entry to the book of good memories.
perhaps, i hope..it was more than that.
being overseas does that to some people too.
being away from the country..it's somewhat like floating away on a bubble..
as you float..you see new things..you dream big dreams..
but the bubble bursts once you touch the ground again.
hmm....i don't know what i'm typing..heh..
+ 4:57 PM +
heh.
i finished reading glori's blog and it makes sense!!!
yay!
cuz i decided to start from where i left off and not start from the latest entry.
anyway.
i've been hogging the phone till late at night..or rather early in the morning..
late night phone chats are good.
=)
they do good for the mind body and soul.
heh.
right.
anyway.
i confessed my "sins" the night before and we ended up discussing why i did what i did last night.
it was interesting..
well..most of you guys prolly won't understand what i'm saying.
but then again. some of you guys actually heard this shit before.
just that i haven't mentioned it for a couple of months.
let's see..
cal..mel..syb..yc..pam..agnes..ali..etc.
think back and see wad was the last trouble i had..besides the bout with the last minute exam mugging..
tralala..
my stalker's coming back soon soon soon!!
i pray she's doing good!
=)
i miss seeing her online.
bleargh.
i need GELATO NOW!
GLORI!! where are you!!!!
ok..since i'm kinda bored and stuff..
let's see...
people i need to meet.
-Jing (to talk and chawanmushi)
-Glori (to talk and gelato)
-Pam (to talk and bum and i dunno what)
-Agnes (to talk and bum and i dunno what)
-Alicia (to talk and shop and drink coffee)
-Xinyi (to talk and bum and eat ice cream)
-Mich (to talk and bum and i dunno what)
-Nick (to talk and bum and i dunno what)
-Ruikun (to talk and bum and i dunno what)
-Wasserfrau (to talk and bum and have a movie marathon)
-everybody else
that's in no particular order..
i'm bored. and i need to continue writing my cards.
+ 11:20 AM +
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
im supposed to be typing about the trip...
but...
i'm too lazy.
so.
anyway..
wad i find amusing today is this..
"u are always full of action"
i don't find action. action finds me.
-shrugs-
+ 6:55 PM +
Monday, December 13, 2004
ahh..
let's blog about the funny stuff first.
hmm..
i had alot of dreams when i was in china..
i usually fall into a dreamless sleep in sg..
but that wasn't the case over there..
i dreamt of a giant seahorse once..
apparently..i was at some restaurant..
and we had to do fishing..steamboat style..
and there were erm..well..seahorses..
(btw..I DO NOT WANT TO EAT A SEAHORSE OR ANYTHING..that's why it's a weird dream)
and well..
everyone got their seahorses..
but..
i fished an ultra huge seahorse with a Bulging head and stuff..
and i freaked out..
and then i woke up.
erm..yar..anyone want to help to interpret this dream?
o_O
ok..next dream..
more familiar character..
i dreamt of Miss Pamela Hor.
ha.
i dreamt that she came back..which technically is true..because she's gonna be back in sg today!!!! -beams-
anyway..back to Miss Hor..
i dreamt that she came back carrying a whole ton of LV bags..
don't ask me why it's LV...i have NO idea.
anyway..the thing is..as usual...her bags are packed full..
so...due to space constraints and stuff...
she tied all the LV bags together...erm...so they were like all dangling..
erm..
and i woke up laughing my head off..
ha.
cuz i can so imagine the scenario..
so.
guess that's it.
-Mrs Rod still ain't picking up her phone!-
+ 9:58 PM +
Back.
saw mich's tag!
-beams-
you're BACK in SG!!!
WooHoo!
i'm dead beat.
tried looking at glori's blog..
but i'm lagging so badly that nothing makes any sense.
i'm supposed to do a theory paper tonight.
mrs rodrigo isn't answering her phone.
i'm got 24 mails in my email.
i've got a dozen cds to listen to and prolly the same number of dvds to watch.
i didn't shop much in china.
i was internetless for 10days.
and now my keyboard feels weird.
all in all..it's good to be home.
more about the trip next entry.
i'm beat.
+ 9:27 PM +
Friday, December 03, 2004
I'm leaving on a jet plane.
don't know when i'll be back again.
anyway..
just got back from the rehearsal.
took quite a few photos and stuff.
shall review them when i get back.
:)
hmm.
Tomorrow. 4th December. FooChow Methodist Church. Be there. erm..oh..it's at 7pm.
anyway..
met yingchao today for german lessons.
ha.
relearnt some stuff..and learnt some new stuff..
germans are people who PURPOSELY come up with stupid rules for their language.
bah.
totally un-userfriendly.
then jasmine popped over..
and we crapped for a while..
and...NOW...i can't give them my planned christmas present.
:|
no worries mate.
i've got backup.
woohoo.
yeah..
so..
ha.
anyway..i realised that my worse nightmare overall..would be my worse nightmare in english happening in GERMAN with people speaking GERMAN in a CHINESE accent. ahhhh.
anyway...
notes to some people..
ALL xlinkers: SHINE for Him tomorrow and like forever and ever also.. =) He will be with you ALWAYS. He's just a prayer away.
Stalker: *hugs* thanks for the card babes. it's pretty!! i'll prolly write you one in china or something. ha. have fun on the mission trip. SHINE. and go spread His love babes. i promise that we'll go for gelato when i get back.
Mapling-ers: GO MAPLE!! ha. :) but don't level up so fast can? wait for me to get back..i'll be like 10 days without civilisation. it's worse than being in genting. bah.
erm...
Everybody else: I love you guys. I'll be back soon. on the 13th. during the evening. I promise.
and tomorrow, i take the first step into unchartered territories.
+ 10:13 PM +
things to do today.
1. go ikea check out stuff at around 11.30..and it's 11.50am..and i'm still at home.
2. go holland.
a) rent books
b) buy some hooks and ends
c) check out if there are any cross stitching stuff
3. go cold storage to look and buy stuff so that i won't die in china.
4. meet yingchao for german lesson.
5. go home for dinner and pack my survival kit.
6. go over to fmc for rehearsal at 7pm.
7. reach home and sleep.
8. wake up the next day at 5am.
9. leave on a jet plane at 7am.
+ 11:46 AM +
Thursday, December 02, 2004
I'm OFFICIALLY FREE!
and i don't want to comment about today's paper.
IT'S BAD FULLSTOP
so.
it's over.
tralalalala
+ 8:45 PM +
gah.
i really am going to smoke my way thru this paper...
like really really smoke..
for this paper...
i think...
i only put in like 50% of the effort..
the other 50% was split into like...slacking since it's the last paper...reading storybooks..playing maple story...playing the piano...watching singapore idol..and almost fainting after seeing ethel in her bride dress..cuz technically..it isn't really a gown..erm..yar..
man.
and i'm gonna pay for like all of my slacking today...from 5-7pm..
i'll pull my hair out.
and bite my nails.
and die.
+ 3:45 PM +
1 last paper to go today.
and i've got a bad feeling about it.
anyway.
in other news..
Taufik Batisah! You da man!
+ 8:26 AM +
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
i slept at 4am..
dued to...
4 big glasses of tea..
and the urge to get my girl to level 10 to become a magician.
and plus to actually finish chapter 3 of my textbook...
i mean..i read thru till chapter 5 already.
but i started on the exercises last night lar..
yar.
ok.
it's 817am now.
and i'm gonna go play mapleworld.
it's damm addictive lar.
bah.
+ 8:11 AM +
