i remember this long ago song from boyzone..'Love me for a Reason'
ah wells..
because i'm really feeling totally crappified now..
i'm gonna give myself a chance to be thick-skinned..
so..
tell me what you love about me.
humour me please.
Stalker says..
i love you for your honesty
Agnes says..
your nature.. bubbly-ness
Ryan says..
that reminds me of wat i have to say on valentines day during CrossLink.. but yea.. hahax! hmm.. well.. u r usually cheerful.. and u bring the mood generally better..
Jiehui says..
hahaz I love you becos you are a good fren to me!
Jem says..
i luv u for u jamie u noe it doesnt matter if u've grown fat or super thin, doesnt matter if u've gone silent. coz all these dun matter. doesnt matter if u've lost your creativity. or your photography skills. coz in the first place i din make fren wif a creative or superb photography skills person. i made frends wif u. if i were to like u for those things, or for your physical attributes, i dun deserve to b your frend.
Pam says..
everything dear..u are jamie!
Crys says..
JAMIE i lovee youu cos you're jamiee! and cos you care so much(:
Eugene says..
we love jamie cos she is noty.. cos she is noisy and cos she is juz plain genuine and nice
Adrianne says..
i love Jamie for being the first to make me truly wanna spit blood while talking to her. oh. add hanging my head against the wall too, for trying to make her study. nods head. you're truly the FIRST :)
Dewen says..
coz u are my fren..and i want the best for u..
Joshua says..
cause you are jamie
Smelly Cat says..
i just like talking to u ley
Wenkai says..
ur caringness
Esther says..
i love jamie because she is so sweet and encouraging, especially during the dreaded O levels. i love jamie because she is my sister in christ. when you add an oliver to her name, you get my favourite cook! wheee
Michelle Tng says..
i love you cos of you!
Serene says..
ur shuang kuai attitude
Calyn says..
i love you.. erm.. erm.. ERM.. coz.. you're one of the first few friends i know in crescent.. and one of the first few friends i know in class.. one of the first few who talk to me when sec1 just started.. and.. eh.. you're the noisest friend i know.. the loudest loud-speaker i've ever known.. basically.. that equats to unique right?
Jaclyn says..
you're the sweetest most wonderful life embracing fun person i know
Daphne says..
i love ur... goofiness.humor.wit, ur writing, how u pay attn to details,ur BLURNESS
Ethel says..
everything?
Joel says..
can i say everything?
Yingchao says..
that u are easy to talk to? that u are so bubbly
it's tough to reformat a laptop..
i'm thinking of giving up now..
i've been transferring 1gb of photos over to my desktop..
and..
i've got 1gb of mp3s too..
oh dear..
i'm sorting the songs out now..
and i found a treasure.
Trapt - Stories Lyrics
I found a line and then it grew
I found myself still thinking of you
I felt so empty, now im fine,
but still its burning
when will you be mine
Too much of the same stories in our lives
I think its time for a change, dont you?
too much of the same stories in our lives
I think its time for us to walk away from here
2x(Stories in our lives)
(We keep them more inside)
Look at me
still in your mind
our memories
so intertwined
you broke through, you found your way
so did I, no need to stay
the same old picture, tried and true
I been through that, lets look for something new
Too much of the same stories in our lives
I think its time for a change, dont you?
too much of the same stories in our lives
I think its time for us to walk away from here
Do you remember laying on the beach late at night?
Do you remember running through the sprinklers that night?
Do you remember all the songs that I have wrote for you?
All the songs that I have wrote for you
(for you)
I remember the way you made me feel when I was with you
I remember a smile that always brought me back to you
That look in your eyes
I never thought that this could be untrue
That look in your eyes
I never thought that this could be untrue
untrue...
do do la da da
do do la da da
do do la da da
yeah yeah yeah
Too much of the same stories in our lives
I think its time to change, dont you?
too much of the same stories in our lives
I think its time for us to walk away from here.
ah..the first day of freedom..
ah wells.
im pretty much reminded of something that i realised or rather He shared with me last year..
last year, i was reminded by Him, after hearing a friend said something along the lines of 'i love her more than she loves me'..
i realised that..
a relationship is not a balance..and it should never be a scale/balance..
once a party in the relationship starts to have that view or thinks that way..
it's time to end the relationship..
because..
love isn't about checks and balances..
it isn't about 'i love you more than you love me'
or 'i care about you more than you care about me'
it's hard to actually actually prove that you care more about the other..
because..
the other person might not know how to express his/her love for you in the way you expect him/her to..
and that to you..it might seem like he's only loving you 50% as compared to the 100% love that you have for him...but...what if that was his form of 100%?
the reason why this came up again..was because i was talking to a friend..and she was having relationship problems...the thing was...i wasn't really all THAT close to her...but we're cool classmates lar...
so anyway..one of the first few things she said was...i love him more than he loves me..
and..
yeah..that's how it all started. i'm not saying that the other person isn't to be blamed...in a failed relationship..both parties share the blame EQUALLY. you can't push the blame around.
ah wells.
back to the not so chim stuff
i was browsing thru friendster...and i found this!
You and Tae Min are flying high today!
The only thing that's constant is change, and the sooner you digest that fact, the easier things will go. Yes, your relationship is evolving in a new direction, but that's a great thing. In fact, evolution is the key to survival for just about everything. Remember that even as these metamorphoses come about. Some of them will be surprising. Some of them may even be shocking. Almost all of them will be for the better. And you can be certain that absolutely none of them will be dull!
and taemin and i are amazed.
O_O
sheese..the boliaoness of friendster.
it's over...
i'm freeee
walalalalalalalala
-beams-
ah...now all i can do is pray.
walalalalala
wahahaha...i present...the guy who injured my thumb.
bwahaha
aged primary 3
in all his cuteness.
:D
ARGH
my paper was HORRIBLE.
although i didn't think so during the paper..
it was only after comparing answers when i realised what a horrible paper it was..
how now brown cow?
-wails-
gah.
ive got 2 more papers to go.
i mugged from 8am(when the library doors were opened) till 7pm..
and i'm feeling mightly sleepy now.
ah wells.
exam tmr..
CM2166 MPSH2 648 27/04/2005 1:00 PM Analytical Chemistry
please help pray yeah?
i'm pretty worried about this too..
ugh..
must really try to make an effort to go for my classes..
:|
ah wells..
was mugging with Yingchao...aka my shifu.
haha.
ah wells...
i've decided to put yingchao on my list of 'Gentlemenly Men/Guys/wadever'
so...
let me type the list...in no particular order...
-drumrolls-
Peter KHOO
Jon ONG
FU Xiangyu
HENG Yingchao
Irvin LIM
ah wells.
that's prolly it..but i can foresee future gentlemenly guys from fmc tho..the kids have hope! haha
:D
ok...what yingchao did today was...to walk me to the bus stop.
sounds super simple right?
yeah..it is..
but after mugging for 7hours..you tend to be worn-out ar...
and adding to the fact that he didn't have to leave the library's vicinity..
because he was gonna meet the gf there in a couple of minutes..
so..it was a nice thing that he did lar.. :))
yups.
actually...what really gets those guys on my list would be...
they bothered doing stuff without being asked to..
like..they took the initiative..just because they're nice and polite and cool.
ah.
yeah.
it's always the small stuff that counts..
ALWAYS..
at the top of my head...i remembered that irvin sent me home and made the taxi uncle stop at my place..and he walked home from there...when he stays in the next block..and it would be on the way if i alight him before i drop off..but he refused. so..well.. :)
next..erm..peter smses me 'thank you for the lunch company etc etc..' and that really makes a person feel good...heh...the smses always make my day..
ah well...jon bought a whole bunch of stuff for me when i was having a horrible day in class (when i was in j2)..he wanted to come back to visit the teachers..yeah..actually..it would have made my day just to talk to him lar..(i've got a small crush on him...) bwahaha
and...xiangyu...aiyooo...i dunno what to say..
hahaha..xiangyu is just xiangyu is just xiangyu..
i'm gonna leave you here with my bunch of guys..heh..back to the books. :|
JINGLE ALERT!
the cadbury song is in my head..
and because it's in my head..
song lyrics for each of the different versions.
Postie
Wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadbury
Chocolate roads and trees 'n' birds 'n' bees
Delivering all kinds of letters daily
Every kind of purple parcel too
And if the dog did try and grab a mouth full
You can bite him back, he'll taste delightful
Wouldn't it be nice.!
Surfer
Wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadbury
You could surf inside a chocolate tube
Ride your board across the wave forever
Get wiped out and never get a bruise.
And if a shark came up and tried to bite you
You could say "I'm chocolate I invite you"
Wouldn't it be nice!
Soccer
Wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadbury
You could be a soccer super star
The referee would blow his chocolate whistle
A shot on goal would even break the bar
And if you went and scored the winner
You'd win the cup and eat it for your dinner
Wouldn't it be nice!
Car
Wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadbury,
Driving in the car would be a tasty treat,
Changing gear would soon become a problem,
Cadbury Dairy Milk is so good to eat.
And when you arrive at your destination,
You'll be greeted with an exclamation,
Wouldn't it be nice!
and...Adri is yelling at me.. :(
she wants me to go offline to study..
:(
and... well..yeah..
i was trying/attempting to play wheel of fortune with daph..
we tried for an hour...we didn't even get thru a single puzzle..
i think God's trying to tell me something..
haha..
and Adri was like....close the window! go and study!
and then...she started threatening..
u better off ar...i'm going to pray...i'm going to pray now ar...
bwahahahaha
cracks me up..
:)
ok..
well..
back to April 2002 paper.
I'm truly amazed.
At His plan for me..
I've been at the dining table since 9am..but i was playing wheel of fortune with daph till 11++am...and she doesn't wanna play with me no more..cuz i kept on solving the puzzles.. :( not my fault wad...
anyway..that's not the point..
so...from 12-6pm..
I've been doing the past year exam papers..and guess what..
i only completed 2 of them..not 2 exam papers mind you...2 QUESTIONS.
i mean..i'm in trouble..the exam is only 2hrs...and ive gotta do 4 questions..
so...i was feeling all horrible and stressed and everything..
so i decided to like browse through the mp3s that i've got in my labby..
and i found a couple of unlabelled tracks..
and they were 'In Whom I can Trust' and 'Cry of my heart'
I am totally amazed by 'Cry of my heart' because it's a Minus One track..and it's pretty darn good.
and i've decided to go freshen up..and continue my war later..
and maybe grab some frozen grapes..
they're really good.
grab a bunch of grapes...throw them in the freezer..and pop them into the mouth when they're frozen. :)
nice stuff..
there's this whole hype about the 2 integrated resorts in Singapore..
and..really...i don't see the point of this whole hooha..
let's see...maybe i really have faith in the PAP..i mean..come on man..they manage to defeat the communists leh..by kicking them out of PAP in 1961..and they've been in power since 1959..(my nation building stuff are still in my brain apparently)
so...anyway...let's get back to IR..
liwei has shifted his stand on them..u can read it over at his blog..
and well..i guess that his reasons do make some sense..
but..
like what i've said earlier...i don't see the fuss about it..
firstly...if the govt is gonna have IRs just for tourism..and money...and 35000 jobs..there's something wrong here..
but however...i beg to differ..
i mean...we need to move on..i know Singapore's doing quite fine in the Southeast Asia region..but with the rise of superpowers like China and India..we need to be constantly on the move..and having IRs will help us..i mean look at Australia, New Zealand, Las Vegas...i don't see beggars loitering at every corner of the street..just because they lost their money while gambling..i mean...above all..it's all about individual choices..are they willing to pay the 100bucks just to enter?
well..
and Singapore being a nanny state...our govt has like taken almost all possible measures to make sure that our society won't decline and stuff..
i mean..
let's quote from PM Lee's speech ar..
First, we will restrict the admission of locals. We studied many alternative ways to do this, and finally decided to use price, and charge a high entrance fee, $100 per day or $2,000 a year. $100 is more than the ferry ticket to Batam, and will deter many casual gamblers. This will apply only to Singaporeans and Permanent Residents.
Second, we will implement a system of exclusions. Those in financial distress, or receiving social assistance, will not be allowed entry. Singaporeans can also exclude themselves or close family members.
Third, the casinos will not be allowed to extend credit to locals, so as to make it harder for them to lose more than they can afford.
Fourth, we will make sure that some social good comes out of the gambling at the IRs. For other forms of gambling like horse racing, Toto and 4D, the profits are channelled to the Totalisator Board, which uses the money for charitable and worthy causes. For the IRs, we will similarly channel revenue collected from the entrance fee to the Totalisator Board for charitable purposes.
Fifth, we will set up a national framework to address problem gambling. This will include a National Council on Gambling, and also programmes to counsel and treat problem and pathological gamblers.
to me....point number 2 settles everything..
disclaimer..i'm not saying that i am FOR the idea of having IRs..i just don't see why we should be anti-IRs considering the fact that our govt is like a nanny..
i'm quite certain that they wouldn't choose to forgo social stability over economic gains...as..you see..from what i learnt in nation building...it was first social stability before economic gains...
hence the rioting and communists had to be gotten rid of...before the MNCs would invest in our puny little country..
so...like what i've said twice already...
the IR thingy isn't such a big hooha..
if we can sell alcohol almost everywhere in singapore...and yet singapore isn't a country filled with drunkards...
i'm quite sure we would be able to handle IRs lar..
steady bom pipi..
ok..that's my 2 cents..
yups.
:)
i've got a new pet..
his name is Stupid.
he is a Housefly..
Stupid's the only housefly in my house..and he's called Stupid because...
He doesn't fly out of the window even tho they are wide open..
so..He's Stupid.
ah.
anyway..
i think i like smelly cat ALOT.
oh dear..
he just said that my user pic looked like one from some advert.
-frowns-
the mastercard one..
-frowns-
Discontented, dissatisfied, ennui, bored, fed-up, pissed-off, wound-up, restless, arsed-off, upset, depressed, sensitive, tired, fatigued, exasperated.
Weltschmerz.
ARGH.
i don't wanna go into depression mode again...like since my hols will start in 5days..NOooooo
i'm dying..i truly am...dying of laughter perhaps...or even trauma..
the Samantha in question..is a friend of mine..an ex-classmate to be more precise..
well...back in sec 2...she was my 'mummy'..
yup..we had a whole family tree going on in a girls school...
i dunno...i mean...i've got nothing against her..and i'm glad she found her niche in acting...but...being portrayed as a 'sex kitten'... O_O
that's a different matter all together...she's nice..erm.-shrugs-..ah well...here's the article...pictures of her can be found here.. The New Paper
MICHELLE Goh from Mee Pok Man. Lum May Yee from 12 Storeys.
Now, add Samantha Tan - from Eric Khoo's latest offering, Be With Me - to the libido-firing list of ingenues whom the local filmmaker has plucked from obscurity to immortalise on celluloid and catapult to sex-bomb status.
Theresa Chan, the 62-year-old deaf-blind protagonist, may be the heart of the critically-acclaimed movie and Eric's ultimate muse.
But 21-year-old Samantha is his 'Lolita'. You just can't stop the director from unabashedly gushing about his latest discovery during a recent interview with The New Paper at Goodwood Park Hotel.
'In terms of my preference, she's more of a turn-on than Michelle or May Yee. (Mee Pok Man's) art director spotted Michelle, our producer picked May Yee, but this one... I selected myself,' said Eric, 39, brimming with pride and satisfaction.
'She reminds me so much of the first girl I ever fell in love with - Gwen Stacy, Peter Parker's first girlfriend. She's the girl I'd draw in my comic books.'
Eric also had great fun taking the mickey out of Samantha, plying her with vodka lime and teases.
Said Eric: 'She was perfect for the role because she epitomised youth and innocence, and yet was the type who could get someone to be so in love with her, then break your heart, make you break down and want to kill yourself!'
In one of Be With Me's sub-plots, Samantha plays a student embroiled in an unconventional love triangle (which also involves a really hot kiss).
But the heartlessness with which she dumps one party is truly frightening.
Just who is this white-hot newbie whom Singapore's premier filmmaker has taken under his wing?
And is she poised to be the next It girl to grace the covers of FHM, Maxim and all the other entertainment rags?
To our surprise, Samantha is a tiny waif in person - hardly the va-va-voom man-killer or traffic-stopping model Michelle and May Yee are.
Her looks? Sweet and kawaii (cute), more girl-next-door than drop-dead-gorgeous. Her figure? Ultra-petite (1.58m, 39kg), and so fair she'd make SK-II proud.
Her fashion sense? Almost too casual. She turned up for the photo shoot sans face paint, in a white tank top, pink cap, hip-hugging Levis and sneakers.
But because Samantha doesn't have any spoken dialogue in the movie, what's most shocking is what comes out of her mouth.
Giddily giggly throughout (laughter appears to be her best defence mechanism for now), her voice is high-pitched and manja to the max.
'Almost like a cheep-cheep-cheep,' Eric offered, pressing his fingers and thumb together up and down to imitate a bird squawking.
It's easy to dismiss Samantha as a bimbo. But just when we were expecting boo-boos of Jessica Simpson proportions, the guileless starlet managed to acquit herself well for her first media interview.
Like when she spoke about certain matters we needed to get off our, er, chest - a few scenes in the movie blatantly show Samantha lying on her bed in tight camisoles and tiny shorts - her own wardrobe, by the way - while her ample cleavage spilleth over.
When asked whether she was concerned about showing off more than her acting chops, the poor girl looked genuinely confused.
She squeaked: 'It's not that bad what! When I saw it, I didn't think much of it. It's a reflection of real life. When you sleep, you don't really care how your body looks like, right?
'I cannot control people's thoughts, but I hope they'll not focus on such things that don't actually contribute to the storyline and character's feelings.'
Which brings us to our next question: Bra size, please?
Clearly scandalised, Samantha - who's been dating her 'older' boyfriend for eight months - protested: 'Mmmm... that's not for people to know!'
More deer-caught-in-the-headlights looks and opportunities to dissolve into squeals followed when we wanted to know whether being so well-endowed caused people to assume she's a ditz.
She said: 'Hey, pretty girls also get the same treatment. Well, even if people do judge me, they don't come up to me and say it.'
And on being the next hot babe on everyone's lips, Samantha demurred: 'No, I don't see myself as that at all! I'm flattered, but at the same time I don't think it's a big deal.
'I'm just doing a movie for Eric because acting happens to be one of my interests. I didn't go into it thinking, 'Oh I'm going to be a big star'.'
She has never even watched Eric's earlier movies ('because I was very young at the time'), but it's this 'very real' quality that appeals to him.
He explained: 'She doesn't have those dreams or that hunger, (whereas) others audition under false pretences and with an agenda to be famous and play the game.'
Although Samantha admitted to being worried that she wouldn't be able to convey her character's sad emotions because Eric told her she had 'happy eyes', Eric actually found that directing her was a breeze.
He even rates her 'incredible' debut performance a perfect 10.
'You just have to tell her what to do and she gets it on the first take. A lot of the facial expressions she created were her own... The greatest thing is that she has not been taught how to act, it's just her intuition.'
Currently a second-year building and real estate undergrad at NUS, Samantha is also a part-time model who has done magazine spreads for Seventeen and Teenage.
She was also an extra in Singapore Idol Taufik Batisah's axed music video for his first single, I Dream, which was helmed by Eric, and appeared in a StarHub television commercial put together by Eric's Zhao Wei Films.
Eric happened to see one of her casting tapes and was immediately interested in working with her.
He recalled: 'When I saw her picture, she was like a Glico Pocky girl from a Japanese manga or something. So I got the producer to call her and when I first met her last June, I thought, 'Geez, there's something about Sam.' '
Three months later, he cast her in Be With Me. He added, smiling: 'She stayed in my head for a long while.'
When asked what his wife thinks of his liking for Samantha, Eric said: 'She thinks Sam is gorgeous - and she doesn't think a lot of girls are. She was like, 'Yeah, this is the one.' '
And he's hoping the international press will fall in love with her too.
HOPES FOR CANNES
Samantha will be accompanying Eric and his co-writer - The Sunday Times features editor Wong Kim Hoh - to the Cannes International Film Festival next month to showcase Be With Me, which will be the opening film for the festival's Director's Fortnight section.
It is the only Singapore film ever to be selected to open a section in an international film festival.
'I didn't expect the cast to be able to go along as well,' said Samantha.
When pressed which designer dress she'd like to wear, she shook her pretty head violently, and blurted: 'I never think about all this, you know... A classic black gown maybe?'
Eric interjected: 'I want to launch her in Cannes, I want her to be the next Zhang Ziyi.'
And maybe David Gan can do her hair too?
hahahaha...
thanks to everyone...
hahaha..
today's paper was fine!
hahaha
like..it wasn't all that bad...
didn't really write much about LKY...
it was more about Singapore..but then again..
Singapore is synonymous with PAP..and PAP is synonymous with LKY..
-shrugs-
oh well..
first essay question was about...the Singapore nation begin forged in war..
and the 2nd question was about the HDB playing a crucial role in bonding singaporeans..
ahh..
i wrote 2 booklets..7 pages each essay.. O_O
buttt.....i left a blank line after every line lar...so...i think i wrote about...maybe....3.5pages per essay..
:))
and after finishing...i realised that the 1st essay was basically verbal diarrohea of the history of singapore ever since Japanese Occupation..
and then the 2nd essay was a verbal diarrohea of my readings..
hahaha
so..
-shrugs-
anyway...this isn't an important module to me..i'll get either a pass or fail..won't be graded..
:))
3 more papers to go..
1 step closer to freedom..
:))
Tomorrow's paper...
HY2229 MPSH4 46 23/04/2005 9:00 AM Nation
after tmr...
i'm gonna heck care about LKY, PAP and UMNO.
stupid politics.
interesting..but still stoopid.
i am irritated.
my stupid dodo idiotic #&$*^#*$Y% handphone refuses to allow me to change it's mode..
so it's freaking permanently at LOUD..
*#(%&#(*$
i'm so pissed..
i tried the nice way..it refused to change..
i started hammering it..it refused to change..
i am PISSED.
gah.
and today's paper was absolutely horrible.
it's official..
i'm going crazy..
please pray for me...
1st paper tmr..
kay..to make the prayers more accurate...
pray specifically for...me..
9am to 11am..
Prince Georges Park
SEAT 55!
the seat number is impt...don't anyhow play play..
SEAT 55! FIFTY FIVE..
ok?
:D
all prayers accepted very very willingly.
i like daphne..
she's nice..
not like ruikun or calyn..
-bleargh-
they are currently refusing to buy t-shirts frm me.
-stares at them with squinty eyes-
hmmp.
never mind.
they will be forced asked to buy...under duress.
:)
i so feel like scolding a girl now.
if not because i'm asked very nicely not to...
i would.
this is what you can expect to get when u hurt me or my own..
i kinda appointed myself to be their protector of sorts..
and i do NOT like to see any one of them being hurt by some brainless twit.
before i start publishing what exactly happened.
i need to go off to cool down..
i hate this kind of shit.
i'm glad i didn't know you well in period we went school together.
you have hurted 2 of my friends..close friends..
and i strongly dislike you because of that.
i thought you turned for the better..but i guessed old habits are hard to break eh..
twit.
Estimated pay from june till dec..
Piano: $100 x 1.5
I.A : $1000 x 6
F.S : $7.50 x 9 x 10
Glori's chem tutor: 10cents per hour..(insignificant)
so..
i'm still quite free for the months may AND june.
any lobangs?
:)
stuff left to do today:
2 more readings before i finish reading ALL of the 1st half of nation building's readings..
5 more physical quizzes to do. or rather read through.
Design of the 1st prototype of t-shirt is out..
yeah..well..lemme know if u wanna see it.
:)
i've got a logo too!!
haha
:)
oh shiet..i'm supposed to be studying.
:(
rights.
and now i can start studying.
aim of the day.
FINISH physical.
and start on Nation Building.(boring lau's part)
the excitement of 1k has died..
i mean..
big deal..
it's just 1k!
and that works out to be like around 5 bucks an hour.
which is damm low..
fengshui stint is paying me $7.50 an hour.
bleargh.
but i shall not complain..
it is afterall higher than what the others are getting..
but i shall not be overly excited over the 1k either.
AHHHHHH
I DON'T BELIEVE IT!
THE COMPANY WHICH WAS MEANT TO BE MY BACKUP FOR MY INDUSTRIAL ATTACHMENT STINT..
(well..i was forced to have it as my company lar...cuz i found the company myself..and they in NUS didn't want me to be extra and take up space..since there are other kids without companies yet..)
anyway...
THE PAY IS 1K!!
I MEAN...PER MONTH!
IT'S LIKE WOAH
HAHAHA
im super duper happy
hahaha
wahahahaha
1k leh..
ha..
1K for 6 mths = 6K..
plus...ill be teaching piano..
plus i've got a fengshui job..
heh.
yay.
currently..to my knowledge..i'm prolly the 3rd highest paid kid in applied chem..
because..
majority of the companies are only paying $600-700..and..erm..well..the students which are employed had to go thru mind-boggling interviews...and their results are quite good..yeah...compared to mine..heh.
that's why when i emailed the company..i only quoted them a range of $800-1000
and i expected them to give me $800..which is already not bad...or maybe $700..which is still survivable..
but..
i've got 1k!
i'm gonna work hard for them!
hahaha
:)
lalalala..
big bucks darhling..
big bucks..
new desktop background..due to my currently mild obsession with clifton parker and his photos..
" I like their Christ, I don't like their christians". If you look at christians as evidence that Jesus lives, then I think you are looking in the wrong place.
and maybe we can never ever ever be the perfect ambassor to His Kingdom.
but hopefully when we see Him..we could tell Him that we tried our bestest best to be one.
i guess..we're the Road Markers.
i am amazed with Jamie.
the girl who has her papers starting from friday..and who is not a single bit prepared.
this girl..has wonderful good calmness..
when she ought to be studying...mugging the daylights out..
she's happily thinking of designs for her t-shirts.
thereafter thinking of new designs for her desktop.. done!
and new projects that she's gonna start on right after the 28th..
1) print t-shirt.
2) do project whiteboard.
3) teach piano
4) help with tuition @ FMC
5) shift the furniture in my room
6) work for fengshui woman
7) work for IA
8) do project robertson quay
9) make overdued b'day presents
10) meet for overdued b'day meals
11) bum around
12) watch tv the whole day
13) walk around town
14) bum in esplanade's library
15) erm..pack my room
16) meet people that i'm supposed to meet for lunch/dinner/tea/wadever
17) go to the botanical gardens
18) watch the world go by
19) get a new blog template out.
in the meantime..i need to go back to my books.
:(
erm..
i've got a student.
more or less permanent..
for a 1.5mth till mid june..and 3 mths from dec till next year..
yup.
her mum came over to talk to me..
while i was dressed in my ultra comfy crescentian pe teeshirt.
well.
what a first impression.
-shrugs-
she wants to learn western music..and i'm hoping that western music = classical pieces..
and not God forbid.."My heart will go on.."
gah.
oh well..at least her mum said that she can play 'My heart will go on' and Aqua's Barbie Girl now.
O_o
sheese..
i'm gonna be playing and listening to bubble pop..
oh dear..
Nooooo...
i shall attempt to teach her classical pieces...although boring...but at least they're CLASSICS.
oh dear.
i need to dig my piano books..
i'm impressed after looking at the works of this guy..
Clifton Parker.
he's also the bf of one of the girls whose blogs i frequent.
and he's cute too.
heh.
Dj, Photographer.
Amazing stuff.
something that i took out of her blog posts.
"I've still got it... oh, yeah!" Peter Parker boasts as he enters the house and does his best shagadelic hip gyration.
"You got hit on by someone?"
"Yes, at the Saks store!"
"By who? Some retail dude?" I quip.
"Ha!" he laughs. "Um, yeah."
So today, I went to return my Seven jeans at the Saks store and check out my competition but he wasn't there. That Bitch!
Is it just coincidental that the last few men I've dated have been "metrosexual"?
aren't they the cutest couple?
I'm tired of fighting.
tired of maintaining a cool facade.
i'm tired.
i don't believe this.
I DON'T BELIEVE THIS.
i've got papers only for 4 bloody days..
darn it.
and i'm taking 5 modules.
that means i've got 2 papers on a same day.
kill me.
-hands you the gun-
my papers start on friday..ends on thursday..just AMAZING.
i've got crammed papers.
almost back to back..
friday, saturday, wednesday, thursday morning, thursday afternoon.
and guess what..i'm still struggling with friday's paper..
but i'm doing quite well with friday's papers..both of friday's papers.
darn.
Was going thru the number of CDs that i've bought over the years..
decided to play a CD which i haven't play in like..3 years..
Stella's 1st CD..and as expected..i was reminded of A.
man..that period in my life was quite bad..tsk.
me and A had this weird thing going on..ever since secondary school days.
and it's amazing how blind a person really is when he/she is in the middle of the whole mess.
thankfully we screwed up..or else i could have seen a bigger screwup in the future.
we're just good friends now..yup..close, good, bumming around friend...we've been that ever since 3 years ago.. and it works for me.
then deciding that i've got enough of A, i decided to switch CDs..heh..
the next cd was Aikawa Nanase.
She was the 1st Jap singer which i admired..loads better than Ayumi that C likes so much..and Namie Amuro that B likes.
heh. borrowed this one from J.
and it has been with me for 7 years! Woot! haha..i always forget to bring it along when i meet him..so now it's OFFICIALLY MINEE!!! haha..i quote what J said last night.."You can keep it la..to remind you of this good friend of yours.." and i was laughing my head off after that..i really should meet him after my exams for coffee and pass him his wine..which i haven't bought yet..and in turn collect my wine..we are wine-oholics.. a much better term than alcoholics. -bleargh- i need to get a red..south african or maybe french..not too sure yet..not too dry..but not sweet either..that's so not the type of wine that i would buy.. O_O i'm for sweet..the sweeter the better. i can deal with Port..the ultimate sweetest of wines.. :)
oh well...after a couple of minutes of blasting heavy metal aikawa...i ended the night with David Tao!! he rocks. :)
and then..S came into the picture..she was my partner in sec 4..and we created thrived on chaos..
she practically created a new cover for her history, chemistry, a maths(which was a big book..so plenty of creative space) etc. oh well..it was all her books.. and we took 9 subs. Go Figure.
being the girl who got called up on a daily basis by the chinese teacher..i didn't know how to read David Tao's name..i mean..the 'Tao' me gets..but the 'Ze'behind..me reads as 'ji ji' because it can be broken up into 2 'ji's so..well..
that was a brief walk thru memory lane..i don't think mine's a lane...it's prolly a road..long and winding road..to think i've actually come so far..to think about the friends i've made..to think about the friends that have stayed with me through everything..so far longest record would be CZ, then with Bei, Zhen, Jia, Chris, Mich, and in a weird way..J was also part of me then..after that comes the sec 3 class and A & gang..i know i am blessed. -smiles-
I'm quite irritated with my family now.
gah..for reasons that i don't wish to elaborate here..
anyway..
i've found a new cause to support..
THE HOLE IN THE WALL GANG.
it's a charitable organization for cancer stricken kids.
just google them to find out more.
:)
and..
i was looking at my yahoo groups..and i suddenly miss my german class.
:(
:(
look how young my shifu looked..heh..
Glorijoy Tan Shi En..
THIS IS WHY YOU ALSO NEED A TAGBOARD.
haha..
cuz i can't leave messages for you when i'm bored..heh.
oh well..
congrats on being able to go for church camp...
erm..
but when exactly is church camp?
i might wanna go toooooo..
haha
ok..back to the books.
Argh..
i'm sooo tired.
currently in the chemistry labs in my berms and xlink t-shirt and my jacket...with the hood up.
gah.
the lab stools are too high..
and the computer room has comfy seats but there isn't any room for my legs..
so..i decided to mug outside...with the high lab stools.
i think i've got a red eye..
can feel it..
O_o
oh well..
-shrugs-
back to muggerdom.
met S for lunch today.
went over to Raffles Hotel.
heh.
nice lunch..albeit abit too full..
-burps-
and we shopped..or rather..she was trying to..and i was trying not to let her to..
and..we took a tourissy photo at suntec with her polaroid cam..and she didn't allow me to keep the picture.
-bleargh-
oh well..shall update about it soon.
oh well.
i didn't get into 3M..but i got into another company tho..
and the lady in charge of the lab there sounds very nice.
:)
lala..
and i get to start in JULY.
which is SOOO GOOD.
considering the fact that the rest of my classmates are starting in May/June.
heh..it gives me some time to rest and to work on my temp job..which pays good money.
tralala..
i'm quite happy really..
heh.
and i'm thinking my response to a question prolly killed my chances of working in 3M..heh..
oh well.
at least it was an honest reply.
-bleargh-
Ugh.
i don't like my shoes.
pain pain pain.
maybe it's because it ain't seasoned yet.
:|
oh well.
interview went fine.
not that scary.
10mins.
:)
and i found my happy happy happy place.
and i'm gonna go there again tmr to study.
from 11am - 1pm.
:|
cuz after that..self-study hours are over.
i so don't geddit.
gah.
i bought killer-ish looking cruella deville's pointy shoes!
heh..
quite nice tho.
and my mum wants me to wear a skirt for the interview tmr instead of pants.
-bleargh-
lalala..
nice shoes.
anyway.
my twin takes ultra long to decide on which jacket to buy.
and she is a compulsive shopper.
I've got another interview tmr..
this time..the company's more famous i guess..than romer..
it's 3M.
yeah.the scotchtape people.
heh.
oh well.
50% of getting it..
10 people are going for the interview..and there are 5 vacancies.
but.
it's at WOODLANDS.
someone please kill me.
i'm interviewee number 2.
9.10am.
Pretty World - Lisa Ono
Why don´t we take a little piece of summer sky
Hang it on a tree
For that´s the way to start to make a pretty world
For you and for me
And for the sun we´ll find a lemon bright balloon
You can hold the string
Oh can´t you see this little world of ours will be
The prettiest things
We can gather rain enough from a stream
To hold our happy faces
If you want a breeze
I´ll blow you a kiss or two
Take me in your arms
And our little world will be the place of places
Nothing else to make
But breakfast and love
We´ll hang a little sign that just says
Paradise population two
I know together we can make a pretty world
For me and for you
For you
That´s what I´m longing to do
To do
To make a world with you
To make a world with you
Jamie got her hands on Georgia on my mind's piano score
like FINALLY.
WHOOPEE!
it's a nice jazzy piece that Ray Charles sang.
lalala..
it's also the state song of...
-drumrolls-
Georgia!
-beams-
Luther Vandross - I'd Rather Lyrics
I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone (alone)
and I tried to find
out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart
I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone
else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by
myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoo-oo-oo-oo yeah
And then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you
we had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies,
all lies
so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart
I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone
else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by
myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart
I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine,
I'd rather have bad times with (please be mine) you,
than good times with someone else (I know)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (anytime),
than safe and warm by myself (so sure baby)
I'd rather have hard times to gether,
than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (my heart)
I'd rather have bad times with you (surely),
than good times with someone else (surely)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (oh yeah),
than safe and warm by myself (all by myself)
I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart (you know it)
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoooo.....who holds my heart
I wish you love - Lisa Ono
I wish you blue bird in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss
But more than this
I wish you love
My breakin´ heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very best
I set you free
I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all
When snow flakes fall
I wish you love
When snow flakes fall
I wish you love
When snow flakes fall
I wish you love…….
im in a bad state now.
not really that bad..but..
i'm moodswingy..
you see..
i didn't get the job.
so.
well.
-shrugs-
nothing much i can do now.
rights.
so.
i'm back from the interview.
it's kinda nice yet sucky..
hmm..
-shrugs-
oh well.
hope i get the job tho..
the people there looks nice..
oh well.
I'VE GOT FRICKIN' BLISTERS ON BOTH FEET.
I NEED TO BUY SHOES.
-bleargh-
they didn't allow me to wear my open-toed heels.
BAH.
ok..
since i'm in such an oh-so-good mood..
lemme just type something quite funny..
today...being ME...
i had to wake up 'blurry eyed' and stuff..
and got ready for school..
so..
i went to spray perfume larr..
so...
i did the whole spray at 1 arm's length thingy..
but..
my nose is screwed lar..and i was late..and i couldn't smell anything..
so...i sprayed again..this time CLOSER.
and..
by the time i reached the bus stop...
i realised that i 'bombed' myself.
everyone could prolly smell me before seeing me.
sheese.
so paiseh
had to wear my jacket in the bus to prevent excessive perfume from stinking the bus.
and had to zip my jacket all the way up in my lecture to prevent the entire room from smelling.
haha.
so..anyway..
i was out from 9+am till 8+pm..
guess what..
my t-shirt STILL STINKS.
ARMANI'S SENSI is... -speechless-
my nose's aching..been sneezing the whole day.
I Survived the Week.
ha.
i mean..fine..
it's only wednesday and stuff..
but it so feels like the week is OVER.
because i've cleared my presentation..and my test!
yay!
and well..
in a way it is..
you see my friends..
i won't be going to NUS till NEXT week.
ha!
i've got a job interview tmr.
and frankly speaking..
i think i want this job..
quite badly really..
cuz..for one..it's near my place..
and it's an analytical company..which is something that i'm quite interested in..
tho a polymer company would be better..
but beggars can't be choosers, you know.. :)
oh well..
they're only taking in 1 person. and there's 2 of us.
and seriously speaking...i've got no confidence of even landing the job.
because...
i love her and stuff...but her grades are prolly better than mine.
so.
:(
sigh.
pray for me.
-repeats- I am going to survive today..I am going to survive today...
i've got a history test later..
and..as usual..
i'm not done with the readings yet..
but is it really MY FAULT???
-bleagh-
gahhh..let's just hope that the 6hrs till the test will be used to do good stuff.
gobshite.
now..then again..
let's see what I found on the In-ter-neettt this morning..
According to ancient lore, back in the 5th century, Irish St. Bridget convinced St. Patrick that women should be allowed to propose marriage at least once day a year. St. Patrick relented, but with a catch—he ordained that women would have the opportunity only every four years—on leap day.
The tradition continued, and in 1288 Scotland passed a law that gave women the legal right to propose on leap day. And if the man refused, he was fined!
bet you guys didn't know that huh?
k..i'm gonna pack a stack of papers for schoooollll..
-Bleargh-
i've got 24 proclamations of love.
fine.
i initiated them.
-bleah-
what matters is that i've got them!
hahaha
so yay to me!
let's list them out..
1)Tng
2)Gloree
3)Crystal
4)Calyn
5)Jem
6)Joshua
7)Ai (x 2)
8)James
9)Jiehui
10)Gerald
11)Mirror
12)Twin
13)Jon
14)Pete
15)Derek
16)Adrianne
17)Daphne
18)Liwei
19)Jane
20)Amos
21)YingChao
22)Jasmine
23)Winfrid
24)Jing
25)Mel
26)Ryan
27)Joel
28)Pam
29)JESUS! a love bank that i'll never overdraft from!! <333!
I love Jane too!
and Adrianne and Liwei!
hahaha..
anyway..
I SURVIVED TODAY!!!
WOOHOO!!
i survived my presentation...only because i was reading from the script..
like word for word...
because...the lecturer was dozing off at the back
HA.
:))
oh well..
apparently he catches 40 winks at every group's presentations..
hahah!
:))
oh..and..
the whole entire class doesn't understand why a perfectly able-bodied idiot has to have an assistant to help click his slides(aka me)..while an arm-in-cast girl can do all of it HERSELF!
the only conclusion we could come up with..was that..
HE CANNOT MULTI-TASK.
and it's the last ill have to talk to him!!
YAY!!!
FREEDOM!!
anyway...
I LOVE ALL OF YOU GUYS.. <33333
I'M COLLECTING LOVE TO LAST ME THROUGH THIS WEEK
wahahaha
i'm so amused.
i think it's the pre-presentation jitters..
i'm trying to make tng feel bad for not coming back to sg for the hols..
and then..
i'm trying to get tng to love me more..
cuz she claims that she loves everyone the same!
and i'm like...can you love me a lil' bit more?
heh..
and then when that didn't work...
I went to gloreee..heh..
and YAY!!
GLORIJOY TAN SHI EN LOVES ME MORE THAN CHOCOLATE and ICE CREAM and WALLS' CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM!
heh..see how easier contented i am?
and now i'm asking the entire world if they love me..
hahaha!
YAY!
Crystal loves me!
ok lar...tng loves me also..just that she doesn't show favouritism. :P
CALYN LOVES ME TOO!!
Jiehui loves Jamie!!!
Ai loves me too!! (2 times)
Josh too!!
Peter loves me too!!!
Gerald loves me too!!
Yingchao loves me too!!!
Winfrid loves me too...after ALOT of prodding from calyn..
Twin loves me too!!
Jem loves me too!!
Wasserfrau loves me!
Jon Ong loves me too!!
james loves me too!!
Daph loves me too!!
and jon reminded me that Jesus loves me more than i can ever imagine..
-beams-
and pete asked me a qn...when i told him that I LOVE HIM TOO!!!
he said i can't love him..cuz...i'll be giving my love away if i do so...then how i collect liddat?
and..
my response was...if i give it away..Jesus will gimme some more!
was just re-reading Robyn Sisman's Just Friends.
was just thinking of the friends whom i could turn up unannounced like...maybe in the next 3 years?
heh.
like when i'm in trouble and i don't wanna go home..
friend's places where i could just 'appear' and not get turned away..
of course i'm talking about when we have pads of our own..
cuz i'll prolly be disturbing the whole family if i turn up unexpectedly..
then again..
i think i've got a few friends whom i can turn up unannounced..
Pete..because the whole family knows me anyway..
Jing..because the whole family knows me anyway..
Cal..because the family knows me..and we stay near each other.
and i'm sure...for the case where they own their own pads...
ill have a whole ton of people whom i can bunk with.
the beauty of friends.
to be able to appear without giving any notice and not be turned away.
some people are just so extra..
can u help me click the slides?
because i wanna concentrate.
gah.
such selfishness.
i hate you. just that i've got no guts to tell you that right in your face.
Jamie is stressed out.
Jamie just finished her part of the lab report and has to practice her bloody long 4-page speech.
i just hope they don't die on me.
Jamie doesn't plan to get her speech memorized because it's 4 pages long and she'll prolly be blatently reading off it tomorrow morning.
Jamie hopes she doesn't burst out into a giggling fit which she is so prone of doing.
Jamie has a history test on wednesday evening and she hasn't read her readings.
Jamie is gonna die of stress soon.
Jamie wants to fast forward to Thursday..tho she will miss out the stuff that God has planned for her on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday..but..
Jamie doesn't really care..
Jamie just wanna get rid of her stressssssss.
and here's Jamie signing off.
The Pope has passed away.
in other news...blogsurfing was i..and i reached..erm..andrew fang's blog.
and he seems to be a nice bloke. :)
Be like newborn babies,
always thirsty for the
pure spiritual milk,
so that by drinking it you may grow up and be saved. (1 Peter 2:2)
The law of the Lord is perfect;
it gives new strength.
The commands of the
Lord are trustworthy,
giving wisdom to those who lack it. (Psalms 19:7)
Fill my eyes
Fill my eyes O my God
with a vision of the cross
Fill my heart with love for
Jesus the Nazarene
Fill my mouth with Thy praise
Let me sing thro' endless days
Take my will let my Life
Be wholly Thine.
If he has done you any wrong or owes you anything, charge it to me. I, Paul, am writing this with my own hand. I will pay it back-not to mention that you owe me your very self.
Philemon 1:18-19
http://www.sermonnotebook.org/new%20testament/Philemon%201_1-25.htm
-note for me to check this out-
