Build Jamie's Farm Fund
current funds..yingchao donated 7bucks...so...currently..the fund has...11bucks...
:)
it's a worthy movement...
the farm is going to be built in NZ.
it's for the sick and abandoned chickens, ducks and cows.
i'll make their lives more worthwhile...
i'll care for their welfare...
:)
ill sell the duck and chicken eggs to support the day to day workings of the farm...
and ill sell the milk from the cows too...and i can make yoghurt and cheese with it as well...
see...the animals won't be harmed...
:)
so...
spare a thought for these poor creatures..
a little cash will go a long way...
it's gonna show them the light at the end of their tunnel and give them a new lease of life..
to let them find their meaning in life once again...
so...donate now..
:)
and joel's my chief labour officer...and i just promoted him to chief advisor...
:)
yayness!
Jamie has a farm...
:)
and an investor...albeit an unwilling one...but still...an investor!
hahaha
and im gonna pray in chinese tonight...cuz the O level chinese paper's tmr..
and after having my stalker (Glorwee) quote me "you think Jesus speaks chinese?"
haha..i'm sure Jesus speaks chinese...but....the question is...
Does Jesus understand broken chinese?
ah...i think He does anyway...but...well...we shall find out tonight...
if He replies me with a "Huh? *blur look*"
we know that..my chinese is too broken already....
haha...but i don't think He's ever gonna Huh? at me.. :)
so...yay!
My Jesus is the Coolest and Funkiest of all...
You think your god's cool...you haven't seen mine yet.. :)
my Daddy flies WITHOUT wings....and without the airplane...duh..
my Daddy walks on water WITHOUT learning qing gong...
my Daddy can solve the world's hunger problem just with a couple of loaves of bread and fishes..
my Daddy is the Bestest of them all..
You wanna know my Daddy?
Call His Name, and talk to Him...and He'll let you know how cool He really is.. :)
have you ever experienced a war that happened on you?
my nose is numb i tell you..NUMB!
went for facial this morning...
seriously thought that it's a good time to take time off my studies and stuff...not that i'm really studying yet..but still...that's not the point...
anyway...so...
the lady was poking me with i've-got-no-idea what...
it's this painful torture equipment...
if singapore ever goes into battle...we should all have one of this thingy...to stab the enemies on their noses and remove their blackheads and well...they'll prolly cry for surrender...
if was seriously painful...and i actually do pride myself for having a high threshold of pain..
i mean...besides the fact that i can't touch hot glassware without having an 80% chance of breaking it...that's about it i guess..
cuz' i don't flinch when i have injections, i don't start crying and stuff when i get a blister or something...it's only like after walking 4km and bad mood when i'll snap...erm...so...pretty high tolerance lar...i guess...
but....let me tell you....the removal of blackheads....that is scary....
it's painful...and your nose just goes numb...i seriously think that i rather get a nose stud than to endure multiple, consecutive poking and probing with that thing on my nose...at least to pierce my nose...it's a one shot event..
sheese...
and i caught a glimpse of the price of a tube of some facial cream from dermologica which i brought to sydney with me...because it's kinda good for me..since i've got easily dried skin around my eyes...so...yeah...i got like a sample pack of 2 different types of cream...yeah...a tube of it costs like....92bucks! and the other was like 72bucks! madness i tell you...madness....
didn't see a need to actually buy one..since i'll prolly use it once or twice and quit using it...
because it's too much of a trouble....especially for someone who wakes up and gets out of the house in 10mins after that...i blame the current good, cozy weather for this bout of hibernation...
yeah..so..well..
oh...
good luck to all the O levels babies!
tmr's the start eh?
go work your magic on the papers....
get like straight A1s for all...
get like 2points for your L1R5...
let's see....who are the babies...hmm...
Stef...Mich Tng...Glori....Esther....Lijun...Paul...Jiehui..Reagan...
is that it?
prolly...
hmm..
oh wells... God Bless!
Let Go and Let God...
:)
Praise Him.
ohhh...
updates about my story!!
which is also the einstein term paper..
which is also dued on the 12th of nov..
which is coming..
and yet i'm still kinda relaxed about...
so..
yeah..
and my grand total is...500+ words!
i can only write like a maximum of 4000words...
so...i'm limiting myself to a minimum of 3000words...
yeah...
:)
500+ words in 2 days...like 2 hours per day...
not too bad eh?
ok..
i'm giving myself an off-day today..
haha...
totally no mood to write...
there are basically 4 characters so far...
shouldn't say more in case some dodo who's taking this module steals my idea...
shhh...
:)
let me tell you a secret...
i just found out that....
*whispers*..quite a few people have actually read my blog before...
*stunned*
hahaha..
didn't know so many people actually read this...
hahaha..
leave me a note or something...
feel like i'm being stalked...ahahahaha...
right..
then...
I AM TALLER THAN ESTHER!!! I DON'T CARE!!!!!!!!!
and it's not because i'm wearing flip flops...
*bleargh*
heh..
:)
yeah..
and have i mentioned how much i love my cell groups?
i really do.. :)
even when i do look stoned and stuff...
i'm not!!
i'm really paying attention!!
really.
:)
oh...
and i've got a cool thought...
if i ever am a ceramic pot or something like that..
i don't want to have a stamp saying..
"Made in China" or wherever...
i want a stamp that says..
"Made by Jesus"
heh..
:)
today i saw 2 men walking back to their office building..
they were holding cups of ice-cream in their hands..
and they looked happy..
:)
i guess it doesn't have to be fancy or expensive for a person to find enjoyment in it..
look...how much do you reckon an ice-cream cost?
and they were executives mind you...
if it matters...they were expats..
and they were happy holding and eating their ice-creams in this cold, rainy weather..
:)
anyway...it's official...
i'm officially giving up...
it's too draining for me to try my darnest and yet meet this kind of sarcasm..
i can't take it..
so...
yeah...
why would i want to help you if you're not even helping yourself?
because i don't want to see you drown in your problems...
Fair enough..
but why would i want to help you if you not only stay passive and unresponsive, but yet you are resistive and give me snide remarks? who do you think you are? why would i want to even bother to listen to your criticism? especially when they aren't constructive?
that's it..
i'm washing my hands..
you can do whatever you like to your life...it's yours to ruin anyway..
it's out of my hands...and i'm leaving it in His hands..
i reckon He's more patient than i am...
so.that's it.
i seriously hope you'll wake up.
you've been sleeping for too long.
Blessed Be Your Name
by Matt Redman
Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name
Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name
Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name
Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name
it's official...
i hate html..
i really really do...
ugh..
if i ever see a html code in the next 5 mins..
i'll go crazy...
im serious..
ugh.
anyway...about yesterday...
it was cool..albeit it being such a great day to sleep in..
dragged myself to school at 9am...
and...
of all the dodo things that i could do..
this was prolly the dodo-est of the entire semester..
right..
i was supposed to go for my tutorial on last wednesday..but because it was such a good day to stay in..i decided not to go to school at all.
so..i intended to go for it yesterday instead..
but..it was at 11am..or so i thought...and i had a lecture at 10-12...
so...after mentally pushing around my timetables and stuff...
i decided to skip lecture to attend my tutorial..
so from 10-11..i was bumming around in NUS...fretting about cell group...
headed to the tutorial room at 1045...found out that i was the only dodo lurking along the hallways...
because....there wasn't any 11am tutorial lesson in the first place...
the only class yesterday was at 10am...and i missed it..
sheese...there's one more happening today at 3pm...but i'm just gonna skip it..i guess...
sigh...
so..blur dodo me...ended up missing both the lecture and the tutorial..
sheese...
on another note...
i passed my 1161 test...the ultra horrible one...i've got 62!! i mean..fine...most of the class got like 70+...but still!! i passed!!!! :) i mean..like from...17/60 for the previous test...to 62/100 for this current one...i made significant improvement...so who cares about the rest of the class!
*beams*
anyway..rushed for cell group after school...squeezed in and out of the bus...in and out of the mrt...reached newton at 6pm...sat on the floor and spent some time watching passerbys speed thru their lives...
just when i was feeling so bored, tired and sleepy...i saw something...or rather someone...
there was this bunch of ac junior school boys running around...i reckon they're prolly primary 2..with their maids tagging behind them...and...this little boy...was running...and running..and *SMACK* he bumped himself on the phone booth...heh..it was pretty funny...because...he was kinda short...so...his face just went *BAM!* heh...i mean...i shouldn't find pleasure in the whole thing...and i was more shocked than happy about it at first...but the thing was....after he rammed into the phone booth...he rubbed his face...perhaps making sure that his nose was still there...and he continued running around again...
sheese...kids are so resilent to pain sometimes...
anyway..we had cell...the topic was suffering...and well...i have never suffered in my life...
small obstacles and setbacks along the way...but nah..no real big suffering in my life..
anyway..the sharing session was good...
the cookies were good..
the apple juice was good..
and...
being cell leader for the day was scary...like seriously scary...
really really scary...
but well..it's a happy scary thing i suppose...
as in...not like a watching horrible movies scary...
but a...i have no idea how to describe it..
anyway..it was all good..
was supposed to reach home at 1030pm...
left christine's place at...1024pm...
i had 6 mins to fly home...the cab came at 1038pm...
i entered the house at 11pm...
and i blamed the horrible timetables of the mrts and buses in singapore at 1105pm..
apologized for being late at 1110pm...right after i pushed majority of the blame over to the LTA...then i took perhaps 30% of the blame...saying that my time management is really horrible and i would try to improve on it..
and that was the end to a very nice day...
:)
and now i'm late for dental...
sheese...
i've got an insanely interesting idea...
:)
i'm gonna start on a Count-Your-Blessings project!
it's like...everyday...
write down every little thing, no matter how insignificant they are that makes you smile..
:)
and well...and every little thing that makes you feel sad...
and erm...that's about it...
heh...
so..
Good Stuff that happened...
1. a little girl smiled at me at isetan supermarket today...and she was the cutest little thing i saw in pigtails.. :)
2. i bought christmas cards!
3. i can smell/feel christmas!!
4. felt appreciated when amos sent me a thank you sms after i donated 2bucks to him...
Not so good stuff that happened...
1. Got conned out of 2bucks for some NKF thingy that amos was doing...some charity work..
2. Saw this old man who was hobbling around at my neighbourhood...and he was really hobbling...like....hobble hobble hobble...and like he's hobbling real slow too...i wonder how long will he have to hobble before he reaches home...so sad...
see....good stuff 4. cancelled out not-so-good stuff 1.
and i would be willing to exchange good stuff 1. so that not-so-good stuff 2. disappears...
:)
i really think that all that old man needs to make his day feel better is a smile... :) actually...well...plenty of smiles... :)
so..
yeah...
had a fruitful evening i supposed...
learnt about new stuff..
as in...it was a case of being more aware about the stuff which i took for granted before..
yeah..
so..
i'm happy..
you happy?
i'm happy!
:)
yahoo ate up my email!!!!!
so now..the mail i took so long to type to jing, pam, agnes, jun is GONE!!!!!!!!!!!
*wails*
anyway...
quote of the day...by Jamie..
"....you'll prolly have to really select wad are the things are worthy of ur jealousy..."
:)
In a vain attempt to prolong the time until which i have to start flipping the pages of my spectroscopy book, i shall just type perhaps seemingly nonsensical stuffs.
the question of the day for yesterday was: what do you want written on my tombstone when you're dead?
i have never ever thought of this question in my entire existance. the furthest i went was..101 ways to kill myself..and this chain of thoughts ceased to exist after it reaches the part where..i'm dead...i mean..to me..nothing else matters after i'm dead right? i mean..I'M DEAD..i'm not supposed to care...not supposed to bother...and not supposed to give a flying rat's ass about anything...but...well..note that this train of thoughts started the journey along the tracks of '101 ways to die'...meaning...it was in a way kinda suicidal i suppose...but it was all good fun tho...as in..that was done in a bus ride from school in '01...
what if i were to drop dead tomorrow? what will people remember me as?
*shrugs*
i'm not too sure...but then again..you know what...i don't really give a shitass about what others think about me..
seriously..
the only opinions that really matter to me are those from my family and my friends...close friends...good friends...whatever...just friends....aquaintances will do fine...but i reckon they won't know much about me to actually form a fair picture of what i really am like...so yeah...those comments prolly won't be taken to heart..
so yeah...guess the only people that have the ability to hurt me are the ones which i placed like a huge wager with the devil on...with me betting that they are worthy of being called friends...and him being the devil trying to convince me that i'm placing my trust on the wrong guy...that everyone that i trust are actually the bad guys and that i shouldn't be trusting no one...
i have no idea whether that made any sense...but i'm just typing for the sake of typing...anyway..it was this question that made me ponder thru the rest of the day..but then again..that question was..What do you WANT people to remember you as? and not What do you THINK people will remember you as? hmm...guess that changes the whole meaning of the question entirely..
what do i want people to remember me as?
the answer i gave yesterday was...well..as long as they even bother to remember me...i'll be happy..
but i guess...that wasn't the answer that the question was really seeking for...instead that was the answer i gave because i have no idea what i wanted others to remember me as..which in a way translates to i have no idea what i want to achieve in my life as of now...because once i know what my goals in life are..i'll know what i want others to remember me as...but since i don't know...and i didn't really want to think about it yesterday...i gave a non-committal answer..which doesn't really count as sharing...because that's really bullshiet..and i'm sorry about it...when i think of the answer...i'll prolly let someone know...we'll see...other non-commital answers and half-truths which i gave after being probed further would be...someone who was a listening ear..and bring a smile to others...which i reckon is true and it's a good way for others to remember you by...but does that mean that i want to be a frickin' EAR which happens to have the ability to make others smile? NO WAY...
translating it into pictures...it's a picture of a scary monster!! WITHOUT EYES!!
nah...
let's see...since i want to continue prolonging my breaktime before hitting the books....
i would want to be remembered as
a friend who will always be there laughing as you laughing...crying as you cry...in short...i'll be your shadow and copycat and i hope that you'll be mine too...
someone who uses the brain to think and the heart to re-process the thoughts...
someone who brings joy in the lives of others...a sunray in the midst of the stormy skies...
but during days when even the sun refuses to shine...we could always have hot chocolate in the attic and watch the raindrops platter on the glass panes..and from where we are...that even in face of the storm, we can sit together and talk about life and look for small reminders that show us the miracles that God made for those who actually bother seeking...
someone who will give you all the support that i can muster...and if it isn't enough i'll pray for reinforcements from my Big Boss up there...and like the crawlers(a species of plants)...we'll live our lives around His Word which will give us the support and encouragement we need to live thru our existance here on earth...
looking at all those stuff that i've written...i reckon there's more to come..since the floodgates have been open...shall add to the list soon i guess...
i ought to head back to the books...
the meaning of relativity from Einstein himself...
"When you sit with a nice girl for two hours, it seems like two minutes. When you sit on a hot stove for two minutes, it seems like two hours. that's relativity." -- Albert Einstein
and this is kinda true ain't it? whenever my experimental values don't give me the result that i want...either i'll change the figures...or i'll redo it...but the former happens more often tho.. :)
"If the facts don't fit the theory, change the facts." --Albert Einstein
"There are only two ways to live your life.One is as though nothing is a miracle.The other is as though everything is a miracle."
:)
suddenly...i kinda love einstein...
:)
i so seriously need to start writing my story about Clark up Quark...
the grand total of words i have in my word document now is..
ZERO.
not even my name...and it's dued on the 11th...
sigh..
got to get started soon..
spent like 10mins of my time doing this...
sheese...
but seriously...that's what i really want to be doing now...
a conversation i overheard between a little girl and her mum/godma/adult...
Little girl: orh..ok...
*cuts off the hp line*
*tugs on the adult's shirt*
she says that she's coming in 10mins time...
Adult: oh..ok...
Little girl: what is 10mins?
Adult: erm...10 mins is....*pause* a very short time...means she's coming soon...
Little girl: oh..ok..how soon?
Adult: 10 mins lor..
Little girl: *scratches head*
hahahaha...was so entertaining...
:)
hahaha
time is relative to kids...
Unforgetful You
I never minded calling You a King
If that meant that I could count on You
To give me everything
I never thought to ask You
I always thought You knew
It was never my intention to question You
You never minded calling me a child
Well, I guess that's how I acted all the while
But You live through every tantrum, You see through every lie
Though they seem to be more common
I just wanted You to know why oh why
Unforgetful You, unforgetful
Unforgetful You, so unforgetful
You never minded giving us the stars
Then showing us how blind and unaware of You we are
You painted me a picture and showed me how to see
Though I just won't behold it
Unless it pertains to me..
today was good...
spent 4hours at dome..
cleared 2 chapters worth of readings...
skipped 2hours of lectures...
and managed to come up with 1 zillion ways to screw future kids up...
haha..
with the help of carys that is...
:)
like how we would screw kids up...if we were lecturers next time...
esp if i don't have a TA...
the end of a typical lecture...
"blah blah blah...i would be away for a conference for the next 2 weeks..hence i would be uncontactable..remember that the mid term exam is the first week when lectures resume...the exam make up 40% of your final grade..do study hard..
*while you're saying all these bullshit..pack your stuff fast to make a clean getaway...*
so...The gene is hungry. Goodbye."
bwahahaha..the whole LT will prolly go..."HUH??" bwahahaha
that's for Life Sci modules...
and then a bonus question can be like..
"What was the Last sentence i said for the last lecture? 5marks"
and everyone will prolly write...The gene is hungry.
but that's the WRONG answer...cuz the answer really is... Goodbye.
bwahahaha
*grins*
yeah..
and for like a History Lecturer...you could prolly talk about Mao Tse Tung etc...and suddenly go...Mao Tse Tung said.."The watermelons are sweet"
hahaha...the class will go blur again...
hahaha
the ways of screwing kids up....
there are so much more ways where that came from..
will post them later...
very tired now...
heh..
:)
SHIT...
my entry was eaten by Blogger
Argh..
too lazy to retype..
but anyway..the gist of it..
Poll: is Jamie a Dependable or a Dependee?
doesn't matter what your opinion is...i want to hear it!
and i won't blast anyone...
yup..
it's ur honest opinion anyway..and i respect it..
so..leave me a note!
:)
thanks...
it's time for my annual review with myself lar..
haha..
need to do some reflective thinking...
i'm forced to learn the art of using hair wax..
i've got no choice but to learn how to spend 15mins or more on my hair before even attempting to leave the house..
i'm sorry for the thousands that i've mocked...guys included...
mocking and sneering at the long hours you guys have to spend in the bathroom styling your beloved locks of hair...for now...i have no choice but to become one of you..
sigh..
never have i thought that i would have to fiddle around with my hair for more than 15mins..
for i am a tie-and-go girl...
sigh..
such is one of the few idiosyncracies of life...
im tired of second guessing...triple guessing..or even quartruple guessing...
i don't want to have to second guess everything a friend says..
why should i even have the need to second guess?
you're a friend..
i trust you...
i would take your words at face value..
you can call me naive..
i prefer to call it trust..
but then..
you proved me wrong...the last time round...
made me play mindgames with you...
until when it came a point in time where i didn't have anymore energy to even think if your words were the truth..
or were they some fibs that you concocted just so that you can spin me around your little finger when you're bored..
because of what you did..
i cut myself away from you..
now that you're back...
are you still going to continue to play mind games with me?
cuz i'm no longer the jamie that you used to know..
i won't be manipulated..perhaps to a certain extent..
but i know when to cut off..
do not play mindgames with me..
either tell me the truth or tell me nothing at all..
i do not care for half-truths..
and don't bother adding spices to it...
give me the bare facts...
that's all i ask for..
i don't want to do anymore guessing...or mind reading...
spare me..
i major in chemistry...not psychology...
i can do mind games...
but i don't want to...
because there is no need for me to...
i only do mind games with people that i deem untrustworthy..
don't make me play mindgames with you..
because i would rather cut you off again...and it WILL be for good this time.
Is it worth it?
Tell me that it is worth the price and i will do it..
No questions asked.
All i need is to know what You want.
say the word, and i'll try my bestest best to do it.
just let me know if it's worth it..
and if it is...guide me to it..so that i may do what You want me to do..
cuz i'm tired..
tired of grasping straw-ends...
tired of bumping into walls..
steel walls...
sound-proof walls..
only i can hear my own voice...
the world goes on as if i'm invisible..
if my life were a television show...
someone must have pressed the mute button...cuz no one seems to be hearing me..
my silent screams..
why do i even bother...
give me hope...hope that someone will hear me...
all i want is a small gap in that door...a small little gap is all i'm asking for...
all i want is the tv set unmuted...
all i want is the energy to skip thru the path that You've made for me to go thru..
i want to skip...i don't want to trudge...cuz to trudge would mean that i'm unhappy with this path...but i don't want to be unhappy...i refuse to be unhappy...i want to skip...i want to jump..i want to go through my life with unspeakable and unmeasurable joy...
and the only way to get it all...
would be through You...
only You.
i won't settle for anything less than that..
only the best is good for me...not the good..nor the better...but the Best....
and it's You.
note to self:
do not go and start blabbering about everything to someone you think you know on msn...
because...
you might know the username...but not the person who's using it...
like...how i managed to blabber about my haircut to agnes's nick...only to find out that agnes wasn't home..and that was the flatmate...
phew..
i would say that i'm lucky that all i said was about the haircut...
what if i went to say something more?
*shudders*
Something about you--Corrinne May
Don't know what you do to me but
Everytime I'm with you its a natural high
its like re-discovering Eden
with chocolate-coated rainbows and cotton candy skies
And everytime you look my way
I wish i had the guts to say
There's something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
Make me want to cry
I'm falling in love with you.
I think i'll hire Cupid
He'll make you see
I'm more than your friend
You'll be tossing and turning
Counting the hours til you see me again
And when we meet you'll
Kiss my hand and say the words
I've longed to hear
There's something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
I'm falling in love with you
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
Make me want to cry
I'm falling in love with you.
just a quick chop chop update on the happenings today...
since like after 4pm...before 4pm was just the usual school stuff...so it's boring lar
met calyn...went to PS to grab my piano books...stoned around at MOS burger...and went to wreck havoc at Carrefour...
so..
then went to Jun's place for cell...
PDL session...was good and everything...
Agnes called...
then fast forward...
i received 14missed calls...10voicemails...and 4 sms...
mum was damm pissed at me...
im grounded for the weekend...
sigh
yup.
i'll type coherently in the morning or something.
The problem with me is that
the speed of which I get attached to certain people is unusually identical to the speed of which I get bored of them.
took this off Toodle's blog...felt that it was so true..and that i couldn't have said it any better..
saw a purple guy...found him cute...and 5 mins later...don't like him...
hahahaha....
SURVEY!
i. something you can't stand
ii. NEE-ther or N-EYE-ther? don't say neither either.
iii. your usual sleeping position? cool side of pillow or no? number of pillows, thread count, atmosphere, temperature, etc.
iv. name you wish you had instead
v. genre of literature/cinema you most prefer
vi. why you think you like me
vii. particular article of clothing/accessory/shoes that makes you feel sexy
viii. description of dream house/room
ix. favorite alcoholic drink and why
x. favorite fancy-schmancy words
hey everybody!
i'm planning to take students for piano...
erm..yeah...like grade 0 to grade 4 or 5 maybe...
yeah...
anyone who's interested...leave a note yeah?
fees are negotiable..
duh..
hahaha
cuz if u are reading this...you're prolly a friend...or a friend's friend...or something like that..
haha
*beams*
the only reason why at 1130am i'm still at home and not in LT32 falling asleep during the einstein lecture is...
i've got a spectrometry test at 2pm...
but yet...i'm not a single tinny weeny ounce stressed...
nope siree..
for one thing...i'm still online...
checking stupid stuff like...sparkling water...
:)
it's called Voss and it's from norway..
right...like the country of orgin of water matters at all..
heh...
look at these bottles! aren't they PRETTY!
*beams*
i've got like....5 of them in my fridge now!!
Yay!!
12 of those big 800ml sparkling water costs 30USD....so..it's about 2.5USD per bottle!
wow...
it's even more expensive than my all time fav sparkling water perrier...
haha
but the glass bottles are so pretty ya?
haha..
*beams*
from the website...
Voss Sparkling Artesian water is lightly carbonated in the style of the famous European sources, distinguished by its fine persistent bubbles. The Voss bottle is a sleek cylinder that is beautiful to see and touch. Known for it's low mineral content, Voss is recommended to accompany fine wines and food and is the closest thing to pure H2O on the planet. A sip of Voss is like drinking fresh air.
ok...i'm feeling happy enough to continue flipping thru the spectro notes while drinking Voss!
:)
tralalala...
choices.
life's all about choices.
no matter what choice i make..
i know that He will use me to my fullest potential in that particular situation i'm in..
but that doesn't mean i can skip around my life without giving it any deep thought...
right?
I know I love You..
but what is the extent of my love for You?
will i be willing to change my entire life for You?
to risk family, friends, and even my life for You?
to give You control over all of me?
will i want to?
yeah...i know i want to..
but...
will i?
i don't know.
this thought struck me at crosslink today.
and it scares me.
cause...i don't know where to place You in my heart..
You have an important spot in me....we all know that...
but to what extent?
you know what?
i don't really want to think about this...
but if i don't think about it...
it's never gonna be resolved...
and it's gonna affect our relationship...for sure..
how?
oh well...for the time being...just know that i love You...
with whatever love i can give You now...
as in...my current maximum amount of love...
i'll figure out the extent and let You know soon...
but...
I love You.
my week wasn't really the best week i ever had...
like seriously...
had a horrible test on monday...
spent tuesday and wednesday mugging for a test...which was equally horrible..
because...whatever i deemed as unimportant came out...and the ones that i actually bothered memorizing didn't come out AT ALL...
so that was pretty sucky...
duh...
plus the added fact that i had a sore throat..flu...cough...fever...a mild diarrohea..
all rolled up into one...
that's when i decided to take time off on thursday and friday to stay home and chill..
and watch the entire season of FRIENDS...
and i got like 2 days of MC lar..so..yeah...
oh....side note...the mild case of diarrohea wasn't caused by any unclean food or stuff...it was because of excessive consumption of SMINT...thanks ar jun...to get rid of the sore throat..and get diarrohea in return...don't see a point...
*rolls eyes*
then some shit happened to my car on friday...so it was a perfect looking vehicle when i drove it for lessons at night...
came back...
found out that i passed my piano...
and that totally lifted the grey clouds over my whole week...
seriously...
that was the silver lining of my entire week's worth of stormy clouds...
and by choice...albeit a stupid choice...
i allowed something stupid and horrible..and darn irresponsible to ruin it all...
i allowed my single speck of golden sunlight be swallowed back up by the stormy skies...
because of that one news..i was pissed...totally pissed...
ultra pissed..
and if you haven't seen jamie pissed....trust me...you don't want to..
i was on the verge of scolding my ultra colourful language...
which cal has prolly heard before...since she says that i've got very interesting and long ones....and in foreign languages too..
well...i'm not really proud of the extensive collection of words that i have stored in my brain...but...it's there for reference sake...
ugh.
back to the main point...
to let a stupid mistake ruin a day...is stupid...
i've been waiting to hear that i pass my grade 8 for 4 years...
and i robbed me of my joy.
ugh.
anyway.
i don't really want to talk about that stupid thing that happened anymore.
i can forgive the person who did that, and i mean...i don't harbour hate or anything..
but i dislike the actions ALOT.
REALLY ALOT.
FRICKIN' ALOT.
and it's gonna take a while before i get ok with it.
ugh.
I PASSED MY GRADE 8!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you know how amazing that is?
trust me...
it's VERY amazing..
firstly...
i've been consistently failing since 2000...
yup..the year i start JC...
but then again...i wasn't registered for the exam on 2001...
so...
i failed a grand total of 2 exams...
and used exactly 2 different examination books...
cuz...1 book can only be used for 2 years....
yup...
Secondly...
i just passed...
100 out of 150...
100 = pass...
120 = merit
130 = distinction
hahaha
and i got 100!
i think...
:)
Thirdly...
i failed my sight reading...aural...scales...
and yeah...
which means....WOW....
cuz the whole exam consists only of....
Scales....aural...sight reading....and 3 exam pieces....
so....yeah...
i have no idea how power my pieces are...
but i PASSED!!!!!!!
WOOT!
yay!!
Praise the Lord...
:)
tralallalalaallaa
Who makes
The sun light up my shadows
When the darkness tries to follow me?
Who makes
The air that brings me life
So I can breathe the love that's given to me?
You make ev'rything good,
Ev'rything wonderful.
You grace my days
And heaven fills my view.
Let's forever sing.
You make ev'rything pure,
Ev'rything beautiful.
You make me see the only thing that's true:
It's You,
It's You.
Who makes
The waters of my sorrow part
And leads the gladness into my heart?
Who makes
The rivers run that wash away
And clean my soul to make a new start?
You make ev'rything good,
Ev'rything wonderful.
You grace my days
And heaven fills my view.
Let's forever sing.
You make ev'rything pure,
Ev'rything beautiful.
You make me see the only thing that's true:
It's You.
You hung the moon;
You placed the stars that shine Your love for me.
I hope all that I do
Will show reflections of You.
All I do, all for You, shine Your love through me.
You make ev'rything good,
Ev'rything wonderful.
You grace my days
And heaven fills my view.
Let's forever sing.
You make ev'rything pure,
Ev'rything beautiful.
You make me see the only thing that's true,
It's You, it's You, it's You.
You're ev'rything pure and beautiful.
I'll be there for you--By Rembrants
Verse 1
So no one told you life was gonna be this way.
[four claps]
Your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear,
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year,
Chorus
I'll be there for you!
(When the rain starts to pour)
I'll be there for you!
(Like I've been there before)
I'll be there for you
('Cause you're there for me too)
Verse 2
You're still in bed at ten and work began at eight,
You've burned your breakfast so far, things are going great,
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these,
But she didn't tell when the world has brought you down to your knees.
Chorus
Ich bin krank.
ugh....
well...i've got a sore throat...losing voice....plus flu...
so...yeah...sounds similar to that previous entry right?
yeah...it is...
the blardy germs are still there...
i'm gonna see the doctor later...
and it's not the useless ones from nus...
the medication they gave are like...totally mild...
i KNOW i need STRONGER ones...
cuz my germs are kinda strong...
anyway...this is a screenshot of my wallpaper which i love.
hahaha
yeah...
ok...meanwhile...i'm gonna watch the WHOLE season of FRIENDS which yingchao aka my shifu has so kindly burned for me...
YAY!
*beams*
My haloscan as a problem...
i can't seem to view anything...
maybe it'll go away tmr...so meanwhile...
tagboard please...
:)
my test was horrible today....
spent the entire yesterday + this morning trying to get FCC and BCC andHCP and octahedral and tetrahedral crystals stuff into my head...
and guess what....
Murphey's Law came to work...
NOTHING came out...NO CRYSTALS....
a whole lot of other unknown stuff came out tho...
someone please kill me...
*hands you the dagger*
anyway...finally the hard and difficult tests are over...
got a spectro test on monday...but i'm seriously hoping that it's gonna be open book and mcq...
meanwhile...
i'm going to sleep...
i'm dead tired...
gonna collapse soon...
I don't want to live on the moon
-Ernie-
Well, I'd like to visit the moon
On a rocket ship high in the air
Yes, I'd like to visit the moon
But I don't think I'd like to live there
Though I'd like to look down at the earth from above
I would miss all the places and people I love
So although I might like it for one afternoon
I don't want to live on the moon
I'd like to travel under the sea
I could meet all the fish everywhere
Yes, I'd travel under the sea
But I don't think I'd like to live there
I might stay for a day there if I had my wish
But there's not much to do when your friends are all fish
And an oyster and clam aren't real family
So I don't want to live in the sea
I'd like to visit the jungle, hear the lions roar
Go back in time and meet a dinosaur
There's so many strange places I'd like to be
But none of them permanently
So if I should visit the moon
Well, I'll dance on a moonbeam and then
I will make a wish on a star
And I'll wish I was home once again
Though I'd like to look down at the earth from above
I would miss all the places and people I love
So although I may go I'll be coming home soon
'Cause I don't want to live on the moon
No, I don't want to live on the moon
I've got a test in like...4hours time..
and i really couldn't care less now..
that's the least of my worries...
i've got a very sore throat...
but not voiceless yet....it's not even cracking..it's just PAIN...
and a runny nose that doesn't stop running...
it's officially...
i am a walking virus farm.
sigh.
listening to a kinda offkey piece of singing..
hahaha...
but it's offkey-ed in a not that horrible way...
i mean....will hung is way worse...
lol..
but still...it's off-key..
and somehow...i think that makes it more sincere...
so...yup...
i need to lie down...
ugh.
in response to something i found posted in my msn groups..
mel should prolly know who i'm referring to...
a quote..
some wun even bother keeping in touch unless its her birthday n she's inviting us...more or less, u can assume she's jus out of our league...n some would be busy with her other social life n she dun consider us her part of life...
oh my highness...forgive me, as i didn't kowtow to your every orders to meet..
i'm sorry that i have my own life...
and because of it..i have failed to actually let my world revolve around your life...for even a couple of hours...
which includes eating, gossipping and eating...
but do realise that i WOULD have gone for it...if not for the fact that the timings that you your highness chose for some reason or the other CLASHED with something else..which is also known as Crosslink...which in simple layman terms...Church.
and perhaps maybe some of the timings you chose were more for YOUR convenience and not OURS...and yup..perhaps that's how the clash of the social lives happened...amazing how in 24hrs a day...7 days a week...365 days a year....social clashes still do occur...maybe if we actually ASKED for opinions...instead of SETTING a day without asking prior to it...we could avoid the nasty prank Time had to play on us..
and my dear girl...not actually calling you to chit-chat doesn't mean i don't call others regularly..maybe you should re-evaluate yourself and find out what went wrong...
or perhaps make a poll to see if you're the only one that's being ignored..and find out why...self-evaluation is ALWAYS helpful..cutting down on your dominant side might also help..
stop shooting these unwanted, pathetic and useless arrows around my dear...
you'll never know when one of these arrows turn around and hit you in the back.
to reply this in the msn post would be too darn rude and i can't bear to hear the shriek that you'll prolly let out...so this would be for me and my own to read..
ugh. i'm telling you man....i love her...but still...she's insufferable sometimes...well...actually, most of the time...it's interesting how appearance can change in such a short time..and yet..the character remains the same....sigh.ok...this whole entry sounded harsh...but i need to get it out of my system..
"Tomorrow morning," the surgeon began, "I'll open up your heart..."
"You'll find Jesus there," the boy interrupted.
The surgeon looked up, annoyed "I'll cut your heart open," he continued, to see how much damage has been done..."
"But when you open up my heart, you'll find Jesus in there," said the boy.
The surgeon looked to the parents, who sat quietly. "When I see how much damage has been done, I'll sew your heart and chest back up, and I'll plan what to do next."
"But you'll find Jesus in my heart. The Bible says He lives there. The hymns all say He lives there. You'll find Him in my heart."
The surgeon had had enough. "I'll tell you what I'll find in your heart. I'll find damaged muscle, low blood supply, and weakened vessels. And I'll find out if I can make you well."
"You'll find Jesus there too. He lives there."
The surgeon left.
The surgeon sat in his office, recording his notes from the surgery, "...damaged aorta,damaged pulmonary vein, widespread muscle degeneration. No hope for transplant, no hope for cure.Therapy: painkillers and bed rest. Prognosis:, " here he paused, "death within one year."
He stopped the recorder, but there was more to be said. "Why?" he asked aloud. "Why did You do this? You've put him here; You've put him in this pain; and You've cursed him to an early death. Why?"
The Lord answered and said, "The boy, My lamb, was not meant for your flock for long, for he is a part of My flock, and will forever be.
Here, in My flock, he will feel no pain, and will be comforted as you cannot imagine. His parents will one day join him here, and they will know peace, and My flock will continue to grow."
The surgeon's tears were hot, but his anger was hotter. "You created that boy, and You created that heart. He'll be dead in months. Why?"
The Lord answered, "The boy, My lamb, shall return to My flock, for He has done his duty: I did not put My lamb with your flock to lose him, but to retrieve another lost lamb."
The surgeon wept.
The surgeon sat beside the boy's bed; the boy's parents sat across from him. The boy awoke and whispered, "Did you cut open my heart?"
"Yes," said the surgeon.
"What did you find?" asked the boy.
"I found Jesus there," said the surgeon.
-Author Unknown -
Celebrate Jesus in 2004!
-to forward it in the friendster bulletin board would be a pity...because i treat messages on that board as spam..to bother editing it and posting it up here...it means alot..-
wonder why i've got so many entries written today?
that's because my day sucked shit.
seriously bad.
but to turn a perfectly horrible day around..
which was caused by a 1hr45min test....
all you need is 2hours worth of sitcoms..
and it's good quality ones..
not the ones by singaporean actors and stuff..
not those with the lah lohs and lehs...
good sitcoms...
i watched...
that 70's show...Still Standing....Yes Dear....Becker....
there's Friends showing now tho...but i prolly should get
wonder why i've got so many entries written today?
that's because my day sucked shit.
seriously bad.
but to turn a perfectly horrible day around..
which was caused by a 1hr45min test....
all you need is 2hours worth of sitcoms..
and it's good quality ones..
not the ones by singaporean actors and stuff..
not those with the lah lohs and lehs...
good sitcoms...
i watched...
that 70's show...Still Standing....Yes Dear....Becker....
there's Friends showing now tho...but i prolly should get started on my lab manual...
yeah..
i'm still feeling kinda crappy...but all i need now is my big Daddy!
:)
i saw the sunset while walking home today...and i'm happy that i walked from that particular direction to the gate today...
cuz that's when i get to see the glow of the sun beams....
it's really pretty...
and i saw the sunset through the foliage...
not that it was anything like the one at Blue Mountains...
but i'm blaming in on the shortage of trees over here...
but still...
it was awesome..
Apparently everyone knew i was gonna end up in university ever since...
secondary school...i presume..
no one talked about university to me in primary school or below...
sigh..
and now...
i'm in university...
and i'm wondering why i'm here.
besides the obvious reason of getting a degree at the end of 3 years.
An African song keeps running in replay mode in my head..
and i'm not even sure it's a song..
something PS taught on saturday...
translated into english...it's...
Jesus i am yours forever and ever
Jesu ni wan gu
was ma wa mi lei lei
hahahaha....something like that....spelling's totally off tho...
:)
ever heard of the story of the Princess and the Pea?
remember how to princess can't seem to fall asleep because of the pea at the bottom of her many many mattresses?
even tho i don't think it's a pea that's giving me this problem nowadays...
i can't seem to be able to sleep...
perhaps only being lulled to sleep like 1hour after hitting the bed..
and that's kinda bad..
since i sleep at unearthly hours...
anyway..i've got this aching feeling erm..at my butt...
heh..
ugh..
dunno what to do with it.
and..
i'm gonna go study for my test later..since that's the reason why i skipped my einstein lecture in the first place..
off to do some work now..
:)
and yeah...i do live my life like a dream sometimes...but during the examination period...it's more like a nightmare than a dream..
:
vive la sua vita come un sogno
*grins*
have you ever woke up from a dream and went HUH?
i did.
i'm wondering if i ever slept in the first place..
man..
late night talks aren't my cup of tea..
especially about weird topics..
and i had a dream within a dream...
as in...i had a dream....but in the dream...i was dreaming about another thing...
and i woke up in the dream only to realise that it was a dream...
and then...i went about my other stuff...
and....this morning...i woke up to find out that...
that was a dream...
meaning that i had a dream within a dream...
are u confused?
i sure am.
sigh.
damm...
remember how i said i can see a future no more?
well...
i was wrong.
the future is still visible.
and i'm having mixed reactions.
on one hand...i'm :) that it's gonna be more than 3 mths...
on the other... i'm :( that it's not ending soon..
dammit.
ugh.
i don't understand myself sometimes..
sigh.
You are a SECF--Sober Emotional Constructive Follower. This makes you a Hippie.You are passionate about your causes and steadfast in your commitments. Once you've made up your mind, no one can convince you otherwise. Your politics are left-leaning, and your lifestyle choices decidedly temperate and chaste.You do tremendous work when focused, but usually you operate somewhat distracted. You blow hot and cold, and while you normally endeavor on the side of goodness and truth, you have a massive mean streak which is not to be taken lightly. You don't get mad, you get even.Please don't get even with this web site.Of the 34270 people who have taken this quiz since tracking began (8/17/2004), 10.8 % are this type.
You are a RPIG--Reserved Practical Intellectual Giver. This makes you a Rock of Gibraltar.
You are loyal, kind, thoughtful and conscientious. You're a good person. You make everyone around you happier and better, even if you yourself are not at your happiest or best. You just care so much about your friends and loved ones that you can't help giving them everything of yourself. It can wear you out, but you'd never let on.
You're successful, smart and fun to be with, but your self-esteem could use some boosting. You don't like conflict, and you don't like demanding things for yourself, so you can feel unappreciated. But then you wonder if you don't deserve to be appreciated. You do!
You have many small crushes, but it takes you ages to get to a serious stage with someone. You get so caught up second-guessing yourself and worrying if the other person really *likes* likes you that you never dare to make the first move. Generally you end up with another clever RPIG who knows one when s/he sees one. This adds up to one long courtship. Fortunately this also adds up to one long marriage.
You would never cheat. You would never hurt anyone's feelings. You are so sympathetic and give so many second chances that it takes a lo-o-ong time for anyone to get on your bad side.
Your only problem is you can be *too* thoughtful -- you can end up worrying and getting hung up over nothing. You may be a boy scout.
Of the 116471 people who have taken this quiz, 6.8 % are this type.
Sincere apologies to those who didn't recieve a cake on my blog for their birthdays...
mainly the september babies...
:)
so...
*drumrolls*
i present you the unfeatured September Babies! erm..and an October Baby..
Ta-dah!
ok...now to try to understand why each of you guys got what you've got..
because...pictures of nice cakes are running very very low...so...we have to INNOVATE.. :)
Liwei got a plate of pasta carbonara...because...on his tastebudds site...he said that he likes to eat pasta... :)
Michelle aka Sweetheart got a heart shaped lolly because...she gave me one like that too...heh..erm...yar... :)
Tiffany got a sticky gooey chocolate ice cream cake...because i think she'll love eating it...simple as that.. :) and the fact that the pictures of toffee ain't nice... heh...
Jasmine aka Wasserfrau got a girl + lolly to remind her that she's older than me...and ohh..i gave her that lolly like a week ago... :)
Carys got a cheesecake...because...i have no idea what she likes...so i reckon she would like this...cuz from recollection...i only remember her eating bagels and muffins...and how do u wish someone happy birthday with a bagel??? :)
Melissa aka Melly Belly Welly got a plate of crepes...cuz she'll eat crepes everytime we go Marche.. :)
tadah! done.
