MY PARENTS ARE BACK! like FINALLY!
and...
I am super duper proud of my cousin sister..
11 pts..
-beams-
and CONGRATS TO EVERY SINGLE O LEVELS KID!
YOU GUYS DID IT..
-beams-
yay to stalker!
yay to esther!
yay to jiehui!
yay to lijun!
yay to reags!
erm..oh yar..
yay to nigel!!
-beams-
im so proud of you guys..
you guys have your O Level Cert...finally.. :)
I WANNA WATCH LEMONY SNICKET'S SERIES OF UNFORTUNATE EVENTS!
:)
anyone??
and i wanna buy the storybook too..
:)
-beams-
yay!
i've got my spending power back..after 2 days playing jackpot..
made 20bucks from 10bucks..
and made 10 bucks from angpao by giving my jackpot seat up..
ha.
right...
i'm back...
it was SOOO boring.
someone please kill me.
oh well..
i played a few games of mahjong....finished my copying of the notes for japan and singapore...and did a few chapters of analytical..
basically..i was a nerd..
:)
anyway..went to the casino for a few times..
played with the jackpot machine and stuff...
i 'earned' quite alot actually..
cuz my granny struck jackpot twice..so...i've got a share as well.
ha.
but it's an expensive game..
tsk tsk..
oh well..
managed to catch the sunrise today.
but i reckon the photos won't be as good as expected because of the haze.
bah.
oh..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENE!!!
oh.
the big news for the day would be...
my braces are off.
-smiles widely to show off pearly whites-
and..when i wear my retainers i get my full set of teeth..
-smiles widely-
and i've book a date for my operation.
-beams-
saw this msg after coming back to the laptop..
petey.k™-servant king or servant's king? says: congrats on the removal of your braces hahaha...
anyway, Jiabin is sooo cute..
hahaha...
he used the word 'outstanding' to describe a behaviour which was outstandingly bad..
it doesn't make sense..nvm..
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers]
[Chorus]
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Piece by piece, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers
I miss my mummy...
she left a couple of minutes ago in a taxi...
and the tears just kept falling...
-sniff-
i miss her...
i don't want her to go......
this is the first time she's been away from me....
that isn't the same as me going away from her..
the selfish kid in me longs to shout.."Stay mummy...stay....cyprus is just another small island anyway..."
"I WANT MY MUMMY!!!!!!!"
-wails-
5 days before she comes back..i can't wait.
i spent 2hours cooking today.
the menu:
1) Cream of Mushroom with garlic.
2) Pork Chops with Apple Sauce.
3) Steamed Chinese Pear with Red Dates.
i'm soo proud of myself.
cooked for my mummy.. :D
but..she refuses to bring my monkey overseas with her.
-pouts-
anyway..i'm gonna skip jing's send off..
and..
skip EWJ..
and..
skip whatever else there is to skip on friday evening till sunday..
i'm going on a vacation.
like what they say...when the cat goes away, the mice come out to play.
i'll be going to the casino..and early morning walks while watching the horizon..
the other prices of alcohols are too expensive..
my monthly expenditure is getting WAYYYY high.
Total dictatorship starts tonight at 11pm.
ha.
by then...both parents are on 'vacation' officially.
by 3am..i'll be home free.
i get to boss my brother around and there's no one he can complain to..
sure he could just not do it..and technically..there's no way i could make him do whatever he doesn't want to..
but..
that's just a minor glitch.
ha.
ich bin der Kaiser. or something like that.
whatever.
oh..i forgot to mention that my parents assigned a whole ton of prime ministers and MPs to do damage control when they aren't around.
meaning.
i've got a ton of aunts, uncles, grandparents waiting to flock down on me once my parents fly.
quite a scary thought.
it kinda banishes the idea of a revolution.
I'm Pressurizing you to cheer up.
anyway...
when the half the world pressures you to go 'this' direction.
and when the other half of the world pressures you to go 'that' direction.
it makes a difference when someone pressures you 'to be cheer up'.
study study... as hard as you can.. says:(i'm pressurizing you to cheer up)
thank you for pressuring me.
i think i will take that path..the path to happiness.
not gonna move till my boss tells me that:
1. I'm fired.
2. I'm gonna be posted elsewhere.
3. I'm going to be promoted so that i would be able to finally meet him.
taken from jem's blog..
well.. i was looking at a pic we took in aussie and Jamie edited it.. and it brought me inspiration to write this entry... being a literature student.. everything i write these days are of metaphors, symbols, hidden connotations etc so things become surreal yet real. Seemingly true yet untrue - the power of words...
The pic reminded me of the process in which how footprints were formed and gone..
Man comes along innocently and trudges on without knowing the damage that he causes to the fragile sand... He leaves his imprints on the sand as he tranverse across the beach, heading to the destination seen by his eyes, set in his head..and damagin the beauty of the unblemished beach..
The footprints he leaves are not forever.. but for a moment they seem to be marks left forever being so deeply entrenched into the ground...
And all it takes is for the water to reach them to erase dem and make dem unblemished again.. but a gush of water is not enough as the remnants of the damage is left behind.. and so they wait.. and wait and wait... for that other gush of water to finally arrive and wipe out the remaining marks on the sand.. making it whole again...
...But in many parts of the beach... many footprints yearn to be made whole again...
they wait and wait...
... and yet the water never comes...
Thank you for caring.
(you know who you are. i appreciate it.)
i had a B-E-A-U-TIFUL day today.
i am serious.
ok fine..
i mean..
the day was really really pretty screwed after i found my beloved bracelet LOST.
imagine the pain. the shock. the trauma.
anyway.
yeah...and the gray clouds parted when glori called to say that "WE HAVE FOUND YOUR BRACELET!!!!"
-beams-
i love the girls....girls = esther, glori, jane, lijun (according to the alphabets)
met up with sybil after having lunch with the family.
but before that.
i was trying to find the perfect gift for her..
but she is sooooo difficult..
heh.
anyway..Tg is being nice and non-scary again..
because we came up with a better product..
phew.
that was a digression. i apologize.
so..we had lunch(for sybil) and tea(for me) at out of the pan.
the waffles were WHOA. fine..the Rocks were still better..but this ain't too bad either.
we were just chilling when mel and jack came...
then we walked around citylink etc..till gel came.
then we moaned and groaned about having to go all the way to aloha which is at the ulu-est part of pasir ris..when the birthday girl invited the ENTIRE world.
went there..5 anti-socials sat in a circle entertaining ourselves.
then a whole ton of hilarous stuff happened.
anyway..we kinda managed to plan a whole gathering of the sec 4 class..
but..we have a missing girl..no one seems to remember who she is...it's just that the numbers don't tally..we're missing one.
oh well. shrug.
organizer says that it's gonna be in my place... -rolls eyes-
organizer diao-ed me twice today when she didn't even dare diao me at all...
organizer told our 'head chef', sybil, that she could just come for the gathering and eat..without cooking..
organizer was geraldine..the quietest girl in class..she's amazing man..
:)
anyway..thanks ximei for the party..even tho it was a tad bit crowded and stuff.. but it was fun nonetheless..
made my day.
-beams-
i've got a long day tomorrow..
learning how to borrow books from nus's library.
lesson conducted by melissa. at anytime from 8am to 11am..
sigh.
early bookworm catches the book.
sheese.
talking to brandon, aka my 'best' friend..we're super different and yet so alike.
haha.
i really missed him.
and he's turned into a workaholic.
-traumatized-
You're not worth it.
4 years of friendship..i gave it a semi-decent burial with 1 night of tears.
woke up with swollen eyes and sniffing nose.
and i'm gonna get over it.
cuz you're not worth it.
i'm not going to bother sugar coating my words.
but.
you are a jerk.
A-CLASS jerk.
i deserve better friends than that.
and i'm glad to say that i've got better friends than that.
went to take photos of food today..quite ok lar..
then went for church..had an interesting session..
next went over for eugene's party..which was pretty cool..
THANKS EUGENE!
anyway..i am pissed now..
i really don't care if this is gonna sound mean/bad/wadever.
but i'm really pissed.
i mean...
if you're gonna use the present i gave you for another stupid degrading purpose besides the one that it's meant to be use as...
then just shutup.
i mean...what i don't know won't hurt me.
u think it was easy carrying the bloody big frame home..
cutting the stupid black papers and choose the stupid photos..
adding to the fact of lugging the stupidly heavy end-produact to you.
when you went like "wah lau" after you saw it..
i mean..
thanks a lot.
that's all the appreciation that i get.
but that was over since last year.
and today you had to give me such shit.
you're a frickin' idiot.
and i seriously don't like you much at all this very instant.
i'm never gonna give you anything.
maybe store bought or something. but never anything handmade/written/personalised.
forget it.
you're not worth the effort.
go away.
this is my room from where i was on the bed..
this is my new hairstyle..i dunno wad's gonna happen after i wash my hair tho..
mrs rodrigo's valentine's day flowers..
pretty feet! taken on 1 of the many days of the chinese new year..guess which feet belongs to who..
blue budgie on my finger!
it shat on me..
today's an overall interesting day..
interesting because..
interesting stuffs happened.
went for mrs rod's piano class today carrying 2 stalks of flowers..a rose and a carnation..heh..it's her valentine's day present..
ha.
then met jing at bugis..
more interesting stuff happened along the way to bugis..but i'll blog it in a separate entry.
so.anyway..
the plan was..to go bugis, so that i can go to muji and buy my photo album..
and she wanted to eat chawanmushi..
so..
quite a feasible plan..considering the fact that we met at 1.45pm..and she has to be in town at 4.30pm for a movie.
so..
we met..
and then..
we were approached by someone from toni and guy..yar..the ultra ex hair salon..
yeah..cuz their academy was just opposite the road..and they needed 2 models for the 2pm lesson..
so..
jing was soo excited over the free haircut and stuff...so..she dragged me along..
i mean..literally..
i would have also been excited about the free haircut and stuff..if i haven't already gone for 1 free haircut session...at...toni and guy.
went with xinyi...
the WHOLE thing took 3hrs..
-faints-
today..
it lasted for...2hours?
jing's one was longer tho..
anyway...the trainees were nice lar..
super scared and stuff..
jing's was jolene..and mine was a guy called michael..
he's quite nice..quiet etc...
but...
i caught a glimpse of a toothbrush in his pouch..the one where all the scissors and stuff are in...
yar...
TOOTHBRUSH??!!
anyway..
there basically wasnt' much for him to cut anyway..coz i trimmed my hair just before the cny..
so..
yup...
and my hair is too layered already lar..
so..it was quite thin and stuff..
but i'm quite happy with my new parting and stuff tho..but i wonder if it'll last after i shower..
:(
and jing's hair is SHORT.
oh...they cut REALLY REALLY REALLY SLOWLY.
serious. i almost died there. but it's free tho.
quote of the day : But that's imagination..imagination is different from reality.
today is a huo ri..which is Fire Day..
anyway..
Pam is in UK!
like finally
haha
:D
oh well..
the revolutionary war has started
i was bombing Tg just now..
weapons of mass destruction aimed at his loopholey idea..
bwahahaha.
the military chooses cost over quality no? especially for stuff like gas masks..
i mean..come on..
they have a budget..
and besides..they would prolly be more willing to use the extra cash in the area of R&D..
i mean..i know YOU have worn a gas mask before..and it's HEAVY..
but the longest period you wore it for was for 1 hour.. which works out to be 60mins..
get a grip lar..
stop whining about how heavy it is..
it's just 60mins of uncomfortableness...
-shrugs-
i was the bleeding devil's advocate today...
and i don't care.
REVOLUTION!!!
-starts singing Mao Zedong's communist songs..-
hahaha
apparently....
ahem..
other group member's disapprove of Tg's ideas too..
-sniggers-
i shall be the saint and listen to his views tomorrow..
even tho i'm not agreeable with it too..
bwahhaah.
i'm biased.
:)
and the other grp member supported my idea!!!
yay!!
REVOLUTION!!!
:D
but...i dunno if he's trying to upsurge and takeover the throne(aka the leader position)
or..
we're trying to overthrow him as the pseudo leader..and let the REAL leader (aka ME) take over..
but i dun even know wad to do after overthrowing him..
plan a party perhaps..
-grins-
i don't wanna talk about the stupid nation building test.
argh..
i so don't like david marshall..or the british...or communists...or HISTORY.
bleah.
went shopping at ikea for ximei and sybil's birthday presents..
took quite a while tho..
bought yu sheng home...
quite nice.. cuz they have the orange peel thingy.. :)
oh well...
aileen wrote me a poem...i'll post it later.. :)
and...
i think i'm gonna like watch the channel 8 drama serial at 9pm...
so nice..
hahaa..
it's the one with the 3 sisters...
and i still can't believe that i'm enjoying the show..
-shrugs-
Terence Cao is SOOOOO good looking..
esp as the korean guy...
i think i like korean guys...
heh...
should talk to taemin more often..
-beams-
one more test before i declare the start of the term break..
i mean..it really starts on friday..since i've got no school then..
but who cares..
i mean..
i'm gonna skip 1 chem morning lecture tmr...and i'll go for the japan tutorial..
then followed by a project group meeting..
we'll see tmr if i strangle Tg with my bare hands or not..
anyway..i had 7 mistakes in my polymer test today..
argh.
7 mistakes in 17 question...which means..
i've got 10/17...
:(
lousy..
but oh well..according to vin..Tg got 10marks too..
ha.
and to think i didn't even really study
:D
and i'm in trouble..
i've been home since 12noon...
and i haven't even flipped a page of nation building yet..
and the test is at 6.15pm..and it's 2.30pm..and i'm supposed to meet mel later at 3.30pm..
oh shiet...
Leaving on a Jet Plane
Happy Birthday Nick...
and at the same time..
Bye bye Nick..
sorry for not sending you off..
:(
i've got 2 tests tmr..
sorry..
have fun in melb..i know you will..
and come back soon...
-images are from getty images-
jem thinks that the guy sucks..jun says that he sticks out like a sore thumb. Bleargh. it's ART. haha..or rather a photoshop experiment gone wrong..
poem of the day...
I am the moon and you are the star
I am the rose and you are the thorn
I am the mountain and you are the valley
I am the cookie and you are the chocolate chip.
-copyright-
hahaha...we came up with this during one very boring lecture of physical chem..
and it was sent to mun's boyfriend..who asked if she was high..
and i msg-ed that poem to like a couple of other people too..
heh..
oh well..
-shrugs-
used mel's phone to send it over to jack too..
tralalala..
i'm like the frickin' cupid..
and i went home early today..to bum around and sleep..
and now..i'm watching Down With Love..
nice show..
i love New York in the 1960s..
especially in the days of black and white tv and tall tall hats..and high high socks..
quote: Peter MacMannus - 4,000,000 women in the naked city, and the one you let get away, the one you had to get on the bad side of, is the one all the other 4,000,000 are listening to. 
my weekend is basically..well..it didn't turn out according to plan..
1st thing which eventually led to the downfall of events..
i went for a gathering on friday..when i was supposed to be studying at home..
then...saturday was spent visiting and nua-ing at home instead of going for xlink..
and..i was watching Bruce Almighty on Star Movies..followed by Van Wilder...followed by American Pie 3 the Wedding..ha..i slept at 3am i reckon...
and...sunday..instead of going to mr chan's place...i decided to just bum around at home..
even my mum was quite amazed.
but it's gonna be a long weekend next week too..
with the photo thingy, eugene's party, ximei's party and the applied chem bbq..
quotes from van wilder :
1. Worrying is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do, but it doesn't get you anywhere.
2. You shouldn't take life to seriously. You'll never get out alive.
3.if you're always thinking about the future, then you kinda forget about the present.
Letter to You.
I've been weird these days..
been putting alot of blame on the hormones too..
but You know that it's just pure bullshit.
I've been getting easily irritated and pissed..
and somehow..
it ends up causing me to be irritated with you.
maybe it's because of the link between your people and you..
but i realised that nothing actually came out of it.
being irritated with you didn't make me feel any better..
in fact it made me feel worse.
and you know what?
the people who were the cause of it didn't know anything about it.
which sorta kinda fans the flames of fury..
(i might be the cause of the whole thing..but i'm ranting..so..let's just assume that it's them and not me.)
the step i took was that of avoidance.
the rationale behind it was that..
the less you see/talk/hear of someone..
the less conflicts there will be.
and..it works..in a way..if not for the fact that i'm still back in my own little hole..square one...the spot where i was in last year, this time.
it just seems like i did not make any significant movements in like.. 365 days?
and i'm just so tired of it all.
life's a rollercoaster..
and it's fun when you're at the top of the world..
but when you start plunging down into darkness..
everything just fades away..
it's like the dementors attacking you at your core..
(note: refer to harry potter for the meaning of dementor)
it's so horrible.
and then when you're at the lowest point of the ride.
you look up and you see this towering slope...
which seems so daunting and invincible..
and i thought that the first step was the hardest of all steps to make.
but then after making it..
i found out that it's not just that one step.
the WHOLE uphill climb is just so tedious and taxing.
and there are potholes and loose rocks everywhere...just waiting for you to step on them and there you go rolling down the slope again..
it's kinda similiar to the whole story of Jack and Jill..
and i'm quite sick of it..but i don't know how to solve it.
would you be so kind as to send a helicopter or something down to let me hitch a ride back up?
i'm tired, and thirsty and hungry and sleepy and well...i wanna be up there again.
king of the bloody hill..
top of the world.
right next to you.
help me.
God Bless.
Vertical Horizon - You're a God.
I've gotta be honest
I think you know
We're covered in lies and that's okay
And there's somewhere beyond this, I know
But I hope I can find the words to say
Never again, no...
No, never again...
'Cause you're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
I'd let you go
But I've been unable
To put you down
I'm still learning things I ought to know by now
It's under the table, so
I need something more to show, somehow
So, never again, no...
No, never again...
'Cause you're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
I'd let you go
I've got to be honest
I think you know
We're covered in lies and that's okay
There's somewhere beyond this, I know
But I hope I can find the words to say
Never again, no...
No, never again...
'Cause you're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
I'd let you go
You're a god
(Oh, and I am not)
I just thought that you would know...
(Oh, I thought that you would know)
You're a god
(Oh, and I am not)
I just thought
I'd let you go
i've found a nice photoblog.
and you know what?
we're having way too little photos of agnes in uk.
so..
-drumrolls-
PHOTOS OF AGNES IN UK!
-these aren't taken by me...duh..i'm in singapore..haha..they're by jen and from her blog..refer to links.-
there we go.. yay!
i think i've got at least one photo of a chair somewhere...heh..thinking of sending it over..after seeing the bumper page of chairs.. :D
pam's leaving this monday.
shucks.
the holidays are over.
right.
so.
now..i'm back in business.
any queries about any projects can henceforth be asked.
ask and i will reply.
right.
and i promise not to blow.
since i'm no longer in the holidays.
right.
so be your darnest most irritating self and shoot me some hardballs so that i can swing them back at you.
blah.
gotta be at school at around 1 to study!
then popping over to show parade say hi.. to the cell.
then i ought to be running home after that...unless jing's at home.
we'll see about that.
i saw pretty photos on a pretty photosite today.
-beams-
oh well.
yesterday has been a walk through memory lane.
not MY memories..
but my grandma's, my mum's, my aunt's, my dad's, my uncles', in short..the memory lanes of the older generation.
saw photos of everyone...sort of bumbled stumbled around in their too-big-shoes, and drew links from the photos and the stories of the past/untold...
and well..
i'm proud of them..
for coming so far.
and i all i hope for is that when i'm their age.
someone else will try walking around in my shoes and find them too big..
-p.s i still think i looks ultra blur cute as a kid.
it's amazing how one can change one's msn nick to "Hell wants him. Heaven won't take him. Earth needs him." and then the whole world thinks that one has watched Constantine.
anyway..
STOP PUSHING ME.
STOP IT YOU AND YOU AND YOU.
I WILL BREAK SOON.
PRESSURE FROM ALL DIRECTIONS ISN'T FUN.
ESP WHEN I HAD A BLARDY CONVERSATION WITH YOU LAST NIGHT..AND I'M STILL RECOVERING FROM IT.
DON'T ASK ME IF I HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT ANY NEW PRODUCTS.
IF I HAVE.
I WOULD HAVE TOLD YOU.
SO.
BUGGER OFF PLEASE.
PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS TMR.
AND BEFORE I HAVE TO SEE YOU FACE TO FACE ON MONDAY.
PLEASE PRAY THAT I WON'T CARRY MY SET OF SAMURAI KNIVES AND START THROWING THEM AT YOU ONCE I SPOT YOU IN SCHOOL.
STOP PRESSURING ME. AND TRYING TO FORCE ANSWERS THAT I CAN'T GIVE OUT OF ME.
i am so nua-ed.
but i am not drunk.
how can i be drunk?
it's just paul masson..
good wine tho.
i'm not drunk but i am highly irritatable..
-bares teeth-
anyway..i played mahjong today..
so fun.
:D
playing again on sunday!!
yay!!!
MR CHAN'S PLACE.
01S18...PLEASE COME.
:D
see...jamie said PLEASE.
so COME.
saw like almost all my grandaunts today at my aunt's place.
frickin' cool.
cuz my family tree is as complicated as some hongkong drama serial.
really.
cuz apparently, my great grandma had 2 husbands.
o__O
heh.
drama eh..
and pete refuses to give me ang bao because i don't have an ah ma...currently..
what bullshitty rubbish is that?
and..
note to Tang Shangjun: I AM NOT DRUNK. it's just <500ml of wine. so..there's that.
and i am going to read my nation building tutorial question later.
HAPPY NEW YEAR ONE AND ALL.
AND I WANT TO KILL SOMEONE.
like KILL AND WRING HIS NECK AND HANG IT ON THE CLOTHESLINE TO DRY.
the person is..
Tg.
i tell u ar..
IM ON A HOLIDAY.
I AM NOT SUPPOSED TO BE THINKING OF THINGS.
AND I DO NOT WANT A PROJECT MEETING ON V-DAY.
BECAUSE I'VE GOT CLASSES FROM 8AM TO 6PM.
AND SAME GOES FOR TUESDAY
AND I'VE GOT A TEST ON WEDNESDAY 6PM
SO.IT'S THURSDAY. TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT.
FRICKIN PIECE OF SHIT.
YOU THINK THINKING OF BLARDY IDEAS IS SO EASY RIGHT?
WHY DON'T I SEE YOU GIVING SOME IDEAS?
I MEAN..
TALK IS CHEAP.
AND TO THINK I'M LIKE BEING SUPER NICE TO YOU NOW..WHEN ALL I CAN THINK OF IS KILLING YOU. AND IT ISN'T GOING TO DO ANY GOOD FOR MY KHARMA.
AND YOU ARE SO SUPER AMBITIOUS.
LIKE 'WE NEED TO THINK OF SOMETHING NEW'
I MEAN.
GROW UP.
WE ARE LIVING IN 2005.
ANYTHING THAT CAN BE INVENTED AS BEEN INVENTED.
ALL WE CAN DO IS PROLLY REINVENT THE WHEEL.
STILL DARE TO GIVE ME BULLSHIT LIKE WE MUST DARE TO DREAM.
I SO SERIOUSLY WANT TO KILL YOU.
AND LIKE LET YOU DO ALL THE THINKING.
I'M NOT GOING TO THINK ANYMORE.
MY BRAINS ARE MAXED OUT.
YOU STUPID DODO-NUT TG.
YOU THINK THAT ANOTHER GRP HAS 3 MEETINGS SO FAR..SO WE NEED 1 MORE TOO.
I MEAN.
GET A LIFE.
OUR FIRST MEETING LASTED 3 HRS. OR DID YOU FORGET IT?
AND THAT GROUP IS LIKE 1 OUT OF 6 BLARDY GROUPS.
THE REST OF THE GROUPS MET FOR LIKE 30MINS ONLY!
1 GROUP HASN'T EVEN MET YET.
I WANT TO KILL YOU AND STAMP ON YOU AND WRING YOUR NECK.
-ranting ends here-
bad for kharma.
i'm so going to suffer in the year of the cock.
bah.
I think that i can be a total selfish bitch sometimes.
and maybe i've become more so this year.
i'm sorry for being a total arsehole and blardy bitch all rolled into one.
maybe you caught me on one of my bad days.
maybe i was/am/am still pissed at you.
maybe i had pms.
maybe i just wanted you to go away.
maybe..
maybe...
loads of speculations, but no real and defined answer.
perhaps i don't want to share my real and defined answer.
don't ask me why.
i've got no idea.
i bought a super cool book today.
one of my many impulsive buys of the year..
18.50bucks...title's How to be a Complete and Utter Failure in Life, Work and Everything.
it's pretty cool.
working on reverse psychology.
which i'll prolly relate more with.
i'm super tired.
this holidays will come and go in a flash..
don't really look forward to it..
maybe it's because i'm dreading the aftermath of it.
i don't know.
i think i'm a maze or even a rubik's cube.
i'm still stuck in the maze and i haven't solve the cube yet.
in fact. i don't think i ever will solve me.
maybe change would be good.
maybe.
maybe i just became someone from your past.
a girl you once knew.
maybe.
today was spent stoning in eugene khor's lecture..
telling him the year some old polymer scientist died..
and well..listening to him.
something which is so true these days which alot of people have actually forgotten would be..
Your Success is only defined by you, yourself, and no one else.
a super weird example would be..let's say...if PM Lee thinks that a woman's success is to like give birth to 10 kids..to boost the population of Singapore..
will that mean that if you don't have 10 kids..you aren't successful?
u can't superimpose someone else's expection or definition of success onto yourself or others.
yup.
and another thing was that...if you don't know where you're going, or what you want to do in future, you won't have to passion for anything.
which would basically define my current non-existant state.
zao-ed "anal" aka analytical chemistry..cuz i was pretty much sleeping through the entire lecture..
i think im going to have a crush on Tg...oh dear.
luckily mun has a bf and doesn't REALLY LOVE Tg...
haha
:)
oh well..
just heard Blue's Best in Me on the radio.
it's quite good.
they're one of the boybands which i like..
ha.
-click the link to hear the song-
i need to sleep...
i'm SO zombie-fied. and there's NO WAY i'll be going to any of the markets tonight or tmr night or whenever.
and i do message people that i know with the weirdest and randomest stuff..
just left a note at yingchao's saying...angpaooooo...
ha.
i need sleep.
anyway...if any of u girls or guys out there are interested in my shifu, yingchao..
please feel free to leave a note or something..
the 1st 6 digits of his handphone number is given in someone's (*ahem* khim's) blog.
so..his number is 9xxxxx64
bwahahaha.
i so need a commission cut from my shimu.
-grins-
and the photo of the day
i made the CAKE!
erm..i think i added too much lemon...
-looks up and down and everywhere else-
oh well.
i've got 2 trays..
who wants to help finish it for me?
-smiles widely-
aiya..
it really isn't all THAT bad..
i mean..the crust is perfectly nice..
cuz it's erm...oreo-ly and chocolate-y
:)
anyway..too much sugar can lead to diabetes..
-bleargh-
oh..in other news...
i walked into a pole today.
wham bam slam.
-achey right shoulder and right toe-
and...
to borrow words from glori about ryan on saturday...
-start quote-
if ry were given 30 more seconds today, you would have caught me tearing. it was incredibly sweet.
-end quote-
guess wad...it was about me...so i was already on the verge of tearing..
5 more secs and you'll be seeing a tearing me.
but it was really sweet..
thank you ry.
:)
YAY!
me has khim's oreo cheesecake recipe!
yay!
:D
me = happy.
i saw this guy frm taekwondo today..
he looks the same as he did 6 years ago.
he can prolly be called a guy from my past..
heh.
he looks rounder..
erm...bulkier..
:)
i think i'm super bullshit.
supposed to have a weekend physical chemistry quiz session.
asked sylvia for her answers.
then looked thru the questions without calculating anything..
then...
saw Tg online today...
asked him if sylvia's answers are correct...
and he said that i'm smart..and i've got full marks..
i think i'm such a fake.
what if they see the real me..
schieBe.
oh well..
i'm off to submit "my" answers and get the full marks..
i want to be back with you. but i'm finding it hard to be back with you.
in other news..
we saw ms pamela hor drive today!
she can drive..but the question is...CAN SHE PARK?
o__O
haha.
shall not be mean.
and i heard from an unnamed source that "Jamie's driving is unsteady"
...
that's the last time you'll be hitching a ride from me..MISS CHIANG JINGJING.
-bleargh-
oh well.
esther gave me a card!!
so nice and pretty!!
my 1st chinese new year card for 2005! most prob my last too..cuz i don't really get alot of cny cards.. :)
i love u!!! thank you!!
:)
next..
we played many games today.
an interesting one would be..
honey, could you please smile for me..or something liddat..heh
and ryan was SOOOOO SWEET!!
Awwww..
really.
-beams-
just realised that i've got enough oranges to last me 3mths.
nice nice.
and another random thought.
i think there might be a reason why i drive at high speeds when i'm alone in the car.
it's not about the wind blowing...maybe it is partly..
but it might be because i have a death wish..
might be tad bit sucidal.
but no reason to worry..cuz i usually do the speeding thing and the emergency brake thingy.
my braking skills are quite note-worthy.
so don't worry.
i don't wanna buy more anti-wrinkle cream..one for pete is enough.
these ugly cookies aren't shaped by me.
they killed the ugly cookies.
jasmine doesn't really trust yingchao..heh..
weiyao, our chief german cookbook reader, trying to find out how many separated eggs and whole eggs we need.
A classic example of how too many cooks can spoil a broth.
Lee ying, inspecting the state of the plastic containers used.
The slightly charred, but very nice German Cherry Chocolate Cake.
this has nothing to do with anything, but i like my butterfly charm!
the baking photos.
more photos here...
This should be THE song for Valentine 2005.
Kenny Rogers or Luther Vandross-Buy me a Rose.
He works hard to give her all he thinks she wants
A three car garage, her own credit cards
He pulls in late to wake her up with a kiss good night
If he could only read her mind, she’d say:
Buy me a rose, call me from work
Open a door for me, what would it hurt
Show me you love me by the look in your eyes
These are the little things I need the most in my life
Now the days have grown to years of feeling all alone
And she can’t help but wonder what she’s doing wrong
Cause lately she’d try anything to turn his head
Would it make a difference if she said:
Buy me a rose, call me from work
Open a door for me, what would it hurt
Show me you love me by the look in your eyes
These are the little things I need the most in my life
And the more that he lives the less that he tries
To show her the love that he hold inside
And the more that she gives the more that he sees
This is a story of you and me
So I bought you a rose on the way home from work
Opened the door to a heart that I hurt
And I hope you notice this look in my eyes
Cause I’m gonna make things right
I’m gonna hold you tonight
Do all those little things
For the rest of your life.
-teary eyed-
anyway..i've been thinking about this for quite a bit..( i do take my responsibility as the leader seriously ok....)
since we're supposed to be recycling the plastics and rubbers..
the most important question would be..
WHAT DOES THE WORLD NEED??
i've came up with an answer.
MONEY. MOOLAH. DOUGH. CASH.
who doesn't need money?
heh..anyway..but seriously..
i think the answer would be LOVE.
i mean...come on..the answer's been staring at you right in the face...
it's like a four-letter-word surrounded by little blinking neon light bulbs.
-flash flash flash-
this song has been running thru my head since wednesday..when the 'world' question came into existance in my puny little head.
Jackie DeShannon - What the world needs now is Love
"What the world needs now is love, sweet love
It's the only thing that there's just too little of
What the world needs now is love, sweet love,
No not just for some but for everyone."
next on the list would be our dearly beloved "black eyed peas ft Justin Timberlake"
so.
the world needs love.
and well..
more money wouldn't hurt anyone.
someone told me yesterday that reading my blog makes him smile...
-hmmmmmm...-
hahaha..
it's a compliment i guess...
i mean.
i'm glad i can bring smiles to people.
:)
as long as you don't smile when you're reading my entries that are like full of angst and depression...
if you do...
you're one sadistic idiot.
-bleargh-
oh...
I'VE GOT COOKIES!!!
ha.
despite having a cookie phobia...
i bugged chengho for cookies that he baked.
like..from step 1..which would be the opening of the cookie mix bag..mixing the egg and oil and water and shaping the cookies and preheating the oven.
it's all by him!
-amazed-
ha
and now wenkai's asking me all about jeremy..
'the curse of my lab'
haha.
cuz apparently, my group ends earlier when he isn't around to disturb us.
errrr...
i forgot what i wanted to blog.
oh..i remembered.
remember a couple of weeks back...
i was complaining about having to spring clean my room...
weeellll...
apparently....
it's in somewhat of a disordered mess.
or maybe an 'ordered mess' would be more appropriate.
cuz only i can navigate my way around the piles of books and papers and clothes.
hmm.
i better clear the place soon before my mum starts.
kk...cookies for everyone at xlink tmr...
erm..not exactly a cookie each..but cookie crumbs for everyone!
yay.
that's the v day present for the xlinkers.
i'm too busy lar....
and the cookie tastes good.. so don't complain.
OHOHOH.
LIWEI IS FLYING TONIGHT!!!
but i'm too tired to go over to the airport.
oh noooo..
but then again. on the bright side(there is always a bright side).
he'll get his internet access back again and he'll get to settle his uni stuff..
:)
oh..and kun is trying to find some weird sounding raspberry river cadbury chocolate...
he's nuts i tell u..
cuz they don't make it here in sg.
you can't find it!
erm...errr...
i think i thought that someone from the german kaffee und kuchen thingy was cute..
hmmm...
shall not post too much.
the internet is a frickin dangerous place.
the cake was NICE!
der cherry kuchen was nice nice nice
-smacks lips-
the oreo cheese cake too!
-smacks lips-
heh..
the event was sucessful..turnout was good.
nice nice nice.
saw so many people...
like weishan, kaiqing, beilin etc..
plus the guys from last night
:D
saw nice pretty beautiful photos taken by minghui in darmstadt too..
plus the video directed by my very own shifu..
haha..with the NGs..
haha.
oh..and there was a very very very eeee photo of the guys topless...
o___O
-traumatized-
i better shutup in case they actually see this blog..
haha.
it's prolly going public..
very public.
i want to go eat the cake.
but i'm sleepy.
oh dear.
didn't managed to meet pam today for lunch..
she was at science park 2..which was very near nus...but her supervisor was around..so she couldn't lunch with me..
found out that T1 isn't really THAT fierce.
she's quite nice lar..
yar.
i'm quite tired now.
i think the sugar high from yesterday has finally met its' waterloo.
oh dear.
i am back.
i baked ALOT today.
the guys are...unhygienic...
SUPER unhygienic..
eeee...
they played with the cookie dough with their BARE HANDS.
and they made weird shapes.
and carved weird letters like an inverted F in them after they're baked.
and the cookies weren't even HARD. it was brownie-like...
mine was better.
-bleargh-
erm...it was the first attempt...so it was slightly..ONLY SLIGHTLY charred.
:D
charcoal pills are good.. :)
YAY.
then chengho surprised us all when we went to lock ourselves in khim's room and watch bk and jf tumble in the sheets together..
haha..they're both guys btw..
heh.
anyway...i digress...chengho started baking cookies again..with a new pack of betty crocker's cookie mix.
:)
there were 9 cookies in the first batch.
only we, the people present, will know why..
haha..
9 is a good number.
-nods head-
spent eons trying to separate 3 blardy eggyolks from their whites...
but there will ALWAYS be a cracked egg yolk.
stupid chicken eggs.
cuz the whites didn't PEAKED.
heh. so we spent like 6 + 3 eggs trying to separate them properly and peaking them.
then i saw weird carvings on the chocolate cubes..
z.B BK 'heart' JF
we have scandalous photos too.
and we saw weird videos of the german trip...like people peeing in the bushes...
-__-
right.
photos to be up soon.
i've got a cookie phobia.
i need to detox.
tomorrow's the german cake competition!! yay!!
our cherry chocolate cake will kick asses!!
cuz i separated the eggs...and i decorated the cherries...which ended up looking acne-like..
but that isn't the point.
we are going to win!!
hahaha..
i hope.
YAY
CAKE BAKING COMPETITION!!
YAY!
i hope they won't screw up because of me
haha
oh well..
i'm off to school (again) to bake CAKE!
yay!
don't think i'll be going for cell this week again..
don't even know if there is cell in the first place..
but cakecakecakecake..
:D
i want bake cookies...
but khim's oven might be too weird...or like no baking tray..or something..
-shrugs-
lalalala...
gonna BAKE CAKE!!
ok..i think i had too much caffeine...
and ah..i have no idea how and why i have a 'supposed' scandal now.
shit.
and the guy has a gf lor...wah lau..and i don't like him...dunno why..
never even talked to him..
Tg is so much better..
i think i might be developing a small crush on Tg.
shit..shouldn't see him everyday...no good..
tsk tsk.
kk...gonna go cold storage now!
:D
Peter Khoo.
i knew him when he was still a boy..i guess..
he looks like a guy who would break all the rules.
but he turned out to be a councillor. (gosh...)
he was the first person who showed me how flamable an deodorant spray can is..
live demostration..the only way a person can really understand...and it was done in the aircon-ed council room.. (gosh..)
and then he let me try it...even tho i was screaming all the while.
experience of a lifetime.
together with xiangyu..he showed me how a person could simultaneously fart and burp at the same time, or even continuously...
still remains one of the many mysteries in life for me today.
we took weird photos..him, me, xiangyu, aileen and whoever who will join in...
weird close-ups of our teeth, eyes and whatever else.
he made me 'famous' with the arts teacher, mrs toh.
because when i went into the art room..i'll pop by and disturb him..and it was vice versa...i would disturb mrs toh too..but that was after i knew her better.
she's an awesome teacher, friend, person. 3 in 1..i love her.
i love the way she came up to me when i got my results for the A's and gave me her famous glare while asking me how i did..and i just showed her the result slip without even saying anything...and she just hugged me like right smack in the middle of the hall. anyway..i digressed.
pete had a dog called mickey. my favouritest dog. he's nice, old and doesn't jump at people..not like the younger ones..(ahem..burma and frap) mickey's elegant and has class..upper class breeding i would say.. i like. but he died last year.
after he got into NS, he bought an xbox. And i'm still trying to kidnap it..he threatened to bolt the machine to the floor. and his room is cool and messy. with lava lamps and grafitti on the walls. he once had a statue in there. sheese. anyway..i can trash him in tetris on the xbox. that's about it. any other game, he wins hands down. sigh. i die even in games where he gave me all the cheat codes.
and then i saw him grow up. like really grow into a guy. i saw him fall. saw him pick himself up. and saw him grow. and it was amazing. amazing change. and he in turn saw me fall several times. listened to all my bullshit. gave the right advice at the right time, and he saw me grow too. guess that's why we're ah kong and granddaughter. family ties. heh.
oh. i forgot. he was the one who bought me my first alcoholic drink from 7-11 when i was 17 and that caused me to take wonderfully horrible photos at some event that i had to cover. earned me a scolding from mrs toh. and he was the one who made me my first vodka + coke. and well..i didn't really like it. kim, aged 13, thought it was coke and wanted to drink it.
msned him from sydney. he gave advice from singapore. called me nuts when i told him i was drinking my 2nd mug of vodka. in turn, when he told me he drank vodka..i thought he was nuts too. i think..we have a love hate relationship with alcohol. but his tolerance level is way higher than me. seriously.
told him i was going to sydney to down like 1 bottle of wine per night. he threatened to use his 1 mth's pay to buy a ticket to fly down under just to whack me if i did that. so i compromised and said 1 bottle every 2 nights. and he said he'll still whack me. and so i said 3 NIGHTS! and he said still too much. and the bargain ended. i refused to cut any further. anyway..the holiday ended and i averaged about 1 bottle per night. but it was shared..by 3..don't ask about what happened when i drank 6 servings in a night.
and i came back. visited his mum and told her everything. and he told her about my drinking plan. and i almost died in aunty's hands..ok..fine..not THAT serious. but my rep was damaged. because apparently even peter doesn't do like 1 bottle per night.
oh well.
and he's nice cuz he's willing to have wrinkles on his forehead just for the sake of his friends. like...because he can't stop worrying about us. yeah. he doesn't think i'm responsible enough to handle myself.
so..that's prolly the low-down of PETER KHOO L.S my AH KONG.
if there's any girls interested in him. leave a note. if i approve of you. i'll let him know. ha.
ok..i'm stoned. need to drink baileys.
Have i ever mentioned yet that i'll be baking a german cake tmr?
-excited-
in NUS.
in PGP!
YAY!
with my german classmates.
haven't seen them in ages.
like...haven't seen them as a group since 2 sems ago.
but i've been seeing them around the campus tho.
they're nice.
i like.
Kuchen!!!
yum yum
but one think is that..we're meeting at 2pm for lunch and buying the ingredients..
and we're only eating at around 8pm..
so..exactly how long is the baking process?
Hmmmmmmmm.
almost banged 3 people and 1 road barrier down today.
erm..less than an hour.
on my way home from piano.
my dad was in the car.
i might never ever be able to lay hands on the carkeys.
someone get me my own set of wheels please?
nah.
i'm just kidding.
i've still got access to the car.
but no i wasn't kidding about the 3 people and the road barrier.
and my stuff came today
:)
i love my shifu
heh.
oh..new kinda cute TA spotting today.
erm...jeremy's better looking than sebastian tho.
hmm.
i am so amused.
12 The LORD Almighty has a day in store
for all the proud and lofty,
for all that is exalted
(and they will be humbled),
isaiah 2:12
and jiehui was hao-lianing about his bridge skills...
and i told him that the proud will be humbled or something like that..
and he was like..
yar...i lost 2 games
ha.
anyway..
mel was interestingly fierce..hahaha
she flamed someone in the forums...
ok..not really flamed..
but shot the person...haha
and then zhongming decided to shoot the person too..
it's scary how the niceties in the words actually carry like poisonous darts behind..
behind all the smiley faces...
aiyo..
scary ar..
tsk tsk.
N.B Mel..if you're reading this....i'm so innocent...i'm on your side! really! i'm just super amused. don't beat me or punch me or wadever..and do continue to print the notes for me..thanks. :D
anyway....jeremy changed his perfume or whatever he's wearing...
hahaha...
personally..i didn't smell him..got a blocked nose.
but the general feedback that i'm getting is that it's not nice..
ha.
thank God for my blocked nose.
hahaha
went home super early at 1pm...the labs usually end at 530pm...cuz they start only at 10am..
had a mini-emergency in the lab when the waste cupboard got stuck and i couldn't pour the stuff away..
because if i can't pour stuff away, i can't go home.
Tg = Tampines Guy = my proj grp guy who has a blur look but isn't blur at all..
Tg was weird
hahaha
he was like banging the cupboard doors and the handle and i thought it would break.
so scary.
violent guy.
haha..and i've got his number! hahaha..selling it for..erm..errrr...price negotiable :)
i know i'm utterly horrendous.
aiya..he's not THAT cute lar.
jeremy still looks better.
imagine what i can do with jeremy's number..
hmm...
ha.
oh well..a super nice TA, wati, gave us her number so that we can call to terrorize her...but she refuses to give us Kerk's number.
=.=
i mean..all i would prolly do is send a weird sms like..."why aren't you coming back?"
bhwahahaha...
super stalkerish..
ha. cuz he's super nice..but he isn't in the lab TA-ing anymore..hence that's why jeremy's here...
oh well...
let's see...
we psycho-ed wati to ask jeremy what perfume he wore 2 weeks ago..the super strong one...
wati said that she had a headache because of him..
hahaha..but he smelt nice wad... -whines-
so...
she went and asked...and he was like...huh? i've got quite alot..i dunno which one ure referring to..
ha.
-prays that wati didn't tell him who asked. or else... schieBe-
i told my lab mates that i'll stay in the polymer (non-aircon area) for the entire semester if he finds out that we're the one who asked that question...
so utterly paiseh.
oh well..
-shrugs-
i'm going to write a tribute for my dearest ah kong!
PETER KHOO!!
-applause-
that's for being such an awesome friend for the past 4 years...
sheese...
we're getting old..
aiyo.
-be right back after lunch-
heh.
ok...
peter is very very very nice.
really.
trust me.
if you don't believe me when i say that the skies are green..and the grass is blue...
you've got to believe me when i say that peter is really really nice.
this is weird.
shall continue another time.
sheese..
no inspiration.
